ISABELLA.
A
NOVEL.
BY
THE
AUTHOR OF “RHODA,” &c.
“Take if you can, ye
careless and supine,
Counsel
and caution from a voice like mine.
Truths
that the theorist could never reach,
And
observation taught me,——I teach.”
COWPER.
IN
THREE VOLUMES.
VOL.
II.
LONDON:
PRINTED
FOR HENRY COLBURN AND CO.
1823.
I S
A B E L L A.
CHAP.
XXIII.
——“Those
who can pity, here
May,
if they think it well, let fall a tear:
The
subject well deserves it.”
SHAKSPEARE.
ISABELLA
awoke the next morning with her heart alive to all the pleasures of her
situation, and her mind strengthened to meet all its difficulties. She
descended into the library, which now appeared to her as sanctified, and she
looked from it, upon a flower garden, gay with autumnal annuals, and kept with
the exactest neatness. This garden extended to the lake, the banks of which
were its southern boundary, and across which the park lay in ample extent, for
some distance, broad, well-wooded, with spacious glades opening on either hand:
then pressed by the surrounding hills, it seemed to run out into a valley,
wild, broken, and solemn. The view, as far as the eye could reach, was closed
by towering mountains, that seemed to make Eagle’s Crag a world of itself, shut
out from all other human interference.
Isabella
thought of Rasselas, and his happy valley!
Isabella
summoned Mrs. Evans to her side. “You must tell me the name of every cluster of
rocks that has a name,” said she; “and of every group of trees that was ever so
distinguished; you must instruct me where every path leads, and make me forget,
as soon as you can, that I am a stranger to that which I am so pleased to find
my home.”
Mrs.
Evans’s benevolent features brightened with pleasure. “Oh, Madam, there is many
an honest heart that I shall rejoice by telling what you say. How have we all
wished for this day, when my master would bring us a mistress! Now I am sure he
will love Eagle’s Crag again better, a thousand times better than when he used
to bound light and happy as that doe, from crag to crag.”
“You
must tell me of all those happy past-gone times,” said Isabella, sighing. “But
there is one thing that I do not see, and yet I am sure it is near: I mean a
church.”
“To
be sure there is, Madam!” returned Mrs. Evans; “but I wish I could go there
without thinking of those who used to take such delight in seeing the people
who sat around them, good and happy. But such times will come again now.”
“But
where is the church?” said Isabella. “You cannot see it from the house, Madam,”
replied Mrs. Evans, “and yet it is just by—but so it is with a great many
things at Eagle’s Crag; for the great mountain does jut out here, and then
there, in so many odd ways, that when you think you can go no farther, you just
turn sharp, and there you find room enough and to spare for some pretty
building, or some plot of garden-ground; and all so sheltered! and so warm! The
hot-house and the green-house, they are all built so, and they all are in very
good repair, although they are not filled with plants and fruits as they had
used to be. And now, I dare say,” continued Evans, who forgot the distance of
respect, in the interest of her subject; “I dare say, Madam, that you think the
lake quite shuts in the flower-garden at that end, and that you can get no farther;
but it is no such matter—there is the path which leads to the church,
and from thence there are many, many pretty walks; but they are rugged and
steep; not fit for those who have been only used to the smack smooth grounds
about London.”
“I
will soon teach myself to be used to them,” said Isabella. “You have been in
London then, Mrs. Evans?”
“Very
often,” said Evans. “I always went when my Lady went. I was her maid then; but
I have never stirred from Eagle’s Crag since I lost her; and I hope I never shall.”
Shall
I be so beloved? be so regretted, again? thought Isabella. There is something
very different in the manners of the servants to whom I have been accustomed
from those of this good Evans; she seems to take a pleasure in recognising the
relative situation of master and servant! while the very civility of the fine
ladies and gentlemen who speak of their superiors as if they were their equals,
is often actually impertinent; the cause of this difference must be in the
principals, thought Isabella.
“When
I have breakfasted,” said she, “you must shew me all the house; and let me see
all the servants. I have not had much to do with those we had in London. Mr.
Willoughby was so good as to save me all the trouble; but now he is not here, I
shall like to be acquainted with every thing; and you, I am sure will tell me
all that is necessary to know.”
Every
word that Isabella uttered raised her more and more in the favour of Mrs.
Evans; and had not this faithful domestic been conscious of the difficulties in
which Mr. Willoughby was involved, her joy on seeing once again such a head of
the family at Eagle’s Crag, would have known no bounds.
The
inspection of the house and household had the same effect on the mind of
Isabella as to her estimation of Mrs. Evans; nor was she more struck with the
magnificence of all that had been committed to the care of that faithful
domestic, than with the skill that had been exerted in its preservation. She
visited Mr. Roberts in his own apartment; and there, making both these worthy
dependants sit down, she explained in a few words the simplicity of her own
taste; the little attendance, or expense, that she should exact while she
continued alone; but she did all this with a dignity, and a delicacy, that
betrayed no consciousness of any cause for such restrictions but what was
founded in her own preference to such a mode of living; and she inquired what
provision could be made for extending the scale when Mr. Willoughby’s arrival
should make it necessary to resume more of the former manner of going on. She
received such answers to these inquiries, as proved to her that all had been
foreseen and arranged; she could not doubt but that this had been done by the
suggestion of Lady Rachel, who, however she might stimulate her to act for
herself, was thus advertent to render her way less intricate. She recalled
moreover her charge that she must not forget that economy, and parsimony were
of two houses; and she finished this first conversation with her new friends,
by desiring that some little festivity might be prepared for the household, and
such other dependants as Roberts and Evans might see proper to include as
guests, on the first arrival of the heir of the Willoughby’s at Eagle’s Crag.
“Madam,”
said Mr. Roberts, rising from his seat, and making a low and profound bow, “may
I be pardoned for saying so; but when I look upon you, it seems quite wonderful
to hear all you say; and to see that you forget nothing. My master is a happy
man!” bowing again.
“Oh!”
said Isabella, blushing, “I wish you may always find it so, but indeed I am
little used to such things, and I am afraid I shall make many mistakes.”
The
fact, however, really was that Isabella was astonished with her own powers; she
no longer found herself that trivial Being whose greatest exertion was made in
arranging a party of pleasure, or in ornamenting a ballroom; but she felt that
she had the destiny of many human creatures in her hands; and that she was
responsible for the use or abuse of a property which involved the comfort and
happiness of almost all around her.
Could it be that Mr. Willoughby had run away from
such a responsibility? ‘As large a remittance to be made to Dowkins as he can,’
thought Isabella; how shall I find proper terms in which to tell Roberts this?
I dread his eye; it will tell me so much that I shall tremble to hear; but I
must hear it, and Lady Rachel tells me that she rejoices that I am entered upon
such warfare! I will not shrink from it; but I could have been content to have
been spared it.
Such
reflections led her thoughts again to the church, she desired that the door
might be opened, and the way to it pointed out to her. Both were done by Mrs.
Evans, who seemed as if she suffered an injury when any one else administered
to the wishes and wants of her Lady.
Isabella
entered the sacred walls more at that instant impressed by the feeling that she
was about to visit the last receptacle of the ancestors of her husband, than
with any respect to the high destiny to which the building was dedicated. Nor
was there any other thought in the mind of her companion, who led her straight
to the recess from
whence descended the steps which led to the family vault. The sides of this
recess were covered with various monumental notices of the Willoughby family,
but contained, in the imagination of Mrs. Evans, but the single marble which
commemorated the virtues and the loss of her lamented superiors. With tears
fast flowing, and with a faltering voice, she began to comment, and to explain;
when Isabella’s eye, glancing on an unadorned tablet of the purest white
marble, read these words:
Sacred
to the memory
of
Rachel Roper! — the only offspring of
a
widowed mother.
And underneath followed these lines:
Mortal,
within this cold and narrow space
Lie
beauty’s bloom, and pleasure’s sparkling grace;
The
sculptor’s model, and the seraph’s voice;
An
eye that taught e’en sadness to rejoice!
All
these have perish’d by death’s stunning blow;
Like
the scorch’d flower by fervid suns laid low:
With
bitter sorrow let the wreck be mourn’d.
These
all were dust, and are to dust return’d!
But
love’s chaste ardours, and a will resign’d;
A
heart all softness, and all truth the mind;
With
pious hope, and firm integrity;
A
Christian’s faith, an angel’s charity;
These
all surviv’d! and to the realms of bliss
Bore
her pure soul, in trembling ecstacies!
Exult
immortal! in thy fellow’s lot!
Each
joy remember’d, and each pain forgot!
“What
is that?” said Isabella; “had Lady Rachel Roper a daughter?”
“Ah,
madam, did you not know that she had?” returned Evans, “I thought,––I supposed,––I thought that
you must have known all about Miss Roper.”
“Poor
Lady Rachel!” said Isabella.
“Ay,
poor indeed, madam!” replied Mrs. Evans; “nobody knows what Lady Rachel has
suffered! nor how she has borne it!”
Isabella
was carefully examining dates.
“But
how is this?” said she, “I had understood that Lady Rachel never resided here
after the death of Mr. Willoughby and Lady Margaret? and this marble is dated
several years after that event.”
“Lady
Rachel,” returned Mrs. Evans, “would have Miss Roper buried where she was born;
where she had lived; and where once she thought she would have had a right to
be buried.”
“A
right!” said Isabella; “was it not enough that Lady Rachel wished it?”
“Ah,
madam,” replied Mrs. Evans, “nobody disputed her right; but I mean if she had
married my master.”
Isabella
became sick. She supported herself on an adjoining tomb. “Let us go,” said she,
“I will come again some other time.”
Mrs.
Evans, seeing her emotion, hastened to offer her arm; Isabella accepted it;
and, breathing more freely when she returned to the open air, “Evans,” said
she, “you must tell me all this sad story. Oh, I sometimes thought that Lady
Rachel knew not how to allow for feelings which she had never experienced; but,
now I see that she has been tried with every sorrow that can wound the human
heart. Well may she treat those as light which touch little more than the
fancy; but I must know every thing; you said that Lady Rachel’s daughter was
born here?”
“Yes,
madam;” replied Mrs. Evans; “my lady went to her, when she was all in grief for
the loss of Mr. Roper, and she brought her home with her, and they never parted
afterwards. Lady Rachel and Mr. Roper had been lovers a great while, and
somehow they could not marry; and at last all came right, and they were the
happiest people! Oh! I have heard my lady tell of their happiness till my eyes
ran over. And then all of a sudden Mr. Roper was ordered abroad, and he was
killed in the first battle; and my lady was with child, or else it was thought
that she would have died too; but she did so struggle to preserve the life of
her infant!––and my lady took such care of her! And then the little girl was
born; a lovely baby it was! There were only two years between her and my
master. They were brought up together; and every one knew that the lady-sisters
wished that they might like one another; and sure enough there was a time when
they did, but they were too young to have the marriage talked of; and so after
my Lady and Mr. Willoughby died it came to nothing; for my master went into the
world, and thought of other things besides marrying; and then the young lady
fell ill, and she went from bad to worse, till she died of a consumption, and
then it was that Lady Rachel would bring her down here to be buried, and she
came with her herself. Many wondered that she could; but Lady Rachel had all
her thoughts in Heaven, so could bear earthly losses. She never shed one tear
all the time she was here; but when the mournful ceremonies were over, and she
got into her coach to go away. Oh, Madam! never shall I forget her look! and
she drew her veil over her face; and bold would have been the person who had
uncovered it, knowing what they must have seen there!”
Isabella’s
breath came thick and short, as she listened to this relation.
“Is
there any picture of Miss Roper?” said she.
“None,
Madam, only of Miss Roper,” returned
Mrs. Evans. “My Lady Rachel took away that which was painted of her when she
was about fifteen years old. But,” added she, hesitating, “there is another.”
“What
here?” said Isabella.
“Yes,
Madam; but it was taken when she was a child; and —
“Mr.
Willoughby is painted in the same piece,” said Isabella.
“Why
yes, Madam, that’s the thing. Both children; and at play as it were together: that is here.”
“How
could I miss seeing it when I looked over the whole house this morning?” said
Isabella.
“You
could not see it, Madam,” returned Evans.
“Is
it taken down? Surely it has not been thrown aside,” said Isabella; “Lady
Rachel would never allow that.”
“Oh
no, Madam, it is taken good care of,” said Mrs. Evans. “It hangs where it
always did; it is in the library.”
“Then why could not I see it?” said
Isabella.
“Why,
Madam, when my master was last here he was not quite like himself: he was out
of spirits; he seemed to be afraid of everything that he used to love; and one
morning he sent for me into the library. ‘Evans,’ said he, and the tears stood
in his eyes as he spoke, ‘I must have that picture taken down; it makes me
melancholy. I can’t inhabit this room if that picture is there, it must be
taken down; but you must take great care of it.’ My Lady, Sir, I said, hung it
there with her own hands. ‘Then,’ said he, quick, ‘it shall not be taken down, though it make me as
miserable as I deserve to be.’ I do not know what he meant by that, for I am
sure, if the prayers of the poor and the praises of the rich are to be trusted,
he well deserves to be happy. ‘But let my papers and books,’ said he, ‘be
removed into the green parlour: I will live there.’ I was very sorry for this,
Madam; for I knew my master always loved the library, as they did all; and he
had everything so handy about him there. So I thought I would manage so that he
should not see the picture, and yet stay in the room he liked best; and I told
him how I would contrive, and he seemed pleased. He said, ‘I shall like to be
near that picture, though I can’t bear to see it: perhaps it may do me good to
be near it.’ And so I managed, as I had seen my Lady manage, when she had a
mind to have two pictures in one place, that she might turn first one and then
the other side outward, as she liked best; and there were pictures enow that
would suit the size, and so I covered it up with a very pretty flower-piece of
my Lady’s own painting, and my master said no more about leaving the room; but
all together, I suppose, he did not like thinking of things that he could not
help thinking of when he was here, and so he never came again; but now it will
be quite another thing; now we shall see my dear master again.”
This
narration furnished Isabella with more than sufficient subject for reflection,
but it oppressed her almost beyond the power of thought.
She
believed that she had found, in what she had heard, a clue to the
inconsistencies of her husband’s character; she saw, not only a naturally good
disposition led astray by the influence of bad example; but she saw also, in
the eager versatility with which every new scheme of pleasure was pursued, an
attempt to escape from the reproachful workings of a principle of right, which
could not be violated with impunity—as long as this resource did not fail,
Isabella could hope nothing from the generosity of his temper, or the kindness
of his heart; every means of repelling the foe must drop from his slackened
hand, before he would seek the only true means of peace in a reconcilement with
his offended conscience. And could she bear to contemplate such a destitution
for the being whom she loved best on earth? And how could she forbear sinking
under the apprehension of the hardness of feelings too likely to be generated
by such a process? These were but a part of the painful thoughts that made
heavy the heart of Isabella. She might have hoped by undeviating rectitude, and
persevering attachment, finally to have triumphed over desultory fancy that the
whim of the moment might give birth to; but she was now aware that she had to
struggle against an early preference, which although it had not been powerful
enough to withstand the first gush of the world’s torrent, had like the supple
willow, only bowed its head, to rise again with added strength. Its course was
now aided by a sense of the disappointment which had attended all that had been
preferred to its claims, by the bitterness of self reproach, and by the
hopelessness of regaining what had been thrown away. To this standard of
excellence, exalted by regret, perhaps beyond its real height, Isabella could
not but fear, that all which she could do would be referred; and her heart sunk
under the conviction of the disproportion between her own merits and those of
the lamented Rachel. He may suffer, thought she, the charms of vice to engage
his fancy, but to secure his affections there must be a sublimity of virtue in
his wife that I shall never be able to reach!
Yet
there was so much virtue in the bitter self-upbraidings of the unhappy
Willoughby, and such a depth of feeling in the constancy of his attachment to
the object whom he had injured, that a ray of hope shot across the darkened
mind of Isabella, that the time might come, when she should at once be able to
heal the wounds of his mind, and to possess herself of his heart. This was
indeed a holy rivalship! no baneful or degrading feelings mingled in the
contest; and at this moment Isabella desired nothing so much at to look upon
the only representation within her reach, of the excellence that she was
resolved to emulate.
She
returned with all haste to the library, and eagerly turned the picture: there
she beheld two children represented in their sports; but although the
lineaments of the boy instantly recalled to her mind the features of her
husband, her undivided attention was at this time directed to his companion, a
beautiful infant of about five years old, whose glowing health and charming
figure were animated with such a spirit of frolick, mirth, and arch
playfulness, as made it the most interesting object that Isabella had ever
looked upon.
“Was
Miss Roper like this charming child?” said Isabella.
“There
cannot be two things more alike,” replied Mrs. Evans. “Surely there never was
any thing equal to the merriment of that sweet baby; she was the darling of
every body; so comical! always playing some good-natured trick or other; she
seemed born for nothing but to laugh, yet how many tears did she shed and make
others shed? and indeed in her very joys it might have been seen how much she
could feel, for if any body was hurt, or any thing went wrong between her and
my master, her large blue eyes would so fill with tears, and she would so clasp
her little hands together!”
“How
happy Mr. Willoughby must have been with such a companion!” said Isabella.
“Yes,
they were indeed the happiest playfellows I ever saw,” replied Mrs. Evans. “But
all that was childish sport, and it passed away. I do not know how it
was with my master when she died, for he never came near us then, and he has
never been here but once since. We heard he was quite beside himself, as it
were. To be sure, he must have been very sorry; and that was the reason, I
suppose, that he did not attend the funeral. It was no want of love or respect
either, I am sure; but he has not such a lofty mind as Lady Rachel, and it
would have killed him to have seen that sad ceremony.”
“This
picture must not be turned again,” said Isabella; “and you must shew me the
places which Miss Roper best loved, and tell me what she did; and if there be
anybody left that she would have been kind to.”
“Ah!
madam,” said Mrs. Evans, “she was kind, to every body; but all her particular
favourites Lady Rachel has taken care of. I believe she would think it a
robbery if any body else were to do any thing for them.”
“Except
Mr. Willoughby, I suppose,” said Isabella.
“I do
not know, madam,” said Evans, “but I think she is most jealous of him of all.”
All
this sunk deep into the mind of Isabella, and from this hour she attached
herself to the memory of Miss Roper as to that of an elder sister, whom she
equally honoured and loved, and whom she desired most exactly to imitate. She
was pleased even to identify their interests; she loved her the more for the
love which she could not doubt but that she had borne for her husband, and she
loved him the better for the love which he had had for her.
How
blest would she have been, thought Isabella, to have made my poor Willoughby
happy and good! I will endeavour to make him both! How fond would she have been
of his boy! I will love my little Godfrey better and better!
CHAP.
XXIV.
“One
that in her sex, her years,
Wisdom
and constancy, hath amazed me.”
SHAKSPEARE.
THESE
reveries solaced the fancy and soothed the heart of Isabella; but in thinking
of gratifying her who now soared above all human gratification, she lost not
any of her attention in ministering to the real good of one who had yet to work
out his final reward with sorrow and trembling.
She
and Mr. Roberts became intimately confidential. The gentlemanly old man laid
before her with so much perspicuity, but at the same time with so much delicate
consideration, the real state of Mr. Willoughby’s affairs, that she was
instructed without being appalled. She seized, as if by intuition, the very
result which he was desirous to suggest. She distinguished and arranged with a
clearness and facility that astonished both herself and him; and she, who to
the eye might have seemed “bred only to sing, to dance, to dress,” approved
herself to the ear, the Goddess of Wisdom herself.
Her
lofty conception of what was just gave an illumination to her intellect that
superseded the necessity of instruction, and anticipated experience.
In
the course of a few conversations they had between them settled a plan of
economy upon which she was persuaded that a residence at Eagle’s Crag might be
established, if not on the magnificent scale of former times, yet on such an
one as would not exact any sacrifice either of comfort or hospitality. But the
difficulty was still to “bell the cat;” for unless Mr. Willoughby would consent
to sell the property in Hertfordshire, and to give up his town establishment,
all that could be done by herself and Mr. Roberts at Eagle’s Crag would be in
vain.
To
the accomplishment of these two points, therefore, Isabella turned all her
thoughts; and happily for the zeal which was necessary to bring about so great
a work, her inclinations and her understanding fully concurred.
If
she durst not bring out into open day the necessity of the measure, the
want was nearly supplied by her vivid painting of the delight which in
her estimation would attend it.
Of
Eagle’s Crag she could unfeignedly speak as of a Paradise, from which she never
could desire to wander;—she could incidentally suggest how susceptible of
comfortable accommodation she found that, with a small household, which might
appear at first sight suitable only to a large one.—She could enumerate the
sources of amusement that its extensive library, its magnificent collection of
pictures and prints, and its numerous and various musical instruments,
afforded. And she could do all this with the glowing warmth of truth. She did
indeed feel that they were sufficient, in her own case, to keep away the
consciousness of solitude, and to cheat the progress of time. Of the health and
vigour of her boy she could speak with equal sincerity and pleasure; and she
could urge without the semblance of selfishness, or the appearance of repining,
the addition of the only circumstance that could add to her happiness.
Isabella
no longer found restraint or difficulty in writing to Mr. Willoughby. Her
subjects flowed from a source that was inexhaustible, and which remained
unchecked even by the very unworthy returns which they produced.
Mr.
Willoughby’s letters were short, disjointed, and uninforming. They were,
however, so far kind, that his regret on being parted from her and his boy,
made a part of each; to which was added a constant assurance that he would
rejoin them the moment he was able. Nor did he ever fail, in the most vehement
exhortations, that she would not refuse herself any thing whatever that could
contribute to her accommodation or amusement. In confirmation of the sincerity
of his wishes, and his attention in these points, she would, not unfrequently,
receive some dainty that her northern situation did not supply, or some new
publication which he would tell her, she must not be “so out of the world” as
not to read; and even once or twice there arrived an expensive article of
dress, that he said he could not forbear from buying, because it would so
peculiarly become her.
All
was acceptable that came from his hand; but she sighed when she saw the
selection that he seemed to believe suitable to her taste. No one could be more
indifferent in the choice of food than was Isabella; her present situation took
from her every desire of ornament in dress; and the books that were sent were not
unread, more from a desire that she might be able to give an opinion of them in
return, than from any pleasure that she derived from the perusal. Reading was
now become to Isabella an occupation, and even an obligation that she could not
willingly interrupt for every idle volume that might fall in her way; she was
in regular correspondence with Lady Rachel, and by her suggestion she was enabled to make good use
of the large store of knowledge with which she was surrounded. She now found
that all which she had been accustomed to consider as having constituted her
“being well-informed,” was merely the having had the instruments put into her
hands by which she might gain information. “The Extracts,” “The Beauties,” “The
Selections,” “The Blossoms,” and “The Flowers,” which had made her school-room
studies, fell into their deserved discredit with her. She saw how a whole was
injured by being seen only in parts, and how much more valuable was the little
ingot than the extended gilding; her reading had now the perpetual delight of
discovery, and she found her mind expand almost as sensibly, as she might have
felt her person, had she catered as richly and as plentifully for the one as
she did for the other.
But
did Isabella do nothing but read and economise? Yes! she passed parts of her
time in music, other parts in drawing, and as she made all that she did a
study, there was a never-failing interest created by observing the progress
towards perfection which resulted from what was begun only as an amusement. Her
boy was an ever-springing fountain of delight, and if she had made any
complaint of time, it would not have been that it moved too slowly, but that it
passed too quickly.
And
could occupation supply the wish for society? and was improvement sufficient
for happiness?— No! Isabella was not happy! she was neither satisfied
with the present, nor unapprehensive for the future. Her heart sunk under the
indifference of her husband, and her understanding was appalled by the evils to
which that husband was every day exposing himself. The very caresses which she
bestowed on her child were mingled with tears; but she had learnt to take her
share in the general portion of human sorrows, without aggravating the sum
which fell to her lot, by a morbid self-love, or by an unjust comparison
between her own burthen and that of others; she felt the want of affection in
the man she loved, but she thought of the stroke of perpetual separation to
which Lady Rachel had bowed, and repressed her sigh; she trembled at the too
probable destiny that hung over the head of her child, but she raised her eye
to the tomb of Miss Roper, and clasped him to her heart in a transport of
thankfulness.
Nor
was she wholly destitute of society. It is true that Eagle’s Crag being without
the usual limit of lake attractions in Westmoreland, had neither its solitudes
invaded by a frivolous curiosity, nor its neighbourhood dotted over with those
equivocal erections, to which no legitimate designation can honestly be given;
there was here no etherial natives who had withdrawn from a corporeal world to
live upon “the feast of reason and the flow of soul,” because they had not more
substantial food elsewhere; there was here no picturesque poverty nor elegant
distress; no straw-roofed cottage, whose opening door disclosed the pale and
beautiful female, arrayed in drapery of the most dazzling whiteness, engaged in
the culinary art, while the celestial eye darted anxious solicitude in hopes to
descry the partner of her joys and sorrows, on whose return depended the scanty
meal of the day; there was no returning lover, whose symmetry of form and
intellectual physiognomy betrayed, under the coarseness of his habiliments and
the meanness of his labours, the soul that might have directed the councils,
and the figure that might have adorned the courts of kings!
All
around was true! all as it appeared to be! the mingled web of human
comforts and of human sorrow, the tares and the corn! but there was perhaps
less of inequality of station in the neighbourhood of Eagle’s Crag than would
generally be found elsewhere.
The property which formed the domain
of that ancient house, was more extended than proportionably productive, and
although the extent made up to its proprietors for the barrenness of many of
its parts, yet it so far distanced any shouldering intruder, that there was not
within the distance of several miles any family who visited the inhabitants of
Eagle’s Crag upon the footing of equality. All were dependants, or at least, in
a degree to be obliged by the great house; and as in Isabella’s
retirement she was not disposed to seek society from afar, neither was she
likely to be sought by those who could expect neither amusement nor festivity
as the reward of the trouble they must take in seeking her.
But
there was still a number of individuals of a humbler station, from whose
resemblance the lapse of fourteen years had not obliterated the impression that
the unwearied kindness and hospitality of Mr. Willoughby and Lady Margaret had
made. There was also a generation grown up who had heard their mothers and
their aunts tell of the happy hours that they had passed at the Hall; of the magnificence of its
apartments, and of the graciousness of its inhabitants; who had been compelled
to listen again and again to the tales that were gone by, and to the
lamentations that they would return no more; and in consequence to sit down
under the desponding conviction that they
should never have such histories to relate to their posterity.
No
little stir was therefore of course occasioned amongst the little hive of busy
bodies when the report was spread from one to the other, “that Mr. Willoughby
and his Lady were coming to live always and for ever at Eagle’s Crag.”
The
old were sure that it did not signify to them, come who would! they could not
be like their Mr. Willoughby, and the
Lady Margaret; they should not take the trouble to go to the Hall to see they
did not know whom. Mr. Willoughby was always very kind and very civil, but he
was not like his father; and as to his lady, to be sure she would be above such
plain bodies as they were; it was too much to expect another Lady Margaret.
The
young held a different language. It was, “nay, mother,” and “indeed, aunt,” and
“why should not this young lady be as good as the other young lady? for Lady
Margaret was not old; no, not when she died;” and for “their parts they could
not but think the world was as good as it ever was: why should it not? It was
older, and the older people grew the wiser they became; at least they were
always told so; and why should it not be the same with the world? They should
like to see the inside of that fine place, of which they had heard so much. The
sight of the very towers and walls of it always made them long. And then it
would be so disrespectful not to pay their duty to their Landlord and his Lady;
they would think that they did not know in Westmoreland what was proper and
right.”
But
all these debatings were out of place. “Mr. Willoughby was not coming at all,
and his lady only for a little, and away again. Well, there is no believing
anybody. They were sure they had it from one, who had it from one, who was told
it by a cousin of Mrs. Evans, and to be sure Mrs. Evans must know; and yet it
is all moonshine; and now we shall none of us ever go again to Eagle’s Crag,”
with a tone of disappointment, said the one who had the most strongly protested
against availing herself of the opportunity which she had so lately thought
within her power.
The
note of rumour was again changed: Mrs. Willoughby was coming with her little
boy; to be all alone, and to stay through the long winter! poor young lady! she
will be moped to death; it will be quite charity to call upon her sometimes,
and she will be glad to hear what used to be done; and then her sweet baby! I
dare say he is very like his grandfather. I am sure I would walk ten miles to
see him; and so would I, echoed all the veterans; and I would walk twenty said
the young, only just to have a peep at all the fine furniture that you have
told us of, and which Mrs. Evans has kept so closely covered up these hundred
years, that nobody has seen it but herself.
And
thus a visit to Eagle’s Crag was carried nemine
contradicente.
But it was easier to decide both for
and against so important a measure before the moment of putting it into
execution arrived, than to adhere to either purpose when the time for action
was come. A visit to Eagle’s Crag could not be carried into execution without
causing many qualms to arise in the breasts of the inexperienced, and many
scruples were suggested by the cautious; it was thought most expedient to
secure a friend in the garrison before any attack was made on the fort; if Mrs.
Evans would sanction their approach, they should not be afraid of their
reception.
The
little feast that Isabella had ordered upon her arrival had paved the way for
entering upon the negotiation meditated. It had indeed been given to a lower
order of dependants, but so much had been reported of the beauty and
graciousness of Isabella, in the condescension of bringing her boy amongst them
herself, and of the kind and encouraging words that she had spoken to each,
that all dread of repulse to an offered mark of respect was done away. The
vicar’s wife was deputed to speak to Mrs. Evans; Mrs. Evans undertook to
communicate Isabella’s determination, venturing at the same time to anticipate
it, by a confident assurance that Mrs. Willoughby would be glad to see all her
neighbours, and that she had told her so herself. The offer was made and
graciously accepted — the visitations were performed, and the old could no
longer boast of an exclusive knowledge of the glories of Eagle’s Crag, or lay
claim to the peculiar honour of having been distinguished by the civilities of
its owners; the young were as well informed, and had been as graciously
received as any mother or aunt of the whole collection.
Thus
had Isabella soon a little circle of acquaintance and well-wishers; from whom,
if she did not receive any very vivid pleasure, she could always communicate
it: and thus were her walks and rides rescued from the solitude and dreariness
that must otherwise have attended them. She could now have an end to pursue,
whenever she stirred beyond the limits of her immediate home. She had some
little presents to deliver at one house; she was sure that she could have a cup
of milk for Godfrey at another; she had promised to visit Mrs. Russel’s bees;
or she was to go and eat some of Mrs. Perry’s potted char. The interchange of
good offices was unceasing; and Isabella returned cheered by the respect she
had received or the importance that she had conferred.
Nor
had she less pleasure from her visitations amongst the still poorer class of
her neighbours. The only change that she had made in the economy of her
personal establishment had been the parting with her own maid. It had been her
wish, from her first conversation with Mr. Roberts, to divest herself of so
expensive, and, in her present situation, so useless an appendage; but she was
unwilling to discharge a person against whom she had no precise fault to
allege, and she acted under Lady Rachel’s caution, both as to the inefficiency
of any sacrifice that she could make, and the inexpediency of any sudden or
very obvious change in her way of life. But Mrs. Adams obviated all scruples,
and took away all ground for curiosity or suspicion of mystery, by dismissing
herself. At the end of the first fortnight she informed Isabella, “that she was
extremely sorry—excessively so—but she found it absolutely impossible to live
at Eagle’s Crag. The place did not agree with her; she fancied the air was too
sharp for her tender lungs. The doctor had always told her that her lungs were
tender; and she was sure she had had such an oppression upon her spirits ever
since she came down that shocking hill, that she should die of the vapours if
she continued where she was. The sight of that monstrous mountain, which always
looked as if it was tumbling on their heads, made her quite nervous. She could
not conceive how Mrs. Willoughby could bear it. She was sure she could not; and
though indeed she was very sorry to inconvenience Mrs. Willoughby, yet the
sooner she could make it agreeable to part with her the better.”
Isabella
could make this agreeable immediately, for Mrs. Adams appeared to her quite a
different creature in the offices of adorning her person, and in suggesting the
various means of doing so, which qualities had very well recommended her to her
favour in town, to Mrs. Adams nervous and vapourish, and with a little affected
short cough, at Eagle’s Crag, where she had scarce need of any part of her
services, and none at all for her science.
Her
very phraseology seemed to be altered; for Isabella thought that she could
never have borne such a jargon of affectation and ignorance as Mrs. Adams’s
language sounded in her ears, since she had been used to the respectful
plainness of Mrs. Evans’s good sense. For the first time in her life, Isabella
was aware of the difference between vulgarity and rusticity; the expression of
nature, and the apeing refinement. The preference which she gave to the former
mode made her very glad, independently of every other motive for parting with
her, to replace the fine Mrs. Adams by an active, civil, natural young woman,
the niece of Mrs. Evans. Fortunately her footman was Westmoreland born; had
been brought up by Lady Rachel Roper; and on Mr. Willoughby’s marriage had been
promoted from a subaltern station in Lady Rachel’s family to the honour of
attending on Isabella.
George
was happy to return amongst his friends; and took much greater delight in
walking by the side of Isabella’s pony, as she scrambled up the hills, or made
her way through the intricacies of the vallies, than he had ever done stuck up
behind her carriage.
Her
equipage generally consisted of a pony for herself, and another, with a saddle
suited to the purpose, on which the nurse and her boy were placed, while the
nursery-maid and her own new attendant, who did not appear to have either
nerves or lungs, walked by its side, led it by the bridle, or occasionally took
the nurse’s place, or relieved her for a time of her burthen.
In
this guise Isabella made daily excursions, either amongst those who considered
themselves as her acquaintance, or those who looked upon her only as their
benefactress; and she would have found it difficult to have determined from
which she received the greatest gratification, or which was the better company.
The provincial accent and peculiar idiom of the country, both of which had
extraordinary charms for the imagination, if not for the ear, of Isabella, were
stronger in the latter; and when they set before her a bowl of cream and a
saucer of sweetmeats, inviting her to eat of the “boiled up berries, strays,
and rhasps,” or told her, in contradistinction to the turf generally burnt,
that they “had cobbles for the chambers,” she felt the full power of
simplicity, and thought it ill exchanged for one advancing step towards greater
refinement or higher pretensions. But still there were hours when Isabella
sighed for the interchange of intellect; when she longed to hear a human voice
that could reply to her in language the full force of which was felt mutually
by the speaker and the hearer. Nor did she long sigh in vain.
CHAP.
XXV.
“His
words are bonds, his oaths are oracles, his
heart
as free from fraud, as earth from heaven.”
SHAKSPEARE.
ONE
day, when she had extended her rambles somewhat out of their usual direction,
she perceived a neat habitation which she had not noticed before. It was
situated in a small meadow, that sloped from the mountain that sheltered it
from the north, down to a brook, the southern boundary of the little homestead.
There
was nothing in the appearance of the house beyond that of a cottage: a genuine
cottage, without any pretence to “gentility.” But there was an air of sedulous
care bestowed upon the stone walls, and blue tiles of the building, and an
attention to ornament in the arrangement of the diminutive garden which lay
before it, that told her that its inhabitants had leisure and means beyond the
necessary wants and works of the day. Isabella inquired of her attendants the
name of this pretty residence; and whether they knew any thing of those to whom
it belonged. She was readily answered by her Westmoreland damsel, that the
place was called “Fell-beck; and for all that it looked no bigger, nor no
better than a cottage, yet, as she had been told, there lived within a cousin
of a Queen.”
Isabella
could not hope from her present informer much elucidation of the pedigree of
this royal scion; yet she asked what she meant by that? Sarah could not tell;
but asked in her turn, if there were not once a Queen who had lived in
Westmoreland, whose name was Parr? Isabella replied, yes, Catherine Parr.
“Why
then, Madam,” replied Sarah, “that’s it; for this gentleman’s name is Parr; and
he has a daughter, and her name’s Catherine.”
Isabella
smiled at the accuracy of Sarah’s heraldic knowledge, but felt her curiosity so
much raised as to pursue her inquiries, as to the where, and the how, and the
why? but all that she could learn farther was, “that Mr. Parr, the people said,
had once been a great man; but that now he was not great, yet had enough to
give a deal to every body who wanted it; and that Miss Catherine was very wise,
and very good; that she knew about the stars, and the flowers; and could doctor
the sick, and make clothes for the poor; and that she and her father lived
together, with no other creature than one old woman.”
All
this only increased Isabella’s desire to know more; she advanced almost
unwittingly towards the house; always saying to herself that she would by no
means intrude upon the privacy of any body; and yet so reluctant to return
without having had at least a distant view of this extraordinary Mr. Parr, and
his still more extraordinary daughter, that she continued to wind up the narrow
lane which she was told led the nearest that she could approach to the house,
without entering its actual premises. She was now arrived at a neat wicket,
which opened directly into the little garden, and had begun to feel the
absolute necessity of immediately proceeding to pass the house, without having
had her curiosity gratified, when there issued from the stone porch of the
dwelling a female figure, that she could not doubt must be the very Catherine
Parr, whom she had so much desired to see. To stand and gaze was impossible;
yet never before had she so little felt herself under the influence of
propriety.
The
person who thus presented herself to her notice, must have fixed the gaze of
the most incurious observer.
It
was a form of almost sylph-like lightness: arrayed in a jacket and petticoat of
Scottish tartan; the jacket was made high in the back, but disclosed a throat
and neck of the most dazzling whiteness; while the succinct petticoat betrayed
the prettiest foot and ancle imaginable; the hands and arms were uncovered,
even with a glove, and rivalled the neck in fairness; a profusion of light
brown hair was confined by a ribbon, put on in the fashion of the Scottish
snood, and gave additional interest to the pensive paleness of a countenance
which seemed scarcely to belong to any human being. But in vain did such an
assemblage of attractions burst on the sight of Isabella; in spite of the
earnestness of her desire to the contrary, she urged her pony forward, giving at
the same time some caution to the nurse for the accommodation of the baby.
Nothing she either did or said, could escape the observation of Miss Parr, who
was not ten paces from her; she was indeed instantly by her side, inviting her
in modest and well-bred phrase, but with the blush of timidity on her cheek, to
do her the favour to accept any refreshment, either for herself or her infant,
that she had to offer; and to allow that the child might rest as long as it was
agreeable to her.
Isabella
met the courtesy which offered so full a satisfaction to her wishes with all
the ease and politeness which her mode of life gave her, and with a sweetness
and urbanity all her own. She acknowledged, that a wish to have a nearer view
of what had pleased her so much at a distance, had betrayed her into taking a
liberty, for which she was sensible she had to apologize, and that she was much
obliged for the opportunity given her of doing so in a manner so agreeable to
herself.
Isabella
was not long in dismounting; she followed her new acquaintance to the house,
with a heart beating with expectation of what she was to see there. The porch
opened into a recess; the four sides of which were nearly taken up with four
doors that led from it; that on the right hand opened into a room of about
twenty feet long, and sixteen wide, with windows to the eastern and southern
sun.
And
now Isabella, though she had expected to see something by no means
correspondent to the size or outward appearance of the building, was struck
with a degree of surprise, which not all her habitual good breeding enabled her
wholly to conceal.
Nearly
the whole of the walls of the room were fitted up with books, apparently
arranged with regard to the science or subject on which they might be supposed
to treat; while the spaces not so occupied, were filled with astronomical
apparatus, globes, or musical instruments, and on the several tables lay
implements for writing or drawing; none of which, by the half written
manuscript, and unfinished sketches that lay amongst them, seemed to be there
for no purpose.
But
here the wonder of the apartment ended, or rather took another direction; all
that there was of furniture was of the plainest and simplest form; neither
affecting elegance, nor affording much of accommodation; the floor was covered
with common matting; there was no sopha; and the chairs were of unstained wood,
with straw bottoms. There was indeed one exception in an armed chair, well
upholstered, and evidently calculated for the comfort and repose of the person
for whose use it was destined.
From
this chair arose, upon Isabella’s entrance, the most magnificent figure that
she thought she had ever seen. There was in it the ruins of all that could have
formed the most finished model of masculine perfection; and there still
remained so much of the fire of youth in the eye, and the vigour of the limbs,
that the grey hair which shaded the commanding forehead, and the wrinkles which
marked its surface, seemed more to have been planted there by misfortune than by
age.
“I am
persuaded,” said Mr. Parr, “that it can only be Mrs. Willoughby whom I have the
honour to see before me. Do me the favour to take this chair. A manacle,” added
he, with an affectionate smile cast on Catherine, “that my daughter has fixed
on the age of her father.”
Isabella
was so surprised and confounded with all that she saw and heard, that she could
scarcely command herself to give intelligible utterance to the apology for the
intrusion of which she had been guilty.
“A
liberty,” she said, “however, that she could hardly repent that she had taken.”
“The
liberty is on our side;” replied Mr. Parr; “and I must candidly acknowledge,
taken with the most perfect malice afore-thought. I would not entrap you,
madam, by any false appearance of what you might obligingly esteem our
benevolent attention either to your wishes, or to your accommodation, into an
acquaintance that you may not desire to form; but I will openly avow, that it
would give me a gratification beyond what you may perhaps at present be able to
understand, if you would allow my daughter and myself sometimes to be visitors
at Eagle’s Crag. If this does not suit your own plans, I trust to the
ingenuousness of your countenance, that you will explicitly tell me so now; when such explicitness cannot be
offensive, as being impossible to be grounded upon any personal dislike. If in
future we should prove unworthy of the favour we solicit, it will be easy, as
it will be right, to shut the doors of Eagle’s Crag against us.”
Isabella
knew not what to think of the person who thus addressed her; so unlike was his
proceeding to any which she had before met with. Yet it could be the effect
neither of unfeeling boldness; nor could it proceed from ignorance of the
manners of the world. The delicate attention that he shewed to every
circumstance by which she might be restrained, and the elegance and superiority
of his address, forbad both the one and the other supposition.
She
replied, with as little embarrassment and as much frankness as she could at that
moment command, “that any gratification which she could afford either to
himself or his daughter they were entitled to expect from her hands, and that
she should consider it as an additional obligation if they would allow her to
offer it at Eagle’s Crag
Mr.
Parr made Isabella a bow, as elegant as it was grateful; tears stood in his
eyes.
“If
ever, Madam,” said he, “you should see, which God forbid! that fine boy likely
to be left alone, and deserted in a wicked and unfeeling world, you will
understand the impulse that has this day impelled me to set at defiance all
vulgar forms; you will feel the gratitude that you have implanted here!” said he, laying his hand upon his
heart.
While
this conversation was passing, Catherine had drawn from under one of the tables
a long and low stool, well cushioned, on which she had placed the nurse with
the baby on her knee; and having herself vanished through a different door than
that by which Isabella had entered the room, she had returned in an instant,
accompanied by an old female servant, the very quintessence of old-fashioned
neatness, loaded with bread and butter, milk and fruit, all excellent looking
of their kind, and served up with a propriety and care that almost amounted to
elegance. The sparkling water of the country was also placed before Isabella;
to which Mr. Parr, withdrawing for a moment, added on his return two decanters
of foreign wine.
“There
is nothing,” said Isabella, “that is equal to Westmoreland hospitality. It is a
virtue that I knew only by name before I came here.”
“When
all is but little,” returned Mr. Parr, “there is no room for selection. The
frankness of the gift must atone for the smallness of the offering.”
“But,”
said Isabella, “I am so surrounded by riches that I am at a loss on which to
fix my attention. This seems to be a very fine instrument,” said she, touching
the keys of a piano-forte, which appeared to have no fault but being rather too
large for the room in which it was placed.
“We
are all epicures in our own way,” returned Mr. Parr. “My daughter fancies
herself a pattern of moderation and temperance, because she has no taste for
dress or furniture; but she is as dainty as the rest of us in the tone of her
piano-forte or her harp.”
“Mrs.
Willoughby would scarcely think so,” said Catherine, with a blush and a smile,
“if she were to hear the notes which you, my dear father, are compelled to hear
from me every night.”
“I
hope myself to be a judge of that,” said Isabella, “as I flatter myself that
you and Mr. Parr will allow me to convince you at Eagle’s Crag of the sense I
have of the pleasure that I have received at Fell-beck.”
Both
the father and daughter looked pleased at this well-bred recognition of names,
with which they hardly supposed that Isabella was acquainted.
“I cannot
imagine,” continued Isabella, “how I should have remained so long unacquainted
with this beautiful spot, as I go out with my boy every day, and have
endeavoured to vary my rides as much as possible; but I apprehend now, that,
however they begin, they will generally take in Fell-beck before they end.”
Isabella
now arose to take her leave, when she desired that she might be allowed to send
her pony for Miss Parr at an early hour the next day.
“We
shall have a most sincere pleasure in waiting upon you to-morrow,” returned Mr.
Parr; “but we are both excellent walkers. Riding is not one of Catherine’s
exceptions to self-denial.”
“But
the evenings now shut in so soon,” said Isabella, “that I hope you will not
refuse to pass the night at Eagle’s Crag. The morning is the best time for
walking at this time of year.”
Mr.
Parr again bowed.
“You
know, madam, how to reconcile un
Impertinente malgrč lui to himself,” said he. “We shall gratefully accept
your extended favours.”
This little event had all the importance
of an adventure to Isabella.
She
had been enchanted with all that she had seen, and she longed impatiently to
know every thing that could be known concerning Mr. Parr and his daughter; yet
she had figured them to herself as the victims of such a series of
extraordinary circumstances as was likely to make whatever she did hear flat
and uninteresting.
The
account that she could collect of them from Mr. Roberts, or Mrs. Evans, was
very meagre, and left much to be filled up by imagination or conjecture. Of the
unblemished honour and high character of Mr. Parr, however, they spoke in the
strongest terms; and to the great estimation in which in former times he had
been held at Eagle’s Crag they could also depose. But this was at a period long
past. There had intervened a certain number of years when he had been lost
sight of from the neighbourhood, and had only been spoken of as having sold all
the property which he had once possessed in the country. About five years
previous to the present time he had re-appeared, bringing with him his
daughter, then just rising into womanhood. He had purchased Fell-beck, and had
built the house which he inhabited. He mingled in no society, and was scarcely
known beyond the immediate spot where he resided: but there he was known by the
blessings of all to whom he could communicate good; in all that related to his
small household, or personal gratification, frugal and sparing, although
neither niggard nor unindulgent; but in charity magnificent; and sometimes the
object of astonishment to his few neighbours from the arrival of a large box of
books, an expensive apparatus for some scientific purpose, or some new musical
instrument.
The
young lady was represented as gentle and retiring; active when she could be
useful, but uncommunicative, and with little of the alacrity or cheerfulness of
youth; none of its ebullition, indiscretion, or inconsequence. “She seemed not
made for this world,” was the observation of the few who approached her; to
whom she appeared too wise and too good to mix with common mortals.
Isabella
could understand how such a character might be formed by sorrow and
deprivation; and was resolved that she would sooth the one and repair the other
to the extent of her abilities.
Isabella
expected her guests with impatience; her usual occupations were suspended in
conjecturing what degree of confidence Mr. Parr intended to afford her, and
what might make the subject of such a confidence; for she could not but be
aware, from what had already passed, that it was his purpose to interest her in
the welfare of his daughter, and perhaps to ask her patronage for her. She
could not suppose, from the sense that he had evinced both of delicacy and
propriety, even when he seemed to intrench upon their rights, that he would do this
without endeavouring to shew that she was worthy of interest, and that she
would not disgrace patronage; yet it seemed strange that he should choose so
young a person as herself for the repository of secrets which seemed to be so
carefully shut out from the rest of the world. There was something very
extraordinary in all this! Isabella did not therefore like it the worse;
however, she was forced by circumstances into thoughts and conduct beyond her
age, or her experience; her imagination was not only young but ardent, and in
giving way to it, she might be pardoned, if for once she lost sight of the cool
prudence that would have shrunk from admitting two entire strangers to her
privacy, or for having neglected a due attention to the evil eventual to herself,
in the hope of doing good to others.
It is
certain that neither one nor the other occurred at this time to Isabella in
such a degree as to give her any regret for the frankness with which she had
opened her house to those of whom she knew nothing but that there was a mystery
hung over their situation. Yet she had been glad to feel something of a
sanction for what she had done, from the account which she had received of the
former well known respectability of Mr. Parr’s character; and she was resolved that
she would relate all that had occurred to Lady Rachel, the moment that she
should be able to add to it the result of her own further knowledge of the
manners and the sentiments of her new acquaintance.
There
was an early punctuality in the way of keeping their engagement, that shewed
how agreeable it was to their wishes; and a simplicity in their appearance that
proved those wishes not to be grounded in a sense of the superiority in station
of the person whom they visited. Catherine had made no change in the dress
which she had worn the day before; and Mr. Parr, depositing a little package on
a table in the hall, where Isabella met them, said, “my dear Catherine, when
you go to your room you will not forget to take this with you.”
Isabella
watched Mr. Parr to see whether he would make any recognition of the objects
around him; or would allude to the period when he was an accustomed guest in
that house upon a very different footing to that of carrying his own bundle.
Neither
was the case; yet she saw him cast a furtive look on one side, and then on the
other, as wishing to behold what once he knew was there to be seen; she saw the
working of his countenance, and the strength of the effort with which he
composed it to the due discharge of the civilities of the moment; but she saw
this effort almost fail him on his entering the library. Over the chimney-piece
of that room hung a full-length picture of Mr. Willoughby’s father. Mr. Parr
made a few hasty steps towards it, as if to feast his eyes on the features of
one whom he had loved; but he stopped short; looked around the room; walked to
the window; and, after a few moment’s struggle for the power of speech, he
said, turning to Isabella, “are there any of the wild red deer in the park? it
used to be one of their haunts.”
“You
are well acquainted with this country I believe,” said Isabella.
“I have been, madam,” replied Mr. Parr.
“Catherine, you have heard me speak of Eagle’s Crag; you now see it, and may
judge whether I have been exorbitant in my estimation of it.”
The
moment of agitation was past, and Mr. Parr appeared to take pleasure in
reviewing the objects from whence he had been so long estranged.
“You
have a noble store of information around you, madam,” said he, looking on the
books; “and of amusement also. I am much mistaken if you do not know how to
profit by both.”
“I
should be very happy to do so under so able a direction as I must suppose yours
to be, by what I observed at Fell-beck yesterday,” replied Isabella; “and I
suspect that Miss Parr, if she will so far condescend, is very able to become
my instructress.”
“Probably,”
returned Mr. Parr, with that genuineness of character by which he was so
peculiarly marked; “you might be of mutual use to each other. Catherine has in
all likelihood gone beyond you in the exactness and depth of her acquirements,
for to add another and another link to knowledge has been the only occupation
of her life; yet the sum of what she knows is small; in all the ornamental
accomplishments of female instruction, there is no question but that you have
exceeded her far. In drawing and music, of which I wished her to know
something, as affording breaks into the too languid monotony of her existence,
she has had no other instructor than myself for many years past, and her
progress has been in proportion to the skill of her master.”
“We
will each put the other to the test,” said Isabella, smiling; “and at present
my leisure may more than rival hers; but you must not tax it too high; for I
apprehend that I shall be often tempted to neglect the volume, or the
instrument, for the more rare pleasure of conversation.”
“Catherine
will not dispute the ground with you there, madam,” said Mr. Parr, smiling,
“for she is silent — too silent: and how should it be otherwise, when she has
only an old man to talk to?”
“Oh,
my father!” said Catherine, “whom should I like to talk to so well?”
“My
little boy will teach you to talk,” said Isabella; “for, silent as he is, he
loves nothing so well as being talked to.”
“Perhaps
that is my case,” said Catherine, with a blush. “I do so love to hear my father
talk, that I forget I ought to say anything myself.”
Every
word that passed recommended Isabella’s guests more and more to her
approbation; and before the hour of retiring to dress for dinner arrived, she
was persuaded that she had made a most valuable acquisition in having become
acquainted with them.
CHAP.
XXVI.
— “Take him for all in all,
You will not look upon his
like again.”
SHAKSPEARE.
CATHERINE
appeared at dinner in the same simplicity of dress which she had worn in the
morning. The form was the same, the material only was changed from tartan to
white muslin; the hair was confined as before by a single ribbon, but its
colour was different. Isabella endeavoured to give the tone of gaiety to their
table-talk; nor did she endeavour in vain. Mr. Parr maintained as fully his
claim to all the lighter graces of conversation, as he had done to the higher
powers of intellect. Even a vein of humour, and the sparkles of wit, broke from
beneath the crust that solitude and misfortune had been so long gathering over
them. The effect upon the sensitive Catherine was striking: she listened, — she
smiled, — she blushed with delight; and her eye almost made a verbal appeal to
Isabella, whether, so listening, she could ever have a desire to speak?
Isabella,
so long unused to the interchange of thought with any one who could fully
understand her, was not less pleased than Catherine. The wine and the fruits
had been long untasted before Isabella thought of withdrawing with her youthful
companion; and if the pleasure that Mr. Parr had taken in the colloquy was to
be judged of by his eagerness to renew it, he had not been less gratified than
either of the two ladies. He rejoined them in the library almost immediately.
“I
have been walking through the long gallery,” said he to Isabella: “will you
give Catherine leave to see, while there is yet a ray of light, some of the
pictures that hang there, and of which she had heard me speak?”
“I
will attend her this moment,” said Isabella.
“I
beg that she may go alone,” said Mr. Parr. “Catherine has no fear of ghosts.”
Isabella,
conceiving that there was some particular reason for this request, as well as
for sending poor Catherine to look upon pictures which it was too dark to see,
made no farther opposition; but pointing out to Catherine how she would most
readily find the way to the gallery, she resumed her seat.
“I am
sensible, madam,” said Mr. Parr, “of the apology I owe you for the peremptory
manner I assume; but I should not think myself an honest man if I accepted the
hospitality of your roof, even for one night, while there could remain upon
your mind a single doubt as to the propriety of having afforded it to me. I
have avowed my motives for having sought your acquaintance, and accepted your
kindness; but it is fitting you should know to whom you have granted the one,
and offered the other.
“Already
you know my name, Parr—Edward Parr. It is a name well known to Lady Rachel
Roper, and one that need not shrink from her comment. But there have been in my
life years of obscurity, if not of mystery, that must have withdrawn me from
her sight. You have a right to hear my account of the cause of this obscurity,
that it may be confronted, if you wish to put it to such a proof, by what
others can say of me.
“Some
two or three and twenty years ago, I was as happy as it is necessary for
humanity to be! Through the progress of my education, and in my outset of life,
I had fulfilled the hopes of those from whom I was descended. I had added to
the usual acquisitions to be made in England, the knowledge of foreign
countries; and I had only to reproach myself that in my pursuit of the latter I
had lingered too long. I returned to my native country scarcely in time to close
the eyes of one of the best of fathers. Some of his last words were, ‘My son,
bereave not the land of your forefathers of the benefit of your example, and
the expenditure of your property.’ These words remained for several years the
law of my mind, and it was in that period that I was the friend and inmate of
this house.
“All
that I had of good in me was confirmed by the virtues which were the objects of
my daily observation: and in the conduct of a fortune which, although not
large, was affluent, as it exceeded my wishes, in the pursuit of science, in
the intercourse of friendship, and the exercise of piety and benevolence, I
possessed all that a reasonable being could desire, and all that an immortal
one could hope! It might have been supposed also that being safe in port, I
should have put out to sea no more. I touched upon the verge of forty, and I
did not feel myself disposed to fulfil the supposed duty of providing an heir
for my estate. I had a brother, —an unhappy one! —but I could not entirely forego
the hope that he might still become worthy of the stock from whence he sprung.
He was many years younger than myself; and I could please myself with the
thought that a virtuous wife might be, in the hands of Providence, one of the
means by which he might return from the error of his ways. I was willing to
retain the power of making such a step easy to him whenever I could lead him to
take it. He knew that this was my wish: but my hopes faded day by day; at
length they appeared to be extinct; — I was informed that he was dead! My grief
was poignant, for I had fondly loved him, and — but excuse me — I cannot say
more! It was here, — it was in the very spot where you, madam, are now sitting,
that the voice of friendship and of reason first taught me to assuage my
sorrows, to abate my agonizing fears! I was told that ‘when we determine what
is the least that is necessary to
salvation, we make a law for Heaven;’ and I was warned not to lose ‘my charity
and my happiness together, by a presumptuous judgment.’ I was not deaf to the
wisdom and goodness which thus poured wine and oil into my wounds; I was
induced to quit for a time my home, and to seek by new objects some
obliteration of the one which was too constantly for my peace before my eyes. I
found it to my cost!
“How,
madam, shall I tell you such a tale?
— how shall I wound your purity by the knowledge of vice and of degradation?
Innocent and lovely as my Catherine now is, and not older, did her mother
appear, when, with a readiness of compliance which flattered my self-love, and
which I mistook for an affection correspondent to my own, she became my wife.
Then it was that I wrote in grateful raptures to my friends here, to thank them
for a counsel which had conducted me to perfect happiness! — words vain and
presumptuous! A little interval, and I was to present to them this inestimable
jewel,—a little interval that was to be spent in an excursion on the Continent.
It was the first request that my bride had made me; and I had reason afterwards
to conclude that a childish desire to see foreign countries had been the real
motive that had influenced the frank acceptance of my offered hand, — an
acceptance which I had so vainly imputed to a passion as ardent as my own.
I was
too much in love to be quick-sighted in discovering any blemishes in an object
so lovely; all that was short of, or contrary to what I had pictured to myself,
I imputed to the giddiness and spirits of youth, and I did not forget that
three or four and forty, and eighteen, could not in all things think alike. I
began to reflect that I was really old enough to be the father of the creature
whom I had made my wife, and that I should be absurd to desire that her taste
for pleasure and novelty should not
out-run mine. I was sensible that I owed her not only the attentions of
a lover, but the indulgence of a parent; and moreover I was not willing that
she should recognize me in the latter character by any restraint that I put on
her inclinations. The period of travelling was lengthened at her request; but I
grew alarmed when I found that the desire for dissipation, and the appetite for
admiration, grew by what it fed on. She had become a mother!—but she had not
become maternal. I felt it to be my duty to stop her short in a career which I
too truly feared would lead to her destruction — painful duty, to thwart the
wishes of those we love!
I
announced to her my intention of returning home. It was met by remonstrance;
and when the remonstrance was made in vain, was resented by sullenness and
tears. I was but the more confirmed in the necessity of enforcing my
determination. The very day on which we were to leave Naples was fixed, when I
learnt that my poor unhappy brother still lived!—But how lived?—Again I must
entreat you to spare me.
“Every
consideration could not but give way to the urgent call that was upon me. I
opened my agonized bosom to my wife. I implored her to consider the temporary
withdrawal of my protection but as a new stimulant to the care of herself. I
pointed out the dangers by which she was surrounded, the entire shipwreck that
must be inevitable to both, if she neglected to guard herself against them. She
was softened — she wept — she promised. I believed her sincere; I tried to
confide in the strength of her resolution, and — we parted!
“Half
my property was scarcely a sufficient sacrifice to avert the fate that hung
over the head of my unhappy brother had I not interposed; but the sacrifice was
trivial in my eyes. I had seen him penitent, I had regained his love; his last
breath had expired in my arms! I could appeal to my father and to my God that I
had done my duty!
“I
returned with all the haste in my power to my wife and child, hoping to
reconcile the one to the lessened fortunes to which she must now conform; and
so to bring up the other as to make her grateful to her parent for that very
diminution.
“I
returned, but I returned to desolation! the cruel spoiler had availed himself
of my absence, and of such an absence! to rifle of its sweets my best, my
dearest treasure! My wife had deserted my house, and had abandoned her child!
It was not difficult for me to trace her guilty retreat. I tore her from it! I
acquainted her family with what had happened, and, disclaiming all vindictive
measures, I offered to conduct her to them, and to leave her under their
protection with an ample provision for all her wants. Her absence from my house
had been so short, and I had taken care so securely to veil the name of her
betrayer, that she might have passed her life under the parental roof without
any very heavy imputation on her fame. A disagreement between persons of such
different ages would have been easily believed, and I was willing to have taken
a full share of the censure, as the cause of it. Can you believe it, madam? the
paternal door was shut against her! From that moment I renounced the rights of
a husband, and assumed those of a parent. Alas! it required all the tenderness
of one to find consolation for the unhappy victim of seduction!
“Returned
from a moment of fatal delirium to a just sense of her fault; the upbraidings
of her heart, and the conviction of the value of the happiness that she had
thrown away, wrought in her so sharp a sorrow that had she been left alone to
its workings, the period would have been as short as it was severe — but she
was not so left!
“ I
explained my intentions towards her. I gave it to her choice, whether she would
be established under my eye, and within the reach of my protection; or whether
she would choose a home for herself, and trust to her future conduct to create
herself friends. She did not hesitate: at the very moment when we could henceforth be only friends, it was her misfortune to begin really to love me. I
withdrew her and myself from the observation and knowledge of all who had ever
before known her. It was believed by every one, but her own family, that she
was dead. The ambiguous expression that ‘I had lost my wife,’ maintained even
my dear friends at Eagle’s Crag, in the same error.
“I
placed her and her child in an habitation in the closest vicinity, but apart,
from the small domicile which I had fixed on for myself, in the environs of a
provincial town in the South of France; and there assuming the name, as I
resolved to perform the duties of a father to her, I determined to dedicate the
remainder of my life to the care and education of my two children. I sold my paternal property in this country; great
part of this sacrifice had become necessary; and as I could not contemplate any
probability when I should wish to return to what small remnant might be left, I
found it more consonant to the uses that I should in future have for money, to
reduce it to a form that would be always tangible.
“The
destitution which took place at Eagle’s Crag a short time afterwards, took from
me the only regret that had ever interfered with my sense of the propriety of
the measure I had pursued. I corresponded with Mr. Willoughby to the last hour
of his life. He knew the inmost recesses of my heart in every feeling that
dwelt there, with the exception only of those which belonged to the secret of
another; and the dejection that he could not but discover there, he could
easily account for, by the sorrows which had attended my last interview with my
ever-beloved brother, and by the loss (by death as he supposed) of a creature
whom he well knew I had loved, ‘not wisely, but too well.’
“But
when, by the lamented death of that best of friends, every link in the chain of
my former existence was broken, I became known and alive only to the two
helpless and unprotected objects of my care and my love, whom I had buried in
the South of France, from the view of every human eye that could recognize them
as compatriots.
“The
years passed on, and did not pass wholly without something which at times wore
the face of happiness. My Catherine grew ‘sweet to every sense,’ and her
unhappy mother, in the delight which she afforded her, and the fervent and
grateful affection that she bore to me, could at times lose part of her too
keen regret for the higher felicity which she had once had within her power.
“Catherine
was now growing into womanhood, and her mother earnestly implored me, that she
might be informed of the truth of our relative situations, and of the unhappy
cause that had produced our estrangement. I resisted her earnestness for some
time, unwilling that she should weaken in any degree the claims that she had
upon the reverence and love of her daughter, established, as they justly were,
by a series of years of the most exemplary conduct, and the most maternal fondness.
I dreaded also the effect that such a disclosure would have upon the spirits
and feelings of Catherine; but I yielded at length, when the fading complexion,
and decreasing strength of the mother, seemed but too surely to confirm her
prognostics that she should not long survive.
“‘Bereave
me not,’ said she, ‘of the consolation my wounded conscience will receive by a
sincere confession of my crime to my daughter. Allow me the satisfaction of
dying in the belief that, as a warning, I may be of use to my child; although,
as an example, I cannot be so. And oh! above all let her once hear me call you
my husband! Once let me
see her embrace you as her father!’
“It
was a petition not to be withstood. The disclosure was made! The recognition
was completed! And soon afterwards the mother and the wife sunk into the
grave!”
Here
Mr. Parr paused; and Isabella, covering her face with her handkerchief, gave
way to a flood of tears.
“I
pain you, madam,” resumed Mr. Parr; “ and I have no right to do so. Forgive me for having
made you a sharer in my sorrow; but I could not otherwise acquit myself of the
obligation that I had incurred not to expose you to a connexion, which an after
knowledge of my past life might cause you to repent having formed. I have
little more to add. I had now no motive for concealing myself from observation.
I had every reason to put an end to my banishment from my native country; and I
had the most powerful inducements to seek, by an entire change of scene, some
relief to the intense feelings which the painful disclosure, and the death of
her unhappy mother, had occasioned my poor Catherine.
“The
cheerfulness of youth had already drooped under an unremitted rumination on
what she had heard, and what she had witnessed; and I had but too much reason
to fear that her health would also give way. But where could we go? I had been
too long estranged from every former connexion, to hope that I could renew the
ties of society with pleasure. My character was changed: I dreaded to expose
the opening beauties and the tender virtues of my Catherine to the sunshine or
the chill of a flattering and cold-hearted world. My whole soul revolted from
introducing her to those unnatural relations who had refused protection and
consolation to her unfortunate mother. My first care was to shelter her even
from their notice. How deep were now my lamentations that Eagle’s Crag was
desolate. Yet all my wishes, all my thoughts, hovered around its neighbourhood.
I could not bear to think of a home in any other spot on the whole face of the
globe. I was resolved, if possible, to purchase a few acres in a vicinity so
endeared to me by the remembrance of happiness now for ever gone!
“I
was willing to hope that some sprouts from its root might spring up for my
Catherine. At least, that in the seclusion and obscurity in which I proposed to
live, she might be secure from temptation and from falsehood. She had no
choice; for she knew no world beyond the narrow boundary within which she had
been reared. She had none to lament but those whom she could never rejoin in
this world. She had none to love but me, for she knew no one else. She might
truly say with Ruth, ‘Where thou goest I will go; where thou lodgest I will
lodge; thy people shall be my people; and thy God my God.’
“Fell-beck
was to be sold: I bought it, and built on its sunny bank the cottage that you,
madam, have seen. Here, with one faithful servant, who had nursed my daughter’s
mother in her infancy, who had not deserted her in her misfortune, and who had
followed her to the grave, we took up our abode. Our accommodations were of the
simplest kind. I had long been indifferent to accommodation; and Catherine
thought not of it. By narrowing our necessary expenses within the smallest
possible bounds, that did not exclude the comforts and the decencies of life,
we obtained a superfluity of means to answer the higher gratifications that our
intellectual or our moral tastes might demand. We had chosen a cottage for our
habitation, and we became cottagers.
“Here
we have now resided nearly five years; and here I should have been well content
to dwell unknown and unconnected until the final scene which will shut from my
eyes all that is mortal, had I had only myself to think of. But what was to
become of Catherine when I was no more. Any succeeding moment—in the twinkling
of an eye—she might become alone, unprotected, unfriended! My heart reproached
me unceasingly with my neglect to secure her from a destiny so desolate and so
terrific. But I knew not where to find, I knew not where to seek, the shelter
that was so necessary. Nor was my uneasiness confined to my apprehensions for
the future. I saw a character insensibly forming in my poor Catherine the
directly reverse of the one best fitted to perform the duties of this
working-day world, and the least susceptible of relishing the happiness that it
can afford. So silent!—so abstracted!—so unearthly! Formed for and capable of
exercise and exertion, she would, but at my suggestion to the contrary, have
passed whole days in some sedentary occupation, or in pensive thought.
“Her
looks commercing with the skies;
Her
wrapt soul sitting in her eyes.”
“Too well I knew of whom and
on what she thought! Was I a second time to see the mind wear out the body?
Were the virtues of the daughter to be as fatal to me as had been the failings
of the mother? Was I to survive both my children?
“Inured as I was to sorrow, and little of gladness that I could anticipate for this last object of my tenderness, I will acknowledge that my soul was in tumults when I thought of the moment that would take her from me. Strange contradiction to all that we profess to hope and believe!
“I
conceived that I could with rapture have suffered martyrdom to have made her
happy; I shrunk from the single stroke that would have confirmed her so
unchangeably through an eternity of ages!
“But
I grow talkative; pardon me; it is long since my heart has dared to give vent
to its feelings.
“It
was at the moment when my fears for the present, and my apprehensions for the
future, were at the most painful height, that I learnt that Eagle’s Crag was
again about to receive an inhabitant. How eagerly did I seek after, and listen
to, every varying note of rumour which told of the whom and the how! It
conveyed at length the truth; and, with such particulars of commendation, as
seemed to open an accomplishment to my wishes; but I too fatally knew, excuse
me, madam, how the graces of youth and beauty may be mistaken for the virtues
they represent. My all was at stake! I could not be too cautious: yet I
had an almost superstitious conviction,—for which of us is not
superstitious?—that the walls of Eagle’s Crag must sanctify whomsoever they
inclosed; and I had soon reason to suppose that it was not merely on so shadowy
a belief that I should be called to justify the temerity I meditated. Some
circumstances reached me that—again I have to ask your pardon; in resolving to
be unreserved, I am in danger of becoming impertinent—my resolution was taken,
and had you not so happily anticipated my purpose, many days would not have
elapsed before you had seen me a mendicant at your gate, with my daughter in my
hand.
“You
now, madam, know who, and what I am; you are the repository of events and
thoughts which no other now existing creature is so fully informed of as yourself. You understand what I
have the presumption to wish from you, to ask of you; and it now belongs to you
to determine whether you will allow my daughter and myself a probationary claim
upon your society and kindness, or whether the first day of our intercourse
shall be the last.”
Isabella
scarcely suffered Mr. Parr to finish the last words of this sentence; with
impatience speaking in every feature of the face, she started from her chair,
and stretching out her hand to Mr. Parr,
“Receive
this,” said she, “as a pledge that while I have a roof to shelter me, or a protection to afford, your admirable—your beloved
Catherine shall want neither one nor the other. Be witness,” added she, looking
around her, “be witness for me every sacred memorial of the friendship once so
precious to you, that I claim the privilege, inefficient as I may be, to supply
the friends whom you have lost; of giving you back the rights that once were
yours at Eagle’s Crag!”
Mr.
Parr bent one knee to the ground, fervently pressing the hand of Isabella,
which he retained in both his own.
“In
this posture,” said he, “let me return thanks to the fountain of all good, and
to the effulgent emanation of his nature which stands before me, for that
lightening of apprehension, that inspiration of hope, which will mark the
present moment from all that has preceded it — from all that can come after it.
The piety of gratitude can only be adequate to such blessings!”
“Oh,
rise! — pray rise!” said Isabella. “You overpower me; you make me ill!” added
she, as she sunk upon a chair.
“It
is thus that the inhabitants of earth meet the joys of Heaven!” said Mr. Parr.
“Our souls are too high set.—Let us seek Catherine in the gallery: she will not be surprised that we have left her there so long, for
she knew my purpose; but it is a place too congenial to her aspirations to
suffer her to remain there longer than necessary.”
Isabella
ordered lights and coffee into the library, and willingly accompanied Mr. Parr
in search of Catherine.
They
found her contemplating the picture of Lady Margaret Willoughby, on which there
were still sufficient rays of reflected light to make the features and
countenance visible. She turned from it on the approach of her father, as if
afraid of awakening in his mind the too painful remembrance of one of whom she had heard him speak so fondly.
“You
cannot look too long, or too attentively, on that portrait,” said Mr. Parr. “It
represents all that a woman ought to be, and all that she would wish to be.”
“And
she finished her pilgrimage at six and thirty!” said Catherine, with a tone
expressive of her sense of the beatitude of so early a consummation.
“It
is the privilege of humanity to die,” said Mr. Parr; “but it is the duty of
virtue to live; and it is a
duty, my dear Catherine,” added he, with a smile, “that I enjoin you to
perform.”
“And
I also,” said Isabella; “for know, my dear Catherine, that I am now allowed to
embrace you as a friend, and I have a great many offices for you to perform in
that capacity, that will not permit you to escape us these hundred years to
come.”
“We
are entered on our probation, Catherine,” said Mr. Parr. “Be it the care of
both to acquit ourselves well.”
Thus
conversing, they returned to light, and to the library; and now it was that
Isabella was struck by the change that had taken place on Mr. Parr’s brow. The
cloud of anxiety which had rested on it through every varying change of
conversation was gone. It was lighted up with the beams of pleasure and of
gratitude, as his eye glanced from Catherine to herself; fresh agility seemed
to be communicated to every movement; while the rejuvenility of his spirit made
Catherine frequently turn towards him with a look of doubt whether it was her
father that was seated by her side.
And
is this my work? thought Isabella. Oh! who can deny themselves the delight of
making others happy!
The
hours seemed to be winged; there was no break, no pause in the conversation.
All Mr. Parr’s superiority of intellect were by skill so familiarized to the
conception and knowledge of his two youthful companions, that even Catherine
forgot her usual character of listener, and mingled with gaiety and readiness
in the conversation. It was not possible that any three persons could be more
pleased with each other. It will indeed by my own fault, thought Isabella, if I
am not better and wiser for my residence at Eagle’s Crag!
Isabella
had appointed Catherine’s chamber to be adjoining to her own; she accompanied
her to it when they retired to bed.
“My
dear Miss Parr,” said she, shewing her the communicating door, “this entrance
will always be open to you; your father has honoured me by in some degree
recommending you to my care. I am too young to be your directress; but while
your father will not disdain to superintend us both, neither will want any
other guide—we must be friends, and I have been told that it is the duty and
privilege of friendship to guard its objects from every tendency to evil. I
bespeak your correction of all that you may see amiss in me.”
“Oh,
my dear madam!” said Catherine, throwing her arms round Isabella’s neck, “I
correct you! you, who seem to me a being of superior order! you, that
have restored a degree of happiness to my father which I never before saw him
possess! oh, I can only bow before you in love and gratitude; never, never
shall I believe that you can err!”
“Yet
you must believe it, my dear Catherine,” said Isabella, kissing her, “because
it is truth; and because you will not have known me twenty-four hours,
before you will see that it is so; and so good night, but we must not part
to-morrow.”
Isabella
repeated this prohibition to Mr. Parr at the breakfast table; he submitted as
to Catherine, but he asserted that he must himself return home. At this
proposal Catherine looked aghast. “And leave me, father?” “and leave you,
Catherine,” returned he calmly; “my dear, it is not the law of nature that a
parent and a child should be one and indivisible—be not alarmed, my love; no
day will pass without my seeing you — nor more, if Mrs. Willoughby will allow
me to limit her kindness, on this first experiment, than two before you return
to Fell-beck.” “It is a nestling,” said he, addressing Isabella, “that must be
weaned by degrees.”
Catherine
acquiesced, but her rising bosom, and the tear in her eye, shewed the sacrifice
that she made.
Many
were the reflections that Mr. Parr’s pathetic and disastrous story gave rise to in Isabella’s bosom; but none that came
so home to her personal feelings, as the comment that it furnished to that
maxim of Lady Rachel’s, which asserted that the virtue of a wife had no
safeguard so impregnable as the love for her husband. She could now look back
upon moments of mortification, of resentment, and of excited vanity, which she
trembled but to think of — she could feel that she had known the instant
“When
slighted Virtue,
quits her slipp’ry reign.
And
Pride and Prudence take her seat in vain;
The
Guardians yield, by force
superior ply’d,
By
Interest, Prudence, and by Flattery, Pride.”
And
when all the defences that she had ever been taught to raise against
degradation were levelled before her; and when she was preserved alone by that
conjugal love, which she had never been instructed to consider as necessary to
the formation of the marriage bond. With how much consolation and thankfulness
did she now hug it to her heart! and how fervently did she resolve to preserve
it unfaded and unfading through all the bitter trials that neglect, or even abandonment, might expose it to!
CHAP. XXVII.
“I
do note,
How grief and patience, rooted in her, both
Mingle their spurs together.”
SHAKSPEARE.
FROM this period there was no day without some
intercourse between Eagle’s Crag and Fell-beck; and Catherine came to consider
it as a matter only to be decided by the circumstance of the hour, whether she
remained at the one, or returned to the other; but were the ladies left
together, or were they accompanied by Mr. Parr, every passing hour was marked
by a succession of amusing or improving occupations. Catherine communicated to
Isabella her greater store of scientific knowledge, and Isabella led Catherine
to higher perfection in the knowledge of the use of the pencil, or the touch of
the instrument. In one particular, however, the balance of obligation was
wholly on Catherine’s side. Isabella had increased the happiness of Catherine
an hundred-fold. She had exhilarated her spirits; she had broken in upon her
abstractions, she had opened her mind to all the youthful visions of joy and
hope; her perspective still terminated in heaven; but she could now contemplate
with satisfaction the joys and duties that lay in the way. Never did Isabella
repress the rising cheerfulness of her friend by suffering a hint to escape her
of the sense of early disappointment, which lay so heavily at her heart. If Mr.
Parr, thought she, has been able to preserve his philanthropy, and his relish
for society, through sorrows and ill usage such as he has endured, shall I
become a calumniator of the goodness of God in his appointments to man, because
I have not all that my fond heart pants for, or that my self-love accounts my
due?
But it was not even reflections, such as these, that
could enable Isabella to derive from the society of Catherine all the happiness
which she had communicated to her companion.
It is true that her solitary hours were cheered and
enlivened by her new friends; and it is equally true that a large share of the
pleasure that she bestowed was reflected on her own breast; but all was
insufficient to sooth the anxieties, to obliterate the mortifications, or to
repress the fears that now every succeeding day gave birth to.
Isabella had seen the glories of August, and the beauties
and labours of September pass away, in the continually disappointed expectation
of the arrival of Mr. Willoughby; nor had the variations of such a suspense
been softened by any regularity of their intercourse by letters. Small as the
pleasure had been that she had ever received from such intercourse, it was now
considerably lessened. On her own part she had continued weekly to give an
account of the health and progress of her boy; and to transmit a short detail
of the proceedings and events at Eagle’s Crag; mingling with each, as much of
her own feelings and occupations as would not leave Mr. Willoughby ignorant
either of her thoughts or her actions, in as great a degree to the full, as he
now seemed to concern himself with either. On the two former points her
communications were always equally complete and regular; on the latter she was
more or less diffuse according to the style or frequency of the epistles
which she received from Mr. Willoughby. But nothing could be more variable in both their particulars, than those letters were now
become.
Sometimes they would arrive for several successive posts
together; at others a fortnight would elapse without any. Some would be written
in strains of the fondest affection both to Isabella and his boy; and would be
fraught with the strongest expressions of impatience to rejoin them. Through
these ran a vein of dejection and unhappiness, and a half expressed longing to
repose his sorrows in some sympathizing bosom: then he would break off short,
give his expressions a gay turn, and leave it doubtful how far he had been in
earnest in any thing that he had said. If Isabella, induced by such glimpses
into what seemed to be passing in her husband’s mind, ventured gently to urge
her claim to his confidence, she invariably observed that his next letter was
evidently written under a stricter guard against any such lapses; and by his
perfect inadvertence to any desire on her part to be partaker in this
uneasiness, she could not doubt, but that it was unacceptable to him. But the
greater part of his letters were little more than acknowledgements of the
receipt of hers; orders to Roberts, and complaints of the delays and vexations
which he found in settling his business; and neither in the one or the other could she discover the nature of
this business, nor could trace his occupations, nor the society in which he
lived. The letters were sometimes dated from Brighton, sometimes from the house
in town; and sometimes, but this was rarely, from Beechwood. From such a
correspondence, if she could derive neither comfort nor information, she
thought she found intimations of its source in the style of Lady Rachel’s
letters to her; and she
believed it to be such as forbad her too eagerly to wish for an elucidation,
probably more painful than the obscurity in which she felt herself lost.
There was more of softness, more of commiseration in Lady
Rachel’s manner of writing than she generally allowed herself, let the subject
be what it would, or the person whom she addressed be ever so dear to her. In
return to Isabella’s communication of the friendship which she had formed with
Mr. Parr and his daughter, Lady Rachel had fully confirmed the favourable
opinion that Isabella had expressed of the character of the former; and had
said, “hold fast the acquisition that you have made: a friend is born for
adversity.” She had, however, added nothing to the information that Isabella
had received from Mr. Parr, and which Isabella had not thought herself at full
liberty to detail even to Lady Rachel, except that the mother of Catherine was
a Scotch woman; and that from thence probably arose the predilection that had
been shewn by the daughter to the Scotch garment, and mode of head-dress, which
had struck Isabella as singular, and not easily accountable for in one who
seemed in general to shun every thing that could draw observation upon her.
Thus, while Isabella received little exhilaration from
the letters of Lady Rachel, her conversations with Mr. Roberts were not more
consolatory. A gloom rested on his brow; and there was a sadness in his accent,
even when he would force himself to say, “Madam, we must hope the best.” “My
honoured Lady, all may be well.” “My Master will be here one of these days
yet.”
But Isabella began now to believe that this day would
never come. The shades of October were far advanced, and she was still a prey
to the cruel fluctuations of hope and disappointment that the uncertainty and
impenetrableness of Mr. Willoughby subjected her to. She heard seldom from her
mother or sisters; and their letters were wholly filled with details of their
own schemes and plans—of the balls, the parties, the beaux and the belles,
which took up so much of their time, as scarcely left them leisure to inquire
how Isabella continued to like a course of life so different from their own.
Once or twice, indeed, there was a hint from Lady Jane, that she “did not
understand such seclusion;” “that perhaps Isabella did not consider how her
interests might be undermining;” “but that she was not one to interfere between
man and wife.”
Isabella could not but understand such innuendos as
disadvantageous to Mr. Willoughby, but they could be to no purpose but to increase
her dejection, and new edge her fears. She wondered that her mother had not
forborne them!
In vain was her growing attachment to Catherine; in vain
were all the efforts
of Mr. Parr to lighten that load of thought, which she considered herself as bound
to confine to her own breast. It weighed upon her without intermission, and
deprived her of all power to exhilarate others, or be exhilarated herself. She
saw plainly that nothing of all this escaped the penetration of Mr. Parr: but
he betrayed neither his conjectures, nor his knowledge, otherwise than by
multiplied endeavours to amuse and to sustain her. His manners were become
those of a tender parent; and it would have been difficult to have known, as he
exerted himself to charm the
progress of the evening hours, which of the two lovely creatures
to whose amusement he dedicated himself, had the greater right to call him
parent.
Thus, thought Isabella, did he once before, forgetting
the wrongs of the husband, assume the character of a tender father, to an
erring wife! Let it be another call upon me to be, that which I ought to be;
that my failure may not inflict a second wound upon the heart of this
benevolent, this suffering being!
There was, indeed, one distinction in Mr. Parr’s address
to Isabella, that could not escape her observation. It was marked with a
respect amounting sometimes
to little short of sacred reverence. Such was the impression that he had
received in contemplating a heart so pure,—a mind so powerful,—and a devotion
to her duties so disinterested, in a creature so young, and so deserted.
Had Morna been an Isabella! was the thought of every
moment; and his sigh for the one was the deeper, and his admiration of the
other the more glowing!
CHAP. XXVIII.
“The
heart’s affection,—secret thing!
Is
like the cleft rock’s ceaseless spring,
Which
free and independent flows,
Of
summer’s sun, or winter’s snows;
The
fox-glove from its side may fall,
The
heath-bloom fade, or the moss-flowers white;
But
still its runlet, bright, though small,
Will
issue sweetly to the light.”
BAILLIE.
THE second week in November was now arrived; and Isabella
meditated whether she ought not to assume the courage to require to Mr. Willoughby an explicit avowal of his purposes for
himself, and his wishes for her. She doubted whether the passive state in which
she was remaining did not violate Lady Rachel’s admonition; “be not afraid to
act; whatever else he is, your husband is not a tyrant.”
Perhaps, thought Isabella, I shall be accountable for any
errors that my apparent unconsciousness of the offences committed against me
may occasion. I may be thought indifferent; acquiescent! Yet may not
expostulation irritate? May it not provoke an open avowal of that which is at
present shaded? should I be chased from Eagle’s Crag!
Her full heart seemed bursting at the very thought.
Alas, I am a coward! I am afraid to act! oh how a
sense of my own weakness aggravates the injuries of others!
The desire, the almost necessity that she felt for some
support beyond her own strength, and the relief of disburthening her mind, made
the temptation to confide her doubts and her griefs to Mr. Parr, almost
irresistible. Inclination could suggest much sophistry to justify, and even to
recommend such a confidence. She found herself involved in a labyrinth of what
appeared to her a contrariety of duties. But she caught the clue of that simple
and explicit obligation, “not to expose the weakness and failings of her
husband;” and extricated herself from the danger she was in. The blush of shame
was on her cheek, when, having gained this vantage ground, she looked back upon
the hazard she had been in, of incurring the disgrace of establishing a
confidence, that she would not have dared to own to the man whom she was bound
not only to love, but to honour and obey!
Strengthening herself to endure all that she ought to
endure, she resolved to be determined alone by her own sense of what was right;
and to take the responsibility, and the consequence of what she should do upon
herself alone.
Her usual companions were absent; and she had appointed
in her own mind, the night and the hour when this momentous, this terrific
letter was to be written: when she was to appear in a new light to her husband;
when she was to assume rights! when she was to call for explanations!
She wondered at her own temerity: and again she felt it
more tolerable to endure the rack to which she was bound, than to demand the
stroke that was to put an end, perhaps, at once to her torture, and her hope!
Her mind remained for some time in a state of the most
excruciating irresolution; but having by a train of deductions, both from the
past and the present, arrived at almost a certainty that she was not only
neglected, but supplanted, she foresaw, in such an usurpation, consequences to her offspring of so
tremendous a nature, that she conceived herself bound to avert them if
possible, at whatever cost to herself—she adopted then firmly the resolution to
throw the die, on the cast of which seemed to depend the happiness, or the misery
of her life.
There was, however, one more inlet through which a
ray of hope might dart: she might that very night receive the wished-for
intelligence of the approach of Mr. Willoughby. His silence had been unusually
long; it might be broken by all that she wished to hear!
With
beating heart, and trembling limbs, she awaited the moment of decision:
it came—and brought with it, a letter from her husband!
She
caught it eagerly: but with her finger on the seal, she had not courage to
break it; so much did she dread the words, “pray tell Roberts.”—Suspense could,
however, be endured no longer; she burst open the paper, averting her eyes,
when they were arrested at the same moment by the expression,
“I am
the happiest of men! my dearest love, I shall be with you in less than five
days from the date of this. I shall embrace you! I shall behold my boy! Your
steady soul, my dear Isabella, cannot enter into the tumults of mine in this
expectation; but you have no notion of the impediments, the contrarieties, that
have so harassed me. All has gone on smoothly with you—but I have escaped! and if I can but be true to myself, I shall find at
Eagle’s Crag a shelter from every future danger. God preserve you my dearest
love! I would my arms were around you at this moment!”
Isabella
could not believe her senses! yet it was,—yes, it was the hand writing of Mr.
Willoughby! but the style! the feelings! oh, how foreign from all to which she
had been accustomed! He even seemed to reproach her with indifference! She who
had been so often chilled, even by the simple thought that her love was of no
value to him! What had wrought the change? To what escape does he allude? No
matter: he has broken his chains, whatever they were! he will rejoin me! Now I
shall not be afraid to let him see how dear, how inexpressibly dear he is to
me! he will see that he, at least can
shake my steady soul! Oh, how little do I deserve or covet such a praise, when his happiness, his
love is in question! But we shall be again together, and all will be well!
Visions
of delight unthought of before floated in the brain of Isabella; she could not
but be sensible of the extraordinary growth which had taken place in all her
powers within the last few months; she could not but feel that she was worthy
of being the confidante and the counsellor of her husband; that in claiming his
love, she offered a full equivalent in revealing her own.
“Hitherto
he may have considered me as a child; the object of indulgence alone;
henceforth he shall know me as a friend; as the being that can suffer both with
him, and for him! and this without the necessity of uttering one word of
reproach; of wounding him by acknowledging that I have been wounded myself. Oh
God, I thank thee!”
Isabella
summoned Mr. Roberts to partake of her joy. She gave fifty orders for more
accommodation than would have been necessary for a monarch and his train; she
made a thousand inquiries into the minutest particulars as to what Mr.
Willoughby had been accustomed to have: she called Evans: she hurried to her
nursery; she embraced and wept over the little Godfrey; in a word, she betrayed
to her whole household, by her joy in the expectation of her husband, the
sorrow which she had so carefully veiled, that his absence had occasioned her.
“I
could not have believed all this,” said Mr. Roberts, solemnly, to Mrs. Evans;
“I have thought my Lady a most wonderful personage, but I could not have
thought that she loved my master so beyond all bounds.”
“Ah,
Mr. Roberts,” returned Mrs. Evans, “you would never believe me, that my Lady
had a breaking heart under that composed countenance.”
Isabella
arose early in the morning, and surprised her friends at Fell-beck, by her
appearance at their breakfast table.
“Mr.
Willoughby is coming,” said she, as she entered their room. “He may be here on
Wednesday, —to-morrow, —to day, —any time; you say, my dear Mr. Parr, that you
have not seen him since he was a boy. Oh, I hope you will think him like his
father! and I am sure he will love and reverence you as one, if you will permit
him, for indeed he has a kind heart, and an affectionate one, —every body says
so!” forgetting, in her eagerness to make his eulogium, that she was making his
apology too.
Catherine’s
eyes sparkled with pleasure at the happiness of her friend; and Mr. Parr
congratulated her with the tenderness of a parent.
“What
a happy man is Mr. Willoughby!” said he, with a sigh. “But my dear Mrs.
Willoughby, you must compose yourself. I scarcely thought that you could have
been so transported.”
“Oh,
but you do not know; you cannot guess——.” Isabella stopped; for the secret of
all her past wretchedness was about to escape her. “Indeed,” added she,
recollecting herself, “I did not know myself of half the vexations and
impediments with which Mr. Willoughby has been obliged to struggle before he
could rejoin me; but now I hope we shall be able to indemnify him for them
all.”
Isabella
having thus communicated her joy to her friends, could not bear to be another
moment from Eagle’s Crag; for her fervid imagination represented to her that
Mr. Willoughby might even be already there.
“You
will be so kind as to let us have the earliest intelligence of the arrival of
Mr. Willoughby,” said Mr. Parr; “we shall not come to Eagle’s Crag until we
know that you have met; for well says the wise man, ‘a friend and a companion
can never meet amiss; but above both is a wife with her husband’.”
“It
is a joy,” said Isabella, “that I have never known before, for till now we have
never been parted.”
Away
flew Isabella, and left Mr. Parr to ruminate on all that had come to his
knowledge; and to tremble for the disappointment that he feared might be
preparing for Isabella.
CHAP.
XXIX.
“Naughty lady!
You
are not worth the dust which the rude wind
Blows
in your face.” SHAKSPEARE.
“I
have promis’d a thousand———
Hearts?
I
think so. —
Not
one! —the time may come thou may’st.”
BYRON.
Mr.
Willoughby might well say that he had had an escape. Not all his experience in
what is called the “ways of the world,” had been sufficient to
preserve him from a danger into which he had run, precisely because he believed
that he was stronger than his enemy. A single doubt of his own self-command
would have saved him, for Mr. Willoughby was incapable of premeditated
baseness; all his aspirations were on the side of virtue; never did Mr.
Willoughby purpose to do evil. Hence
believing himself safe in his wishes,
the mischief had generally been incurred before he was aware of his inclination
to it. No previous precaution had veiled any part of the undesigned aberration;
and thus with virtue in his heart, and vice in his actions, he could not escape
from the reproach of inconsequence, but at the cost of the more injurious
stigma of hypocrisy. An alternation of sinning and repenting had left him, at
this period of his life, the sport of every blast of temptation, and all that
he now did rightly, was but the shadow of virtue, which like the steps of a
spirit left no trace behind it; while all that he did amiss, made him but the
more incapable of doing otherways.
Thus,
when from his marriage, the great epoch of his life, he resolved to date an
entire dereliction of all that might hitherto have been wrong; nothing was more
consonant to the generous feelings of his heart, or to his moral sense of
rectitude, than that he should be one of the kindest and most faithful of
husbands: and, having sacrificed what he was sensible was an ill-placed passion
for Lady Charlotte Stanton, to the more rational preference of the milder
character of Isabella, he believed that he had given such a proof of
self-command, as ought to exonerate him from all fear of any future influence
that the powerful attractions of Lady Charlotte might still have over his
fancy.
But
Mr. Willoughby had been too much used to a life of excitement, to be able at
once to rest satisfied with the calm and regular happiness of domestic bliss.
No
sooner were the transports of the first days of his marriage past, than a sense
of vacuity ensued; yet in returning to the more varied scenes of general life,
he meant not so much that they should supersede either the duties or the
pleasures of his new engagement, as that they should add to the one, and
support him in the discharge of the other. While he poured out his fortune at
the feet of Isabella; while he left her will the sole arbitress of her actions;
while he felt kind, and was certain that he was faithful; his conscience made
him no reproach for the small proportion that she engaged either of his time or
his thoughts. Nor was he more alive to the hazard of a mode of conduct towards
others, which the example of so many around him sanctioned; and which, not
proceeding from any evil design in himself, he could not but regard as
innocent. If there were any
deviations into a more marked attention to any particular person, than even the
indulgence of a licentious world allows, it was only in trifles, which could carry no consequence with them.
So he
flattered himself; unaware as he was, that in these imagined trifles, like the
locks of Sampson, lie the strength of vice!
He
had accustomed himself to regard Lady Charlotte as a coquette who was more in
his power, than he was in hers; and when, by the sordidness of her marriage,
the whole motives of which he very shrewdly penetrated, she sunk still lower in
his moral approbation, he scarcely considered her otherways than as a very
beautiful creature, with whom he might amuse himself as he thought fit, without
any hazard of incurring a real attachment on his part, or blemishing the
estimation that she held in the world.
Thus setting
at defiance the power of Lady Charlotte, he threw himself perpetually into the
circle of her charms; and he knew not that he had tasted the enchanted cup,
till he started at the transformation that he perceived in himself. His safety
he knew to be in flight, but it was no longer in his power to fly; she had
woven around him a web of so artful a structure, although of so imperceptible a
texture, that he found himself impeded in every attempt to break from her
society; while he was wholly unsuspicious that it was by her machinations that
he was detained there.
Lady
Charlotte, on quitting town, had established herself at Brighton. Mr. Dunstan
had no ancestral domain to which Lady Charlotte could repair, there to swell
her pride by appropriating to herself the honours that had been won by others;
or from whence she could tell of the Edwards and Henrys who had given names to
all the narrow and inconvenient divisions of which those turrets were composed
that had been honoured by their residence; or who had trodden the high windowed
and gloomy galleries, the echoes of which returned sounds from their steps,
sufficient to appal the most unsuperstitious heart.
Wealth
was Mr. Dunstan’s sole distinction; and to make this wealth answer all the
purposes of vanity, was Lady Charlotte’s sole purpose in every part of her
domestic arrangement. Hence, every place which she inhabited was the temple of
the most refined luxury! the shrine of voluptuousness! all that could seduce
the senses, or dazzle the imagination, was around her; and her motto was, “Let
us crown ourselves with rosebuds, before they are withered.”
Her
mansion at Brighton was the resort of all that was gay and fashionable, witty,
and unprincipled. There was to be found the
best company: and to be received there en
famille, was a distinction. It was a distinction sought in vain by many: it
was offered to Mr. Willoughby! but
this distinguished favour seemed to proceed from Mr. Dunstan, not from Lady
Charlotte.
Mr.
Dunstan no longer fancied himself in love—Lady Charlotte had cured him of that
folly; but he was not the less under the influence of another still
greater,—the folly of supposing that he derived honour from expending his
substance in a vain competition with his superiors in rank and fortune.
He had
entered the world with one single ambition: the ambition of being known to the
great and the fashionable. His mean to this end was also single: it consisted
in wealth accumulated by his father. This was a circumstance little inquired
into by those who drank his wine, eat his dinner, rode his horses, or made him
keep theirs; but it was never forgotten by himself; and the pain attendant on
the remembrance made it necessary that the blot in the escutcheon should be
obliterated as soon as possible. He was resolved to fall in love with the first
woman of rank whose liberality of sentiment would lead her to forget the
obscurity of birth, in the notoriety of fortune. Lady Charlotte’s charms had
for a short time, and to as great a degree as Mr. Dunstan was capable of, made
that real, which, there were an hundred chances to one, must have been assumed;
and Mr. Dunstan had, what he called to himself, the unlooked for good luck of
really liking the titled creature whom his ambition had decided that he must
marry. He had already found a more than sufficient counterbalance for this
luck, in the interior qualities of the object of his choice; but all her
external advantages remained the same. By her means he had become the
son-in-law of an Earl; he was known as the distinguished man, who had married
the beautiful Lady Charlotte Stanton; and he had the privilege of making
presents to her sisters, and paying the debts of her brothers. Still more, her
imprimateur gave sterling fashion to what the fastidious might, without such a
stamp, have thought no better than base metal; Mr. Dunstan, who in his strife
with the meanness of his original, had thought the twenty-four hours of his
existence, “un jour manque,” in which, with whatever pains or
mortifications it might have been acquired, he had not been able to make the
acquisition of “a valuable acquaintance,” could now repose upon his arms, could
talk of his laurels, and could make his victories come home to him.
He
was at the acme of his glory, although somewhat in the decline of his
happiness, when Lady Charlotte chose Brighton as the theatre on which to
display her own talents, and her husband’s riches; and such was the strength of
their united powers, that there was not a single individual in Brighton, or its
vicinity, but such as could submit to the annihilation of “being quite out of
the world,” who did not strain every nerve to be seen at Lady Charlotte’s
parties, and to be invited to Mr. Dunstan’s dinners. What was the reward of
management in some, and the prize of effrontery in others, was offered to Mr.
Willoughby gratuitously, and he was sought as giving distinction to those from
whom all the rest of the world seemed to think they derived it.
Nothing
could be more simple than all this on the part of Lady Charlotte. He was her
“old friend!”—he was her “new cousin!”—“they had always been in such habits of
intimacy!” — “he was a poor widower,” — at present “quite on the pavée.”
And “he and Mr. Dunstan had known each other so long!” — neither wonder nor
censure could attach to his being, as it were, domesticated with those to whom
he was united by so many ties.
So
Lady Charlotte designed that Mr. Willoughby should think; and so Mr. Willoughby
thought. His prudence slept upon its post; while Lady Charlotte, not trusting
wholly either to her charms, or to her flattery, to accomplish the overthrow
which she meditated, at once of the honour and happiness of her victim, called
in a third auxiliary, not less potent than either of the former.
Mr.
Willoughby did not love play; but he loved excitement, and was regardless of
money; and now, uneasy in his mind, and out of humour with himself from a
consciousness of error, he was ready to fly to any resource which prevented him
from looking within.
Amongst
the varied attractions by which Lady Charlotte and Mr. Dunstan drew around them
all that either made, or wished to make, “the world of fashion,” the powerful
stimulus of high play was not wanting. Lady Charlotte had seen that Mr.
Willoughby was not insensible to the feverish pleasure that this most
irrational of all pastimes can communicate; she had seen it with pleasure
during the memorable week that they had passed together some weeks before; and
she had made use of this discovery to accelerate the ruin which she so much
wished to accomplish; and towards which she was not unaware that the first
steps were made already.
Mr.
Willoughby’s natural generosity had long degenerated into profuseness; what at
first was a simple desire of gratification was become by indulgence a morbid
disability to withstand the slightest inclination, at whatever expense it was
to be satisfied. The consequence was not difficult to be foreseen, and would
probably be immediate, if the operation of such weakness was aided by the quick
process of unsuccessful gaming. So would Isabella be thrown from the eminence
on which it was gall and wormwood to Lady Charlotte to see her placed; and she
knew that poverty would wring the soul of Mr. Willoughby to torture, not only
from the pain of deprivation, but from the sense of degradation. The pleasure
of revenge might then be hers. To this pleasure she could subordinate other
purposes that she had in view; or might so blend them together as at once to be
able to gratify what she called love, and to accomplish the downfall of
Isabella, and the misery of Mr. Willoughby.
Nor
did she fear that the dangerous engine of gambling which she had brought into
play for such nefarious purposes should, by any re-action, bring on herself the
ruin she had designed for others. Although not very prompt in allowing Mr.
Dunstan the merit of any tolerable qualities that he might possess, she felt a
full reliance on his prudence.
Notwithstanding
he might appear to bye-standers to pay high for the station that he maintained
in the world, she was not afraid that he would be betrayed into a bad bargain;
and she considered the whist and the loo tables, not only as allurements which
drew around her those who otherways might have stood aloof, but as a resource
from whence the more substantial gratifications of the dinner table, were in part to be furnished.
When Mr. Dunstan recounted to her these paltry and disgraceful gains, she did
but despise him the more; but such a feeling took nothing from her happiness,
for love or honour had been no part of her bond; and the source from whence
they sprung promised permanency to those enjoyments for which alone she had
contracted it. Thus, without a fear of the consequences to herself, did she
“drug the cup,” which she made Mr. Willoughby drink, with every poison that
could corrupt his moral feeling, and every ingredient that could stimulate his
vicious inclinations.
At
the period when Isabella removed into Westmorland, Mr. Willoughby’s
difficulties pressed closely upon him, and he could no longer shut his eyes to the
necessity there was that some change in his manner of living must be made. He
was not sorry that, by giving way to Isabella’s preference of Eagle’s Crag to
Beechwood, he should be able to veil from her, at least for a time, the
situation that his affairs were in; and he flattered himself that before he
rejoined her, he should be able to make such arrangements as would spare her
the pain and mortification under which he was himself suffering.
He
parted from her with real regret; and had he taken the wiser method of dealing
openly with her, they might, perhaps, from that moment have dated their mutual
happiness. But he regarded Isabella as a child; a most engaging and amiable child it is true, but still
a child ; and he could not be ignorant that she had become his wife merely on
the ground of fulfilling the purpose for which she had been brought up, by
forming a good establishment; and he was not so unreasonable as to suppose
himself the object of an affection that could withstand the disappointment, that
the disclosures which he had to make must bring to all the visions of
magnificence and distinction with which he concluded that all the preference
that she could feel for him must be identified. He hated pain himself: he could
not willingly inflict it upon others without partaking of what he communicated
in a very uneasy degree. He could least of all bear to inflict it upon a young
and innocent creature who naturally looked up to him as the source of all the
good that she could expect in life. On the integrity of Isabella he had an
unshaken reliance; and he entertained a full sense of obligation to her for the
mildness and cheerfulness with which she never failed to meet his every wish;
but he had no confidence in the powers of her understanding, or the strength of
her mind, from which he could hope assistance in removing his difficulties, or
support to bear them.
She
will but weep, thought he, and say that she is ready to do any thing that I
wish; and I do not know what it is that I do wish.
Thus
reasoning, he thought it therefore both wise and kind to keep her in ignorance
as long as possible of all that could make her uneasy; or put to hazard that
degree of esteem and approbation which he believed that she entertained for
him.
It
was his purpose, at the time when they parted, immediately to dispose of
Beechwood, and to rejoin Isabella as soon as possible; but the negociations
necessary to accomplish the first point, drew out into length. It was necessary
that he should be near the spot, that he might be more easily consulted; to
wait in solitude at the house which was so soon to become the property of
another, was impossible for a man of Mr. Willoughby’s habits, and ungoverned
feelings. He tried the experiment, and fretted himself into a nervous fever in a
week. Brighton then became necessary, even as he believed, for his health; and
he told himself that he yielded rather to this necessity, than to the
allurements that were held out to him there.
He
heard from every mouth of the delightful establishment which Lady Charlotte had
formed, and it could not be wondered at if he went rather to a place where he
was sure to find himself surrounded by friends, and good company, than
that he should content himself with the benefit that the sea might equally have
afforded him in a situation of less public resort. How innocently might all
this have been done! How guiltily was it done!
Yet
Mr. Willoughby owed not his subjection, wholly or unitedly, to the bewitching
charms of Lady Charlotte, or the demoralizing society and habits in which he
now lived.
Mr.
Willoughby was no novice in the allurements and the arts of beauty, or in the
power of example. He had sometimes fallen before, and sometimes triumphed over
each. Lady Charlotte was aware of this, and she found it necessary to call to
her assistance a more powerful agent than either, before she could bring about
that fearful change in the feelings of the unfortunate Willoughby that he was
about to experience.
When
he had repaired to Brighton, he held Lady Charlotte but as he had always held
her; a practised coquette; whose beauty pleased his senses, and whose freedom
of manners allowed of equal freedom from him. He even conceived that his own
respect for decorum was paramount to hers, and that she owed obligations to him
that, however unwilling she might be to confess, she could not but feel. He was
prepared for nothing so little as to find the free-principled, the unguarded,
the seemingly cold-hearted Lady Charlotte, an observer of her duties, a
respecter of decorum, and the apparent victim of some secret sorrow. Yet no
sooner was he domesticated in her house at Brighton, than her character seemed
to have undergone this change.
To
the general observation she might remain only what she had ever been, a most
fascinating, but a most unprincipled woman; but with Mr. Willoughby she had a
tone of moral, of interest, and of friendship, which bespoke a heart of good
and deep feeling. Whenever they were accidentally apart from others, she wore a
sadness in her brow that told of a mind ill at ease; and she seemed to regard
all the splendour with which she was surrounded, not only with indifference but
with disdain, as the object at once of her contempt and resentment. The
contemptuous sarcasms and bitter taunts which in her gayer moments she had
seemed to take pleasure in, when speaking of her husband, had now given way to
the expression of a more chastised, but more painful sense of her wretchedness
in being his wife. Some fatal secret appeared as if about to break from her lips;
some deprecation of the contempt that she acknowledged must attach to such a
choice as she had made in a partner for life, in the motives that had led, or
the impulse that had compelled her to it.
From
her blushes, her sighs, her half words, her stifled emotions, the vanity of Mr.
Willoughby was not slow to understand her meaning, nor to assist her in
revealing it so unequivocally as to establish a confidence and a connexion
between them, that laid her pride at his feet; but which gave her an unlimited credit
on his gratitude.
She
could now unblushingly talk of her “unfortunate passion.” Could call
herself “a self-devoted and unreproaching victim of his former attention
towards her.” Could describe the “agony—the madness—which the first conviction
of his intended marriage with another had thrown her into”––the “schemes of
revenge” that it inspired — “revenge that had terminated so fatally for
herself.” She could say “that a moment of delirium, a moment of insanity, had
made her the wife of a man whom she despised, whom she detested;” and “that by
so doing she had lowered herself in her own eyes, and she knew that she must be
lowered almost below contempt in the eyes of him whose approbation, if she
could obtain it, would still make one white spot in the darkness which she had
drawn around her.”
Where
was the heart of man that could receive a sacrifice thus offered? or who could
neglect to purify it of all its bitterness to the fair sacrificer?
Mr.
Willoughby exhausted himself in regret for his own blindness; at once of the
real character of the woman whom he had so ardently admired, and of his own
happiness, in the flattering partiality with which she had regarded him, and he
poured forth the most vehement professions of admiration, respect, and love,
for the creature of whom he had so doltishly deprived himself.
The
sacred name of friend was prostituted by each to designate the immoral tie that
was between them; and while she implored him, with the simplicity of
unassisting helplessness, to protect her from herself; and while he
promised to be at once the guardian of her honour and his own, he drank deeply
of the cup of lawless gratification, and began to familiarize himself with all
its worst consequences.
At
this moment of danger and self-abandonment, the whole charm dissolved as by the
stroke of a lance from some omnipotent knight. Lady Charlotte suddenly broke up
her establishment at Brighton, and gave the victim of her arts a moment in
which to reflect.
It
was then that Mr. Willoughby saw the precipice on which he had stood.
Astonished, angry, mortified, yet pleased, and grateful for his escape; all his
better feelings returned with added force; and carried him impetuously to the
feet of Isabella, there to expatiate, by unremitted kindness and undeviating
rectitude—so he purposed! the wrongs that he had offered to the claims that she
had upon him.
But
his connexion with Lady Charlotte, although it made the greater part of his
guilt, was but a small part of his embarrassments. He had played deeply, and lost
heavily. The remittances which he had so continually pressed Roberts to make,
had been expended in discharging his debts of honour; those of conscience
remained uncancelled; and when Lady Charlotte’s sudden disappearance allowed
him leisure to contemplate the situation in which he stood, he saw, that if he
were to conceal the truth from Isabella, even for a few months, the sale of
Beechwood must be immediately concluded.
He
had returned to town; he put every means into operation; and he had been fortunate
enough to accomplish his purpose.
It was
in the moment of transport which his success had occasioned, that he had
written to Isabella. A month had elapsed since Lady Charlotte, in disappointing
his hopes, had fulfilled his wishes; he had had time to return to his senses,
and to feel where his true happiness lay. In the angry mood in which he then
was with Lady Charlotte, a comparison between the coquette who had seduced him,
and the wife whom he had neglected, forced itself on his understanding, and Isabella
stood before him in a powerfulness of attraction which she had never before
presented to his imagination. He felt at that moment that to live with her, and
for his boy, would be equally his happiness and his duty; and he believed that
from henceforth he should wish for no other life; but he knew not what a
scorpion he had admitted into his bosom; he knew not that he had so often been
told by Lady Charlotte, and had so often repeated after her, “that all her
errors and all her sorrows proceeded from a warmth and ardency of feeling as
charming as it was unfortunate and uncommon;” “that she might be miserable, but
could never be guilty;” “that he was the cause, the innocent cause indeed, but
still the cause, of all her wretchedness, and that he owed her every
compensation in his power consistent with her duties as a wife, and those that
he had imposed upon himself by his character of a husband.” He knew not that
all this tissue of nonsense had been repeated, till he had no more doubt of its
truth than he had of his own existence; nor of the consequence which Lady
Charlotte had so artfully drawn from it, “that she had an established right to
his respect and esteem, and a claim upon his affections, which ought not, and
could not be shaken by the formal maxims of the world, any more than they could
interfere with the observances that he owed to Isabella. He knew not that he
had adopted the pernicious maxim “that the only real union was the union of
souls; and that, while it was kept pure and unalloyed by the grosser indulgence
of the senses, it was as innocent as it was lovely.” He knew not that he had
received the injurious impressions, “that Isabella’s affections were of a lower
order than Lady Charlotte’s; and that while one must remain miserable by being
withheld from dedicating herself soul and body to the man whom she loved, the
other would be made happy by the even tenor of uninterrupted indulgence and
complacent good-will.” Such was the effect that Lady Charlotte’s machinations
had really had upon the mind of Mr. Willoughby; but of their force he had
ceased to be aware at the moment when her sudden withdrawal of herself from all
intercourse with him, had deeply wounded his vanity; and had left him doubtful
whether to impute her disappearance to refined coquetry, or heroic
self-command. At this moment he could not entirely expel a lurking suspicion
that he had been duped; and the virtues and subduing qualities to which she had
laid so strong a claim, and for which, so short a period before, he had been inclined
to give her full credit, now seemed something apocryphal; and this shadow of
the truth clouded all the charms and all the pretensions of Lady Charlotte. His
heart turned to the pure and unsophisticated character of Isabella; and every
moment appeared an age that retarded the new era of his existence, which he
purposed should from this hour begin; nor did his bridal morning arise so
bright to his hopes, nor so welcome to his heart, as did the one on which he
quitted London to begin his journey to Eagle’s Crag.
CHAP.
XXX.
“She of gentler nature,
softer, dearer;
Strength in her gentleness,
hope in her sorrows;
Whose darkest hour some ray
of lightness borrows
From better days to come;
whose meek devotion
Calms every wayward
passion’s wild commotion,
’Till Evil’s self seems its
strong hold betraying.”
BAILLIE.
ISABELLA
had returned from Fell-beck, in the trembling expectation that Mr. Willoughby
might be already arrived; yet she was too reasonable to feel disappointed when
she found her home as solitary as when she left it.
I am
a fool, thought she, to let my wishes rather than my understanding calculate
for me. Three days only of the limited five are yet gone; but he says, within five days. Well then, after
to-day I may begin to look for him
every hour; but to-day I will try not to expect him. I will try to compose my
spirits. Mr. Parr said that he did not think that I could have been so
transported. I did not myself know that I could. But this is joy; and I surely
never felt joy before. How tumultuous, and yet how pleasant is the
sensation!—but I will still it, I will be composed.
Isabella, in conformity with this
wise resolution, betook herself to some of her wonted occupations; but in vain
did she attempt to read; in vain did she sit down to her harp; in vain did she
attempt to complete the unfinished sketch that lay on her drawing-table. The
“domestic deity” was not at home. She could do nothing but caress her boy, or
wander from room to room to ascertain what she already knew –– that every thing
was in that exactness of order which was due to the reception of the master of
the mansion.
At
length this day of vainly premeditated composure closed! and it was succeeded
by that wherein all the flutter of joy and expectation would be allowable; but
scarcely were the first hours past before the lightness of spirit in which
Isabella had risen began to give place to an invading fear that her hopes might
be disappointed. There was a magnitude in the bliss that had been promised her,
which seemed too vast for reality. She had flattered herself too easily! Some
new impediment would arise! It was not possible that she could be so happy!
Mr.
Willoughby’s letter was read again and again: the more it exceeded all that she
had ever hoped to attain, the more it seemed impossible that it should be
verified. Yet she started at every sound; or fancied sounds when they were not
to be heard. The day, however, wore away, and none were really heard that
announced the arrival of Mr. Willoughby.
“Yet
he may still come: he would not regard travelling late. He could not mean to
deceive me. No! he may neglect, but he will never wantonly trifle with my
feelings, merely to excite them.”
“But
he says I have a steady soul. That I cannot guess at the tumults of his.
Perhaps he thinks I cannot feel.”
And
Isabella began to think that this opinion might be just, when, after a night of
broken sleep and feverish irritation, she found herself in a state of
depression which almost amounted to apathy.
She
made as many efforts to excite her feelings, as two days before she had made to
still them.
What
can be the meaning of my insensibility? thought she. Is it the effect of
despair. But how unjust I am to despair? Ten thousand accidents may have
occasioned the delay of a few hours. If Mr. Willoughby were to know all that
has passed in my heart for the last few days, well might he think me a child!
well might he despise me!
It
was a seasonable diversion of her thought to receive a note from Catherine. It
contained only a few words of kind inquiry, as an accompaniment of a book which
she had promised to lend her, but had no allusion to the expected arrival of
Mr. Willoughby. Isabella, in return, confined her information on this subject
to the simple statement that he was not yet come. But she could not make it
without such a revulsion of feeling as produced a flood of tears; and these
tears relieved the oppression of her heart. They drove away despair, and
re-established the empire of hope.
Calm
and confiding, Isabella passed that day and the next: the third she was equally
calm, but she had lost all confidence.
Yet I
am but where I was a week ago, thought she. I must return to my accustomed
employments. I will go to-morrow to Fell-beck. I will again throw myself upon
the support of Mr. Parr, and the sympathy of Catherine. How grateful ought I to
be for such friends!
Isabella
had just drank her coffee, and was sitting in all the sadness of these
determinations, when a movement in the house called her attention, and the
following moment she was startled by seeing Mr. Roberts enter with a letter in
his hand.
“What
is the matter, Roberts?” said Isabella; “where is George?”
“My
master is just at hand madam,” returned Roberts. “I thought that you might have
orders to give; for he does not come alone.”
“What
worse have you to tell me?” said Isabella; “is Mr. Willoughby well?”
“Quite
so, I believe, madam,” said Mr. Roberts, giving the letter to Isabella. She
eagerly broke the seal, and read these words:
“My
dearest love! I trust you will do me the justice to believe that it is not my
fault that I have not more faithfully kept my engagement; nor that now, when I
shall be with you in an hour, that I shall bring a tribe of people with me,
whom you may not, just at present, be glad to see. For my sins (I suppose) I
fell in with a party of our friends, who have been lake-seeing; and they would
first drag me out of my way, and then would accompany me to Eagle’s Crag.
Dunstan, Lady Charlotte, and Sir Charles Seymour, are the only part of these
impertinents who will break in upon you at this unseasonable hour. After having
been living with them for so many weeks at Brighton, I could not but consent to
their vehemently-expressed desire that I would do them the honours of Eagle’s
Crag for a few days. I hope they will not stay longer, and then all the evil
will be the mal apropos moment of
their arrival, when I so much wished to have had you and my boy to myself. For
the rest, you will not, I dare say, be sorry, after your long retirement, to
see such intimate acquaintances and kind friends. Your favourite, that madcap
Burghley, will be with us to-morrow; I would not suffer him to come to-night;
but he will be a pleasant reinforcement to our party, when the bustle of the
first meeting is over.
Ever
yours, F.W.”
Quick
as the lightning’s flash, the perusal of this letter shewed Isabella the
strange and perilous situation in which she was placed. All that was dear to
her was at stake: her husband’s affections! her own dignity! How should she
preserve the one, without hazarding the other? To receive Lady Charlotte as a
friend would sully her sincerity: not to receive her as a welcome guest would
offend Mr. Willoughby, and betray a jealousy, which, however well founded, as
she could not doubt it to be, was a reproach to her husband, and a lessening of
herself. How should she, also, be able to still the angry feelings which she
felt arise in her bosom against this husband? who appeared to cajole her with
more than accustomed tenderness, only to make her a party to his more
creditable intercourse with the woman who wronged her.
All
these thoughts passed in less than an instant of time through Isabella’s mind:
but, strong in “the noble propriety of a pure heart, and a disciplined
understanding,” she took her part without hesitation.
“Let
every thing be done that the time will admit, to make your master’s reception
such as it used to be, when he brought guests to Eagle’s Crag,” said Isabella.
“Mr. Willoughby has some friends with him; you can give orders for the proper
lights, and every other particular, that will make the house look as he has
formerly seen it, when it was regularly inhabited; but I would not have any
thing appear like preparation; still less like magnificence; the household does
not admit of that; but let all be light and cheerful; and pray send Evans to
me. Mr. Willoughby says he will be here in an hour.” Oh, thought Isabella, how
different from the meeting that I had anticipated!
But
this was no time to give way to tenderness, or repining; all the powers of her
understanding, and all the exaltation of a highly moral sense, were scarcely
sufficient to uphold her in the height of conduct, on which she knew she could
alone look back with satisfaction, or even self-acquital.
She
communicated her wishes to Evans in the same tone which she had held to
Roberts; and found herself so well understood, that she could not doubt but
that the execution would be exact.
Having
thus provided that every thing external should do both herself and her husband
honour, she turned all her attention to the regulation of her thoughts and her
feelings. Whatever had been the first impulse of wounded pride and affection, a
little reflection had made her renounce the notion that there could be
premeditated unkindness, or vicious duplicity, even in a conduct which appeared
so regardless of what was due to her, and so inconsistent with what she had
been taught to expect. It was sufficiently painful to resolve her previous
disappointment, and her present embarrassment, into that careless indifference
which so frequently marked the actions of Mr. Willoughby, into his want of love
for her, rather than his passion for another. She felt that we are as
frequently duped by mistrust as by confidence; and she determined that, if she
were to be deceived, it should be with as little loss of her own ingenuity as
possible. If she were mistaken in trusting, at this suspicious moment, to the
kind affections of her husband, she was resolved not to be accessary to her own
degradation, by betraying any suspicion that she was degraded. To control the
workings of pride and resentment was not without its difficulty; but her
hardest task was to restrain the expression of her tenderness. To meet the man
who had for so many weeks made her nightly dream, and daily wish, with the cool
salutation due to an occasional separation of a few hours, was what seemed to
her almost an impossibility; but to betray, before such observers as Lady
Charlotte and Sir Charles Seymour, the signs of a passion which they must know
but too well was not reciprocal, was a rock on which, if she should strike, she
could almost have wished might sink her.
What
she should do, what she should say, how she should look, she settled over and
over; feeling at the same time that when the moment arrived, she should neither
do, nor say, nor look, any one thing that she had determined best to do, say,
or look.
The
violent beating of her heart, with which she was seized on hearing the ringing
of the bell of the outer court, persuaded her still more of the contemptible
figure that she was going to make; and she was ready to have taken refuge in
flight had not the conviction that if she abandoned herself at that moment, she
was undone for ever, wound up her spirits to the pitch of undergoing the
dreadful exigency, let it produce what it would.
An
exclamation of surprise and admiration, uttered by Lady Charlotte from the
hall, gave her some degree of courage; and the impatient inquiry of Mr.
Willoughby where he should find her, restored all her presence of mind.
“I am
here, my dear Mr. Willoughby! I am here,” said she, advancing to meet them,
“and most heartily rejoiced to see you.”
“That
is, I think, more than any of us deserve,” said he, kindly saluting her. “I
have used you most abominably; but I know you will forgive me.”
“Yes,
my dear Isabella,” said Lady Charlotte, “you must forgive us all; for we have
come upon you in a strange way, and at such an undue hour too! but it is all
the fault of that husband of yours. I thought it a shame to take you so unawares;
and such a multitude as we are! I would not have come till to-morrow.”
“Then
I am more obliged to Mr. Willoughby than to you,” said Isabella
good-humouredly; “and since you have traversed our rugged roads safely, I
cannot but rejoice that there were not more hours of expectation added to those
I have been in for so many days!”
“At
least,” said Mr. Willoughby, casting no very kind eye on Lady Charlotte; “the
disappointment of that expectation was not
my fault.”
“No, indeed was it not!” said Lady
Charlotte. “My dear Mrs. Willoughby, I do not know what this lord and master of
yours meant by all the pains that he took to shut his doors against us; but if
we had believed him, we might have fancied that these old walls would have
fallen on our heads, or that we should have caught our death from the bad air
that we must have breathed within them. But Sir Charles had reconnoitred the
outside of the fortress some weeks ago, and he assured us of its solidity; and
I was resolved to penetrate into the recesses of its extremest interior, that,
if I had found you at the bottom of some damp dungeon, I might have run away
with you into light and air, and left your graceless husband in your place.”
It
could not surprise Isabella that the effrontery which had carried Lady
Charlotte through her almost forcible entry into Eagle’s Crag, should shew
itself in this continued assumption of protecting familiarity which had so long
been offensive to her; but, as she was resolved for the future to put an entire
end to it, she made no return whatever to this sally of Lady Charlotte’s; only
civilly inquiring whether she would not wish for some refreshment, in
preference to waiting for supper, which she said she had ordered, as supposing
that as travellers they might be hungry.
“You
do not then always go supperless to bed?” said Sir Charles, in allusion to her
former refusal of partaking of the supper which he had provided for her when
they had met on the road; a refusal which he had by no means forgotten or
forgiven.
“At
least,” returned Isabella, “I do not desire my friends to do so; and the
hospitality of Westmoreland knows nothing of striking off one meal out of
four.”
“Isabella,”
said Mr. Willoughby, starting from a reverie into which he had fallen, “where
can I find my boy?”
“I
will take you to him,” said Isabella.
“And
pray let somebody take me to my room,” said Lady Charlotte; “I must get rid of
this odious bonnet; it had made my head ache all day.”
Isabella
offered to be Lady Charlotte’s conductor, and said that she would return and
accompany Mr. Willoughby.
“Only
tell me where I can find the child,” said he, “ and you may come to me there.”
“You
will find him,” said Isabella, “in the room which you inhabited for so many of
the first years of your life.”
“And
do you occupy the adjoining apartment?” asked Mr. Willoughby.
Isabella
replied in the affirmative; and Mr. Willoughby left the room without making any
reply. Isabella also stood silent for an instant, before she could sufficiently
recollect herself to renew her offer of accompanying Lady Charlotte. She had
seen but too plainly, in the very short time that had passed, that Mr.
Willoughby was no longer the happy man that he had declared himself in his
letters to be; and there was something so incomprehensible in the circumstances
in which she seemed to stand with him, as filled her with sadness and dread.
Lady Charlotte did not seem to feel either. Linking her arm into Isabella’s,
“My dear coz,” said she, “I really had no notion that you were the lady of so
magnificent a castle. Everything I see absolutely fills me with astonishment
and delight. But have you not found it insupportably triste to be here so long alone? What could induce Mr. Willoughby
to allow you to be so?”
“A
compliance with my wishes,” said Isabella, with a steady voice; and withdrawing
at the same time her arm from Lady Charlotte’s, she opened a door.
“I
hope,” said she, “you will find everything you wish for. Your maid, I see, is
here. You will excuse me if I now go to Mr. Willoughby.”
And
the effort here was at an end. Isabella turned quickly into the next chamber,
and, throwing herself into a chair, burst into a flood of tears.
Why
she wept she could hardly have been able to have told; but she thought if it
had not been for this relief her heart must have burst. The indulgence could
not be long; but, as she passed from the room she was in, she caught a glimpse
of herself in a looking-glass, and found such marks of her recent emotion as
made it impossible that she should immediately rejoin Mr. Willoughby; and when
she sought him in the nursery he was gone. Isabella could again have cried;
and, lest the sight of her baby should make it impossible to restrain her
tears, she did not trust herself with a single glance, but ran down stairs as
if she had fled from some pursuing danger. Taking breath a moment before she
entered the library, she felt a fresh mortification when she found therein only
Sir Charles and Mr. Dunstan.
She
had till this moment scarcely been aware of the presence of the latter; but she
now found a relief in appearing to listen to his laboured panegyric upon all
that was around him, from the conversation of Sir Charles, with whom, since
their last interview, she had resolved to have as little communication as
possible. Mr. Dunstan had not yet done protesting that not his friend the Duke
of ——’s seat in this county, not the princely habitation of the Earl of ——,
where he had passed so many happy days in the other, were to be compared to
Eagle’s Crag, when Mr. Willoughby and Lady Charlotte returned at the same
moment, which, although they entered at several doors, gave such an air of
correspondence between them as made Isabella blush; and she blushed the deeper
on perceiving the eye of Sir Charles fixed on her, with a look, as she thought,
expressive at once of anger at the offending parties, and compassion for her.
But a moment afterwards she hated herself, and felt indignant with Sir Charles,
for a suspicion which she abandoned as wholly unfounded.
Mr.
Willoughby approaching her, drew her gently aside; and said with a voice of
great emotion, “our dear boy is an angel! I long to fold you in my arms, and
thank you for your care of him. I could
not wait for you; I never enter this place but with emotions that quite
unman me. I should either have been a more worthy successor of its last revered
inmates, or less sensible of the follies which have made me unfit to succeed
them; you, dearest Isabella, must be my redeeming angel! how I wish that we
could have met without so many eyes upon us. Roberts has been talking to me of
you; you at least may tread these
floors proudly; I wish you may be able to teach me to tread them happily.”
Isabella
tenderly pressed the hand which still held hers, “doubt it not!” was all she
said, or could say; another word, and she must have betrayed the agitation of
her heart and spirits. A summons to supper compelled her to turn from Mr.
Willoughby, and to accompany her guests to an adjoining apartment.
Isabella
saw with a glance of her eye, how well her intentions had been understood both
by Roberts and Evans. All was light, order, and comfort; but nothing that
indicated that the sudden arrival of so many unexpected guests had occasioned
either hurry, or had brought forth any appearance beyond that of the ordinary
mode of living; she could scarcely, however, repress a smile when she saw an
unliveried attendant at the side board, who made no part of her household, but
whom she immediately recognized as a nephew of Mr. Roberts, who in the
life-time of Mr. Willoughby’s father had filled the station, which it seemed,
from the propriety and habitual ease with which he now performed the office, he
could never have quitted.
But
Isabella had little leisure for such observations as these; —there was a
something in the scene before her that interested every feeling of her heart.
Instead of the careless hilarity of new assembled friends, the party around her
seemed each to be engaged in some cogitation of their own, and as although they
forgot that any other but themselves were present.
Lady
Charlotte’s eye was roving from object to object, with a scrutinizing
expression, as if to discover something that it was designed should not appear.
Sir Charles, with a contracted brow, devoured in silence the viands that he
scarcely seemed to know that he was eating. Mr. Willoughby was evidently
struggling with an emotion that made him incapable of attending to any thing
else. Mr. Dunstan alone seemed to be alive to what was before him; but, having
declared “that he never was so hungry in his life,” it was only what the table
or the sideboard could furnish that appeared to have any attraction for him.
Isabella
construed all this in a sense the most gratifying to her wishes. In the evident
chagrin of Lady Charlotte she read disappointment; in the abstraction of Sir
Charles she thought she detected a fear of the frustration of some nefarious
design; and in the acute feeling betrayed by Mr. Willoughby, a feeling which
she had scarcely dared to hope made any part of his character, she beheld the
means by which he might be recalled to the paths of virtue and of happiness. At
this moment she could not but be sensible of the superiority that she derived
from the integrity of her heart, and the rectitude of her purposes. She could
look backward without self reproach;
and forward with a prayer that all her designs might prosper! She, who but a
few hours before had feared that she might be humbled to the dust by the
unrighteous triumph of her oppressors, was now the only one who could carry
herself erect in their presence, and hers the only eye that could look steadily
in the face of those who surrounded her!
Eager
to break up the gloom and strangeness of the scene, she seized the instant of
Mr. Dunstan’s animated panegyric on the superexcellence of the wine which he
was so plentifully drinking, to throw herself at once into conversation with a
vivacity which compelled every one to follow her lead. It could not have been
believed that she had been the Recluse of Eagle’s Crag for four months, or that
her spirits had been depressed by mortification, or her heart wounded by
neglect. So powerful was the impulse, that her desire to rise above her guests
in the estimation of her husband, gave to the natural resources of her
intellect: an impulse which gained strength every moment by the effect which
she saw was produced both on Lady Charlotte and Mr. Willoughby; the one looked
on her with a delighted surprise, and the other said, with a tone of raillery
which ill disguised the envy she felt,
“Pray,
my dear Mrs. Willoughby, what Westmoreland Helicon have you drank, that has
converted your London taciturnity into such flowing eloquence?”
“The
Helicon of health and happiness,” said Isabella, with a timid glance cast
towards Mr. Willoughby. And such was her anticipation of the new era of her
life, which she believed to be opening upon her, that Isabella at this moment
felt a lightness of heart and spirit which but the hour before she would have
denied would ever have been her lot.
“I
say the Helicon of innocence and good humour,” said Mr. Willoughby.
“Of
talent and hospitality,” said Sir Charles.
“Of
self-possession and triumph,” said Lady Charlotte.
Mr.
Dunstan said nothing; for Isabella not having partaken of his only conceivable
source of inspiration, he knew not to what to impute the hilarity on which her
friends complimented her, and he was therefore content to acquiesce in the
fact, without attempting to assign a cause.
“Softly,
softly, my good friends,” said Isabella; “lest I suspect that you think me so
completely rusticated, as even to have forgotten the cajoleries of society.”
“But
is it really literally the case,” said Lady Charlotte, “that you have moved the
sole and silent inhabitant of this stately mansion? have you never conversed
with a single human being?”
“Not
literally,” replied Isabella; “but, with one exception, I believe I might say
yes, in your sense of the words.”
“And
that exception,” said Mr. Willoughby, “is Mr. Parr.”
“Parr!”
said Sir Charles, starting; “what Parr?”
“The
country people,” said Isabella, laughing, “call him Queen Catherine’s cousin;
and if superior excellence is a regal stamp, he may well maintain
the relationship.”
“I
hope this paragon of yours is at least fourscore years old!” said Mr.
Willoughby.
“Not
quite,” replied Isabella; “but as he was the friend of this house nearly half
that time ago, I hope you will not be very jealous.”
“I
have certainly a remembrance of the person of whom you speak,” said Mr.
Willoughby. “My father,” added he, with a sigh, “had a friend of that name,
whom he used to tell me that he wished me to resemble more than any other
person whom he knew. I shall be glad to renew my acquaintance with my
prototype.”
“That
wish,” said Lady Charlotte, with a kind of malicious gaiety, “like most other
parental prayers, has been scattered by the winds, if Mrs. Willoughby reads
aright the character of this miraculous Mr. Parr.”
“Not
for any want of excellence,” said Isabella, with quickness, “although the merit
may be of a different kind.”
Mr.
Willoughby coloured with pleasure and gratitude; and perhaps from a little
self-reproach, and the warmth with which Isabella spoke.
“Thank
you, thank you, Isabella,” said he, kindly. “I would rather that you should
give my character than that Lady Charlotte should.”
“Who
doubts it?” said Lady Charlotte. “Which of us ever desired to sit to a faithful
portrait taker?”
“Caricatures
are not faithful portraits,” said Isabella. “With a few strokes I can give you
something that shall resemble a man, but that is not the true representation of
the human figure. See,” said she, exemplifying what she said by a few scratches
with a pencil on the back of a letter, “this is satire;—look there,”
pointing to an excellently painted portrait, “that is truth.”
“The
whole human race should make its bow to you, my dear Mrs. Willoughby,” said Sir
Charles.
“But
positively,” said Lady Charlotte, “whether he is a Methusalem, or a Joseph, I
should like to see this wonderful personage. We could then better know how to
estimate the penance that our dear Mrs. Willoughby has undergone since she has
been dismissed from the world of human creatures, with a go in peace,
and shut up between four stone walls. Will not the monster come out of his den
at your bidding?”
“No!”
said Isabella, “nor at the bidding of any other person.”
“Oh!
pray let him stay and growl there,” said Sir Charles. “This can be no Parr that
I ever knew,” added he, as if rebutting an imputation.
“This
is rather rough badinage,” said Mr. Willoughby, “considering that you are
speaking of Mrs. Willoughby’s friend, and of the man who had been the
hereditary friend of this house; and is not likely to induce Isabella to try to
bring Mr. Parr amongst us.”
“We
shall probably have no loss,” said Lady Charlotte, who now began evidently to
be out of temper; “his talents of charming are most likely confined to a tęte-ŕ-tęte.”
“I
have never seen Mr. Parr tęte-ŕ-tęte,” said Isabella, with dignity.
“Oh!”
said Lady Charlotte, with a tone of triumphant discovery, “how the clouds break
up! the solitude of Eagle’s Crag is the solitude of select society.”
“The
society of Mr. Parr and his daughter,” said Isabella.
“His
daughter!” cried Sir Charles eagerly, “is she young? is she handsome? is she
beautiful?”
“I
have succeeded so ill in the panegyric of one of my friends,” replied Isabella,
“that I shall be careful how I speak for the other.”
“I am
abominably tired!” said Lady Charlotte, affecting to stifle a yawn which was
not there.
“You
would like to retire?” said Isabella.
“Indeed
I shall be glad, I have a horrible head ache.”
The
bell was rung, the lights were distributed, and this ill-assorted assembly
broke up.
The
first thing that Isabella did in the morning, was to write the following letter
to Mr. Parr:
“Rejoice
with me, my dear friends! Mr. Willoughby arrived last night; he had been
delayed by unexpectedly falling in with some of his acquaintance, who have been
amusing themselves with visiting the northern lakes and mountains: they have
not thought Eagle’s Crag unworthy of their notice. I suppose they will stay
with us a few days. Mr. Willoughby is so happy as to have a very just
remembrance of you, my dear sir; he desires me to say that nothing could give
him more pleasure than that you and dear Catherine would favour us with your
company. Your usual apartments are at your disposal. Mr. Willoughby would in
person have preferred this request, but that he is particularly engaged this
morning, and he is not willing to lose a day of your company, if you will be so
kind as to give it us.
“You
cannot doubt, my dear sir, how happy I should be to introduce to Mr.
Willoughby, the only source of pleasure that I have possessed in his absence,
but I think it fair to tell you whom you will meet.
“Mr.
Dunstan and Lady Charlotte, and Sir Charles Seymour, are already with us; and I
understand that two or three more gentlemen are to join our party to day ; the
one whom I best know is Mr. Burghley, Lord Burghley’s nephew, and a playfellow
of mine in former days; and who will be the playfellow of somebody all his life-time; for he is almost as
much a school-boy as when he used to come from Westminster to dine with us on a
Sunday. You would like him; he has no evil in him, and a great deal of good, is
very acute, and very good-humoured.
“Yours very sincerely,
“ISABELLA WILLOUGHBY.”
Mr. Parr returned the
following answer:
“My dear Madam,
“Catherine and I do most
sincerely congratulate you on the arrival of Mr. Willoughby.
“I should not have deferred
an hour waiting upon him, accompanied by my daughter, if I had not imperative
reasons not to come to Eagle’s Crag at present. I am sure, my dear Mrs.
Willoughby, you will give me credit for the weight and truth of these reasons,
although I feel myself obliged not to explain them. Be so kind as to use your
influence with Mr. Willoughby, that he may extend to me the same degree of
confidence.
“Accept, my dear Mrs.
Willoughby, of the united prayers of myself and Catherine, for every blessing
for yourself and Mr. Willoughby, which I know that your virtues so well
deserve, and which must naturally wait on those that I cannot but believe must
be hereditary in Mr. Willoughby.
“I am, my dear madam, with
the truest esteem and respect, most sincerely yours,
EDWARD
PARR.”
This
letter confirmed a suspicion which had found its way into Isabella’s mind. When
Mr. Willoughby read it a thought crossed his mind also, which moved his spleen
and clouded his brow.
“After
all,” said he, “Isabella, I suspect that this favourite of yours, is at best a
misanthrope, who thinks he is virtuous when he condemns those failings in
others, to which he has outlived the temptation in himself.”
“Let
my influence at least so far prevail,” said Isabella, mildly, “as to
induce you to suspend your judgment. If you cannot give Mr. Parr credit for the
virtues which he really does possess, do not charge him with vices that you
have no evidence to establish.”
“Why?
what but misanthropy, or worse, can make him refuse to visit me, when he
has, as it were, been living with you?” said Mr. Willoughby.
“He
does not refuse to visit you,” said Isabella; “and as for his reasons, I
will engage for him, that they are such as would do him honour.”
“And
you know those reasons? at least can so nearly guess them, that it is next to
knowledge?” said Mr. Willoughby.
“No,
on my word!” said Isabella.
“And
you are sure, that he has never insinuated into your mind any suspicion
of —— .” He stopped, feeling that he was touching too tender a string.
“Of
no human creature upon earth!” said Isabella, firmly and eagerly. “My dear Mr.
Willoughby I do not know to what you allude. I will not even think of what you
might intend to say; but believe me, that Mr. Parr is as incapable of
attempting to poison my mind with injurious suspicions of any one, as I should
be of entertaining them upon any evidence short of proof.”
“My
dearest Isabella, I do believe it,” said Mr. Willoughby; “and I ought to be
ashamed of having doubted your candour for a moment. But when the breast is
troubled, it does not reflect objects truly!” added he, with a sigh, and
turning from her.
The
nature of Mr. Willoughby’s suspicion could not escape the penetration of
Isabella, and it made her doubt the truth of her own; but, be the cause what it
would, the fact was the same. There was something in the party at Eagle’s Crag,
as it was at present constituted, from which Mr. Parr was resolved to keep
aloof both himself and his daughter; and this conviction gave Isabella ground
for many uneasy reflections.
CHAP.
XXXI.
“Women!
Their faces are th’ entrenched
beauties of
The world in one, which
Nature made in scoff
Of all else
excellencies!—but therein
Shelter’d more treason than
the world had sin:
For well she knew those ills
that would betide them,
Would shew them too foul,
without a veil to hide
them:
So that men might be lur’d,
and not descry,
In angel’s shape, she clad
black misery.”
FELTHAM.
THIS
party, wholly unconscious, as it should seem, that they were fit objects either
of censure or suspicion, met at breakfast in all the sunshine of hilarity and
good humour.
Lady
Charlotte had no occasion for a headache, as the veil of ill-temper; the shade
that had obscured the brow of Mr. Willoughby on the perusal of Mr. Parr’s
letter had disappeared; and Isabella thought that she had never seen Sir Charles
Seymour half so amiable; and Mr. Dunstan talked on, not discouraged, although
unheeded, of “the astonishing fashionable lounge that his house was at
Brighton;” and of the number of fine people, and fine places, that he and Lady
Charlotte had visited since they left it. It seemed to be Lady Charlotte’s
point to establish that she and Isabella were friends, and that they always had
been so. She recounted twenty youthful scrapes and frolics that she asserted
they had been engaged in together; and by the particularity of the
circumstances that she narrated, and her undaunted appeals to Isabella for the
confirmation of all she said, she could not fail to fix the fullest conviction
on the minds of all that heard her, Isabella’s alone excepted, that she was uttering
nothing but the simplest truth: thus trusting the success of her own effrontery
to the modesty of another, who could not endure to put her to the blush by
exposing her falsehood.
Isabella
was not unacquainted with this part of the factitious and artful character of
Lady Charlotte, and she had often suffered from it in the course of their
intercourse; the only matter of surprise, therefore, that this exhibition of it
occasioned her, was what could be the present motive for it. She saw, indeed,
that Mr. Willoughby listened to all these idle, but well told tales, with a
marked pleasure, as although he could wish nothing so much as to persuade
himself that there was a conformity of sentiment and feeling between the two
ladies, which he had not before been aware of ; but at length observing that all the histories
originated with Lady Charlotte, and that they met no farther confirmation from
Isabella, than the not denying them amounted to, he said,
“How
comes it, Isabella, that Lady Charlotte has so much better a memory than you?
the days of your youth are not so far distant, but that you might remember all
that happened as well as Lady Charlotte?”
“Oh,
and so she does!” replied Lady Charlotte; “but don’t you know that Isabella has
become wise ever since those blue stocking evenings, when she astonished all
the world? besides, she is matron-like, and sententious; now, I shall never be
wise, or matron-like, or sententious, nor any thing else but what my feelings
make me.”
“And
yet at this moment,” said Isabella, “you trust rather to my feelings, than to
your own.”
“There!
did I not tell you so?” retorted Lady Charlotte, “not only sententious, but
oracular! well, I will try if I cannot be wise too; and my first lecture shall
be taken this morning, and my dear Mrs. Willoughby shall be my preceptress; I
am resolved to have her all to myself. I have a thousand things to say to her,
so you gentlemen may dispose of yourselves as you think fit. I am resolved that
Isabella shall go out in my little carriage. It will be quite a treat to you,
my dear; you have been so long without a carriage, and you will so delight to
shew me the lions of this princely domain.”
“I
will attend you, in whatever way you please,” said Isabella; “but I shall make
a sacrifice of my inclination by exchanging my beautiful sure-footed pony for
any carriage whatever; and it must be a very diminutive one indeed, that will
not exclude you from the best part of the beauties and peculiarities of our
glens, fells, and tearns.
“Glens!
fells! and tearns!” repeated Lady Charlotte, “why, my little northern lassie,
what kind of language do you mean to speak when you return to the streets and
squares of civilized life?”
“Just
the language that I speak now,” said Isabella; “the language of truth.”
The two
ladies prosecuted Lady Charlotte’s plan; and Isabella found herself in the
novel situation, not only of a tęte-ŕ-tęte with Lady Charlotte, but
treated by her in a manner as if, through the whole course of their lives,
there had subsisted between them the familiarity and affection which naturally
belonged to their acquaintance and relationship. Isabella could not but
remember how very much the case had been otherwise; nor was she inclined
suddenly to forget the past, when the least injurious cause to which even her
candour could ascribe the change in Lady Charlotte, was a belief, that it arose
from a desire to establish herself at Eagle’s Crag till the return of the town
season.
But
Isabella could not but be civil and obliging; because she was naturally good-tempered,
and habitually well bred. She therefore did “seriously incline,” to exhibit to
Lady Charlotte all the romantic spots, and sequestered beauties; all the
cataracts and mountain steeps of the noted scenes through which they passed;
with a reservation however of Fell-beck, from which she resolved most firmly to
keep aloof.
But
she soon found that Lady Charlotte had little attention for all that she
attempted to shew her; and that it was something more than a form of speech
when she had said “that she was resolved to have her all to herself, for that
she had a thousand things to say to her.”
“All
this,” said she, in reply to Isabella’s calling her observation to the objects
around them, “is very magnificent and very sublime—and very terrific; but I
have really seen towering mountains and roaring torrents till I am sick of
them. I would prefer the little delicious half acre in Grosvenor-square, with
all its trim gravel paths, and its tiny shrubbery, to all the tremendous inequalities by
which we are surrounded; and I can assure you, if I had no other motive for
continuing in this neck-breaking country, but a passion for its beauties, I
should by this time have been far on my way to smoothly shaven lawns, and
civilized animalcula.”
What
can this be meant to lead to? thought Isabella. She knew Lady Charlotte’s maxim
of daring to avow all that she dared to do; but it cannot be, thought she, that
she means to brave me to my face, and to make me the confident either of my
husband’s passion for her, or of her’s for him.
Isabella
sat in painful silence, resolved, that if the blow must come, it should force
its way through all the impediments that she could oppose to it.
She
attempted somewhat of a diversion, by calling to the servant to make some
inquiry about the road.
“Oh,
never mind what road we take,” said Lady Charlotte, “provided they don’t
overturn us, and I can have my tęte-ŕ- tęte out with you. I told you I
had a thousand things to say to you; and though perhaps I might not be very
accurate in my enumeration, my discourse shall make up in weight what it falls
short of in numbers.”
“Just
now,” returned Isabella, “I think I should prefer tale to weight: remember how
long I have been out of the way of hearing any thing but the sound of the
water-fall, or the spirit of the mountain; and rather give me what will amuse
me, than any thing that will call for wisdom to comment upon.”
“Bless
me, my dear,” replied Lady Charlotte, “I should almost suspect that you
anticipate what I have to say; you seem so much afraid to hear it.”
“Then
why say it at all?” said Isabella.
“Because,
my dear, I love you: because I am interested for you: and because, although the
evil may be great, it may not, if taken in time, be irretrievable! and I know
nobody so proper as myself to put you on your guard, and point out what is best
to be done.”
Isabella
was tempted to jump out of the carriage; but Lady Charlotte, as if fearing that
she might meditate such an escape from the insidious communication which she
purposed, laid her hand forcibly on her arm, exclaiming, “Oh Isabella, how
little do we know what we ought to wish for!—how little do we know what is good
for us! — who would have believed that a marriage such as yours, the
mortification of all who envied you, and the triumph of all who loved you,
should in one short twelve-months, be fraught with ruin to yourself and
offspring!”
Isabella
could not now move, or speak; but she turned her eyes on Lady Charlotte with
such a look of deprecation, as must have moved any one less stony-hearted than
her present tormentor, to have recoiled from her purpose.
“I
cannot believe,” continued Lady Charlotte, “that you can be wholly ignorant as
to what I allude; but having buried yourself alive so long, and Willoughby not
being one of those husbands who think it their duty to make a confession of
their sins to their wives, you cannot be aware to what extent the evil has
proceeded; nor how necessary it is that you should interfere to put a stop to
it.”
“Lady
Charlotte,” said Isabella, with an unmoved countenance, and with a steady
voice, the sound of which even surprised herself, “I hear no accusations
against my husband, of what nature soever they may be. I will rely upon the
integrity and affection of Mr. Willoughby against the suspicions or
insinuations of any person breathing.”
“My
dear child,” said Lady Charlotte, “this is no time to play Madam La
Governante’s sentiments upon me. Lay aside these heroics; they have misled you
far enough already, and let us talk common sense; you and I know the world
pretty well. Would you not laugh at your good cousin if she were to tell you
with a grave face that she relied on the integrity and affections of Lord
Western? and why should you and I be exempted from the common lot? Heaven
preserve me from the folly of maintaining the impeccability of my august
spouse. Although I must do him the justice to say that his sins are not of the
same nature as those that beset your spotless sovereign. The plain truth is,
that Willoughby has fallen into the most ruinous of all absurdities, as I have
but too many family reasons to call it. How fallen I do not know; for I
do believe that with him, it was not an original sin; and this gives me more
hope of cure, which good counsel and good friends may effect, of both which you
may avail yourself, if like a forward child, you do not dash the cup of health
from your mouth. I saw a little of this several months ago, and would have
warned you then, but — pardon me, my dear Isabella,—like the rest of us
perhaps, matrimony had put you upon your stilts, and it was no time for me to
act upon our former familiarity; and there might be something of the same
intoxication on my part — I am sure I make no claim to more temperance than my
neighbours; but of course we are both pretty well sobered by this time, and the
best thing that we can do, is to assist each other in bearing the burthens of
life as well as we can, and in finding out as many indemnifications for its
disappointments as our ingenuity can suggest. No body’s wine is clear to the
bottom. I would have warned you I say; I did not, because, it may be, I
was thinking just then more of myself than of you; but I do assure you that for
many weeks I have thought more of you than myself.
“Perhaps
you don’t know that Willoughby has been living a great deal with us at
Brighton. I know he is an idle correspondent; there I could not but see how he
was going on. I remonstrated; I scolded; I called in the aid of Sir Charles
Seymour, than whom I can assure you, my dear, you have not a more disinterested
friend in the world, and he never plays. You know I have odd fancies, and I
have thought if Lady Jane had not been in such a hurry to clap up your marriage
with Willoughby, for whom I am persuaded that you did not care a pin when you
married him, that you might have been the happy wife of Sir Charles Seymourľhush,
hush! my dear; none of your moral disclaimingsľnone of your virtuous
indignation, I beg; let my fancies pass; they are but fancies. We were
talking of the incorrigibility of the man whom you do call your husband
— whether an attentive, a faithful, husband you know best; but he
is your husband, and the father of your child; and for both your sakes I
would have saved him if I could; but all in vain: there were too many of our
society that tempted him to sin; and the ruin went on with such gigantic
strides, that I really trembled even for the walls of yon stately mansion; I
saw but one thing to do: I broke up our establishment all of a sudden. It is
true that nothing could be more agreeable than the life I was living at
Brighton, if it had not been for the folly of Willoughby in more shapes than
one: but the thought of the evil that he was bringing upon you, poisoned
every pleasure. I believe he thought me one of the most capricious of mortals,
when I told him one day that he had had his last dinner with us, and when he
found that I was really off the next morning. But I did not care what he
thought. I knew that Sir Charles would make use of this sudden check to his
usual habits to turn his thoughts to what he ought to have been thinking of
long before, rejoining you, my dear; and our little plot succeeded. We soon
heard that he had sold Beechwood. There, my dear, was one limb of your grandeur
lopped off, yet it was a measure of the most imperative necessity, and which
averted all immediate causes for apprehension; and we heard next, that he was
actually set off for Eagle’s Crag—to fix him there became my point. But I must
not arrogate all the merit of what I have done to myself. I will candidly
confess that I have acted by the advice both of your mother and my own. I had
communicated my uneasiness on your account to my mother; she made it quite a
family affair, and consulted with yours what could be done. They have agreed
that nothing but a residence in Westmoreland for a few years will retrieve
matters; and they, dear excellent people as they are! “could not but hope,”
“could not but believe,” that “his regard for you and his boy,” his “good
sense,” “his reason,” and “his duty,” would make him adopt this plan with the
most facile readiness. But, without assuming any very wonderful sagacity to
myself, I confess I did a little laugh at their ignorance of human nature.
Perhaps it was only a façon de parler, in their character of Elders;
for both Lady Jane and Lady Stanton do know that part of human nature
which walks about in the world; and cannot in their hearts have much more value
than I have for the simple fare called “good sense,” or “reason,” or the
“duty,” of any man without a garnish of pleasure: and I thought that when he
returned to you, out of spirits, as must be the case, to a dreary neglected
residence — for I had been strangely misled to believe that this place, which I
find so stately and magnificent, was almost wholly dilapidated, and unfurnished
— he would think of nothing but running away again, and leaving you behind him;
and perhaps return to some of his old haunts; where finding them ready swept
and garnished, he might take to him seven other spirits more wicked than
himself, so that his last state might be worse than his first.
“Now, my dear, I could see no means
so likely to prevent his retrogression, as to make his present home agreeable
to him; to set him out in it well; and to give him an experience to refer to of
the pleasures it could afford him. Some of this store of wisdom I imparted to
my two sage coadjutrixes, and they suggested that I could not do better than to
throw myself in the way of Willoughby, on his road into Westmoreland, and under
pretence of wanting to see his place, for which I did not care a farthing but
for you, my dear; or to see you, which was natural enough; or any other
nonsense I could think of; to fasten ourselves upon him, with a few other
agreeable people for a little time, just to break the first gloom of his
return, and to make him feel that there are pleasures in society apart from
that odious excitation which depends upon a card. The first step you know is
all—and I am charmed to find, from the state of your habitation, and every
thing around it, that we shall have an ally in our praise-worthy purpose that I
had not reckoned upon. Willoughby is not so free from vanity (I may say that, I hope, without offence),
but that he must be charmed to exhibit such a princely domain as this is, to
some of those who perhaps think him a ruined man; and really, my dear, when I
see the dignified order by which you are surrounded, and the unhurried
accommodation that awaits your guests, I cannot but suppose that Willoughby has
more resources than I was aware of; and that nothing is wanting to the success
of our little plan, but that you should lend yourself, with gaiety and
good-humour, to the circumstances of the present hour; give life and soul to
the society that we have collected for you, and enter into communication with
your neighbours; many of whom I know would have visited you long ago, but that
they understood that you did not wish to see any body; at least so they have
told me; but perhaps the truth may be, (for heaven knows we are all selfish
creatures!) the not being willing to take long drives merely to see a recluse
wife, who could not be supposed to have much to offer them in the way of
amusement. But the case will be now quite different, and you have but to let
the voice of rumour go forth, that you and Mr. Willoughby shall be glad to see
your friends; and the courts of Eagle’s Crag will be no longer solitary.
“All
this, my dear, I have thought it right to state to you fully and candidly, that
there might be no mistaking of motives, or conjectures as to how? and why? and
for how long? and such questions. Here I am at your service for as much time as
you may wish to have me; and if you will but steadily follow my plan, I will
engage for it, that before the winter is over, Willoughby will be quite an altered
person, and in the right way to retrieve, perhaps, all that he has lost?”
Lady
Charlotte paused: for what more could she say to an auditor who seemed
determined not to interrupt her, or to give her occasion, by seeming to doubt
its truth, to prove any thing that she had asserted?
After
a moment’s silence, as if to ascertain whether she had any more to hear,
Isabella said:
“Lady
Charlotte, I have listened to all that you have thought proper to say to me,
and I have no other reply to make, but, that I beg you to believe, that as you
confess yourself to have been misinformed as to the state of Mr. Willoughby’s
property in this part of the world, that you may very probably be equally in an
error in the conclusions that you have drawn as to his circumstances in other
particulars.” Then, speaking to the servant, “Go home,” said she.
It is
impossible to describe the concentrated rage that filled the heart of Lady
Charlotte at the calm contempt with which Isabella had received all her
professions of kindness, her information, her claims to sagacity, her advice,
and offers of alliance. It was completely evident that she gave not the
smallest credit to any thing that she had heard.
No
human being had less command over her passions than had Lady Charlotte; even
the powerful spring which but the moment before had actuated her hypocrisy, was
scarcely strong enough to resist the impulse given by rage, to throw off all
disguise, and to defy Isabella in open terms. Her eyes sparkled with fury: she
clasped her fingers to the palm of her hand, relaxed them, again clasped them
with an energy which hurt her, and again unclosed them, before she could regain
command enough of herself to speak in terms of common civility, and it was
hardly thus that she did speak.
“Isabella,
you make me mad! will you be a child and a dupe all your life-time? or do you
fancy that you can dupe me? but let me tell you—
“No,”
said Isabella, gently interrupting her, “pray let me tell you, — you say that
you believe that you have done your duty in giving me the advice and
information that you have done; permit me to do what I believe to be mine, as
to the manner in which I receive what you have said.”
“Yes,
yes!” replied Lady Charlotte, vehemently, “go on in your fancied security and
wisdom, till ruin engulphs you, your child, your husband! you will not have to
reproach me that I did not warn you. I would have saved you.”
“I am
warned; I trust I shall be saved,” said Isabella; and still her voice was
unbroken, and her countenance unchanged: but the effort that she had made to
preserve her composure, had nearly overcome her; and she felt that a few
minutes longer continuance in her present torture, and she could endure no
more. Happily at this critical instant, a sharp turning in the road, brought them of a sudden
almost into contact with Sir Charles Seymour, Mr. Dunstan, and Mr. Willoughby,
who were pursuing their morning amusement.
“Stop,
stop!” cried Lady Charlotte, impatiently, “let me get out, I am tired of the
carriage, I will walk” — and, instantly banishing from her countenance every
trace of her late rage, “Oh,” cried she, in a kind of good humoured mockery,
“Oh, the horrors of a female tęte-ŕ-tęte!
I have wearied poor Isabella to death; and, to say the truth, she has not been
unrevenged. Here, here, Sir Charles, take my seat, while I trudge homewards
with caro sposo, and Willoughby.”
“I
think,” said Isabella, jumping out of the carriage, “I can equal most of you in
walking; so, if you please, we will dismiss the servants, and proceed all
together.”
“No,
no!” said Sir Charles, “do have some pity on me; I have no dread of a tęte-ŕ-tęte; and I long to explore that
delicious dell that lies to the left; and who will be able to shew me its
beauties half so well as you?”
And
at the same time he attempted to draw her gently towards the little carriage,
and to prevail with her to resume her place in it.
“What
a contre temps!” cried Mr. Dunstan,
pettishly, “here’s our whole plan for the morning broken up. I thought, ladies,
that you were quite dedicated to yourselves for the whole morning; prithee,
Willoughby, lay your commands on Mrs. Willoughby to get into the carriage
again; and I shall take the liberty of requesting Lady Charlotte not to suffer
her caprice thus to put us all to the route.”
“I
never do lay my commands on Mrs. Willoughby,” returned Mr. Willoughby, looking
kindly on Isabella; “it has not been my way; first, I believe from my hatred to
all restraint myself; and now, because I suspect, if either of us were to
command, she would be the better ruler of the two.”
The
thrill of grateful rapture that ran through every vein of Isabella’s heart, on
hearing these words, was nearly as destructive of the equanimity of her
demeanour, as had been the fiendish attacks which Lady Charlotte had made upon
her feelings so little time before. Sliding her arm gently beneath Mr.
Willoughby’s, at once to steady her steps, and to indulge her fondness; she
said, as she tenderly pressed the arm she held, “thank you, thank you! but it
is a shame thus to interrupt what you were about to do; shall I get into the
carriage again, and endeavour to persuade Lady Charlotte to do so too? the
penance to her cannot be long; we are not half a quarter of a mile from the
house?”
Mr.
Willoughby’s answer was interrupted by an angry squabble between Lady Charlotte
and Mr. Dunstan.
“There’s
nothing on earth so absurd as you are,” said Mr. Dunstan.
“Gently,
gently, Dunstan!” cried Mr. Willoughby; “we will have you tossed in a blanket
for a discourteous knight, if you go on at that rate. What can we do less, and
what can we do that we shall like better, than to escort the ladies to the
house, as they do us the honour to wish it? We shall have more than sufficient
time for all that we meant to do, after we have seen them safe at home; and
then we shall all meet at dinner in good humour with each other.”
“Pshaw!” said Mr. Dunstan, “you
would spoil the whole sex, Willoughby.”
“Shall
I stroke the black dog off its back, deary?” said Lady Charlotte, with the most
provoking insolence of look and tone; “or shall I say pray, pray! as it used to
do to me, when I was sovereign? When there was
something on earth more absurd than me; and when I was not treated with a
pshaw!”
“Let
me alone!” said Mr. Dunstan, putting aside Lady Charlotte’s hands, which in
mockery she was holding up in a petitioning posture.
“And
fall these sayings from that gentle tongue?” said she, with a malicious laugh;
“but be it as you will; it is all for my good I dare say;” putting her hands
awkwardly before her, and making him a curtesy, while he looked as if he could
have beaten her.
“Hush!”
said Mr. Willoughby, “he is in no humour to be sported with; pray take my other
arm; he will be himself again in a moment, and then you may do what you will.”
“I
care not what he does,” returned she; “you know what a brute he is, and how
much I have to bear, and how I bear it.”
“No
more, no more, I beg,” said Mr. Willoughby. “You will quite astonish Isabella.”
“Oh,
that I could be like her,” cried Lady Charlotte; “so calm! so reasonable! so
unmoved! so——” it seemed as if Mr. Willoughby at that moment exerted his
influence so as to make it effectual; for she suddenly stopped; then said,
“I am
ashamed of myself, but ——” again she stopped, as although restrained by
something more than her own prudence; and she walked on in silence; while Sir
Charles having placed himself on the other side of Isabella, eagerly entered
into conversation with her, evidently with the purpose of withdrawing her
thoughts from the disagreeable scene that had just passed; and all moving on
together, they left Mr. Dunstan in the middle of the road, too sulky to stir;
but seeming to entertain himself with throwing bits of stone at every bird that
flitted by: and then, when they were almost out of hearing, calling after them,
“I shall stay for you here! don’t be long! make haste! to which he had no other
answer returned, but by a laugh of Lady Charlotte’s, which she took care should
be loud enough to reach his ears.
“Fie,
fie!” said Mr. Willoughby.
“I tell
you that I must either laugh or cry;” said she, “and I have already given him more tears than he is
worth.”
No
answer being made by Mr. Willoughby, and Sir Charles continuing with gaiety and
good-breeding to engage the attention of all by various topics, the storm was
lulled into silence.
Surely,
thought Isabella, I need not be afraid of the influence of such a woman!
Yet,
alas! how soon had she to abandon this consoling thought!
CHAP.
XXXII.
—“If it be so,
We need no grave to bury
honesty;
There is not a grain of it
the face to sweeten
Of the whole dungy earth.”
SHAKSPEARE.
THE
two gentlemen having conducted the ladies to the house, Isabella, as they were
about to enter, saw her boy in the nurse’s arms, and turning to caress him for
a moment, she left Mr. Willoughby and Lady Charlotte still arm in arm. As she
turned again to join them, she heard Lady Charlotte say, “Indeed I am ashamed—yet you
well know that there are moments when
I can command my feelings.”
“Ah!
too well!” returned Mr. Willoughby; and Isabella saw the hand which was still
detained within her husband’s, gently pressed, and resigned with a sigh.
For
an instant Isabella felt as if fixed to the spot on which she stood; but
recollecting herself, she turned once more to her child, and taking him out of
the nurse’s arms, she carried him into the house, without any farther apparent
advertence to the rest of the party; nor did it seem that she was more regarded
by them than they were by her. At this moment, Mr. Willoughby’s consciousness of
his own guilty weakness robbed him of all the honest pleasure of a parent, and
made him ashamed to lift an eye to his spotless and injured wife. Sir Charles
had stepped aside to give some directions to a servant; and as to Lady
Charlotte, as she could not absolutely stab Isabella to the heart, she had no
other relief for the malignant passions which agitated her, than to escape from
the presence of the object of her unjust hatred.
But,
although unmolested, Isabella was not the less oppressed: her mind was wrought
up to such a pitch of agony, that she seemed at length to have lost all
self-command. She clasped her infant again and again almost madly to her bosom.
She called on Heaven for pity; and felt that her prayers were granted in a
flood of tears, which fell from her eyes, and which seemed to save her from
distraction.
In
her own room, and alone, Isabella had leisure to revolve in her mind the
various emotions of the last hour; to analyze and arrange the mass of falsehood
and truth which had been uttered by Lady Charlotte; and to understand, if
possible, the motives that had elicited both the one and the other.
Isabella
did but too painfully acknowledge the faithfulness of the representation made
to her of the pecuniary difficulties which Mr. Willoughby had brought upon
himself; but why should they be forced upon her apprehension by Lady Charlotte,
except from the paltry wish of triumphing over her, she could not guess. And
had she not other points, beyond comparison more galling, on which to establish
her superiority? Yet she seemed to wish to veil all these by a hollow
profession of friendship; and by representing herself as acting in conjunction
with the parents of both. Her insidious recommendation of Sir Charles Seymour
to her favour startled Isabella; and awoke a suspicion of a concert––a
combination of mischief—so black that the pureness of her soul revolted from
the very thought.
“And
was it possible that Mr. Willoughby could be aware of such a combination? —it
was not possible; she did not entertain
the thought for the smallest possible division of time. Was he then to be a
dupe?” The intellect of Isabella was bewildered in such a maze of wickedness,
her heart could not understand it; it refused to believe it. “Mr. Willoughby
might desert, but he could never betray her. His passions might declare for
Lady Charlotte; but every instance of his affection, of his admiration, and
even of his reverence, that he had given in the short space that they had
lately been together, she believed to be genuine.” Even Lady Charlotte,
although she knew her capable of a pleasure in tormenting her, in triumphing
over her, in misrepresenting her, she could not prevail with herself to believe
would plot to make her not only miserable, but infamous! she blushed for having
suffered the imagination to discolour the whiteness of her mind; she rejected
it as a chimera that her fevered brain had engendered in the moment of frenzied
feeling. “And why had she suffered herself to be so put from her path of even
rectitude? —of self-government? what had the disclosed intimacy between Lady
Charlotte and Mr. Willoughby told her more than what she had so long believed?
and might not this be the very escape on which Mr. Willoughby had seemed to
congratulate himself? should she not be thankful for this? should it not
encourage her by every means in her power to strengthen her influence over her
husband? to rejoice in, rather than to complain of the fiery ordeal to which
she was exposed? in the progress of which she might hope, by the acute exercise
of her understanding, and the mild operation of her virtues; to baffle the arts
of the one party, and to awaken all the slumbering excellencies of the other.
She was sensible that Lady Charlotte felt her superiority; the involuntary
admiration which she expressed; the ill-humour that she had betrayed; convinced
her of it. What have I then to do, thought Isabella, but to look well that I am
true to myself? to keep suspicion and irritation aloof; to hold an even tenor
of demeanour, and to trust in God for the issue.
The
wisdom and piety of such resolves soon restored Isabella to a composure of mind
which enabled her, not only to resolve, but to act. Yet the sadness of her
heart would at times relieve itself by a deep sigh; and the agitation of the
morning was written in such legible characters on her features, that it was
impossible that the effect could escape observation when the party re-assembled
before dinner.
Sir
Charles’s “Good God! has any thing happened to you since we parted?” and Mr. Willoughby’s
affectionate inquiry, “Isabella, my dear, are you not well?” revealed to
Isabella what she had not herself adverted to, in the change of her appearance.
The consciousness of the cause soon restored the colour to her cheeks; and
while she replied to Mr. Willoughby with the simplicity of truth, “I have been
a little unwell, but I am now better;” —Lady Charlotte cried out with a
coquettish air of her head, “and able, I hope, to chastise Sir Charles for his
ungallant notice of your ill looks.”
“What
has been so transitory,” said Sir Charles, looking with evident pleasure on
Isabella’s heightened beauty, “ought not indeed to have been the object of
observation ’twas here—is gone!”
“Fine
speeches,” said Mr. Willoughby, “flow from light feelings; but they will not
cure a real evil. My dearest Isabella, if you feel yourself indisposed (and you
look so) I beg you will withdraw. I can have no pleasure in your company if you
are to suffer by it.”
Tears
started into Isabella’s eyes; so earnest and so affectionate was the manner in
which Mr. Willoughby spoke.
“I
assure you,” she said, “that I am quite well; and I can be nowhere so well
pleased as where I am now; but I understand there is some addition to our last
night’s party—whom am I to see?”
“Oh
here comes Burghley!” said Mr. Willoughby, “and you are always glad to see
him.”
“And
I, always delighted to see my dear Mrs. Willoughby,” said the handsome, gay,
and good-humoured Burghley. “How do you do, my dear creature?” said he, shaking
Isabella by the hand, “and how have you been these million years? and how is
the baby? bless me! we have not met since those delightful evenings that we
used to have in Grosvenor-square, which Lady Charlotte never could understand
without my assistance; and how have you liked living amongst rocks and rustics?
and how do you think I have been able to live without you?”
“Isabella
must have Garaganta’s mouth before she can answer all your questions, in one
word Burghley,” said Mr. Willoughby.
“In
one word!” returned Mr. Burghley, “no indeed! I mean that she should bestow
upon me ten times as many.”
“And
the first shall be an inquiry after Lord Burghley,” said Isabella; “is he well?
and where is he?”
“So
you fob off the interest that I have in you, with referring me to that which
you take in my uncle; but I love to obey better than to dispute with you. I
thank God he is well, and as happy and benevolent as usual.”
“And
what young heir but yourself,” said an indolent, foppish-looking man, with a
voice of sovereign contempt, “would thank God for the health of an old uncle
that keeps him out of an estate of ten thousand pounds a year?”
“I
desire to know no one who would not,”
said Mr. Burghley, darting a look of indignation at the speaker, “if the
possessor were such another person as Lord Burghley.”
Isabella
had instantly recognized by the voice the brother of Lady Charlotte, and the
very brother to whose gambling propensities she knew that she had alluded in
speaking of a similar failing in Mr. Willoughby. Such a proof of the utter
falsehood of what she had asserted as to the purpose for which she had
endeavoured to assemble around Mr. Willoughby good and safe society, made her
blush at once with indignation and shame; and the coldness with which she
received Mr. Stanton marked what was passing in her mind so visibly to Lady
Charlotte, that she cried out, “Pray, George, who directed your steps to
Eagle’s Crag? Did I not absolutely forbid you to come here?”
“But
luckily, my fair sister, you are not lord of the ascendant; and Willoughby’s
yea was more potent to bring me here, than your nay to keep me away.”
“Don’t
talk nonsense, George,” said Lady Charlotte. “If I am not lord of the
ascendant, I hope Mrs. Willoughby is lady; and I trust she will drive you away
from her castle in less than twenty-four hours. Are you not ashamed to be
neglecting everything in the world that you ought to do?”
“At
present,” said Isabella, who was not deceived by this little artificial
wrangle, “I believe we have all of us but one duty to perform; and I have only
to hope that Westmoreland fare may make it a pleasant one. Mr. Willoughby, pray
take Lady Charlotte to the dining-room.”
“And
shall not I take you?” said Mr. Burghley to Isabella.
“That
honour is mine,” said Sir Charles, interposing.
“Then
faith, Seymour,” said Mr. Burghley, ‘we must be the two Kings of Brentford; for
I will not relinquish this fair arm.”
“Nor
I this soft hand,” said Sir Charles.
And
thus, conducted by her two beaux, Isabella was led in a sort of triumph to the
top of the table; while Lady Charlotte felt the inferiority of having, as it
were, been consigned to the master of the house, as in the course of common
civility, and without any attempt from any other to invade his privilege.
In
addition to the persons named, there were three or four other gentlemen who
made up the present dinner-party, and who were all known to Isabella, and whom
she soon found to have been collected together from the different houses where
they, as well as Lady Charlotte, had been visiting during the last month. They
had therefore all some topic in common; the same sporting anecdotes to refer
to, the same witticisms to sport, the same jokes to repeat.
Mr.
Burghley and Sir Charles Seymour had also had their share in these physical and
intellectual amusements; but they both seemed alike to have forgotten them in
conversing with Isabella upon a variety of subjects, that their mutual
acquaintance, or their different or agreeing tastes, could give rise to; while
Lady Charlotte seemed to reign the sovereign of the other end of the table.
Thus
the company that surrounded it might have been considered as two distinct
societies, had it not been for the connecting link of Mr. Willoughby’s
well-bred and well-tempered attention to all; and not least to Isabella; who,
believing that she saw in his manners a desire that she should be more diffuse,
extended notice and conversation to all, till the whole air of coterieship was
done away, and a social communication extended to all.
Lady
Charlotte’s brow clouded as she saw herself thus out-generaled; and Isabella’s
expanded, as she saw the pleased approbation which spoke in Mr. Willoughby’s
eye whenever it met hers.
Who
would have believed, who had not have looked below the surface, that Isabella
was unhappy, or had cause to be so?
CHAP.
XXXIII.
“To wilful men
The injuries that they
themselves procure
Must
be their schoolmasters.”
SHAKSPEARE.
NOTHING
could exceed the urbanity, the sweetness, and even affection, with which Mr.
Willoughby treated Isabella, whether they were in company, or alone; but he
discovered no mark of any wish, or thought of opening his heart to her, either
as to his past chagrins or future plans. All was superficial; and if she
hazarded any attempt to penetrate the interior, she was answered by a caress,
or a slight expression, which scarcely made a reply to her observation. In the
impatient hope that it would not be long before they were left to themselves,
when greater leisure would afford more frequent and better opportunities of
pressing the subject which she resolved they should not again part without
having fully discussed, she forbore to importune him at a time when he could so
easily elude all her efforts to obtain his confidence. But the hopes of a
better future in this respect could not abate her alarm of the impending evil
which she saw in Mr. Willoughby’s increased intercourse with George Stanton;—
an intercourse which she could not doubt, from the contemptuous opinion which
she knew that Mr. Willoughby entertained of the general character of the man,
could only be grounded in their mutual liking for high play. Yet it appeared to
Isabella, that it was rather to escape from his own thoughts than from any
pleasure which he took in the trial of skill, or of fortune, into which he was
always so ready to enter when called upon by Mr. Stanton, that he either threw
the dice, or studied the cards. She was the more persuaded of this from the
general restlessness that seemed to be upon him, and the eagerness with which
he accepted every offered civility from his neighbours.
Either
by the means of Lady Charlotte, or by some effort of his own, all obstacles to
visiting at Eagle’s Crag seemed to be done away. No distance deterred, no
scruples prevented, a very general resort to a spot so long deserted, but which
now was supposed to offer so many means of gratification or amusement. It was
quite another matter than when it was supposed that Isabella had retired into
the country upon a plan of the most rigid economy. Since it now appeared that
nothing could be more false than such a supposition; the fires now blazed in
every room, and the lights now streamed from every window of Eagle’s Crag; and
all seemed emulous who should testify the earliest attention to the master of
the mansion, who, it was now said, was come to fix his residence amongst the
friends and acquaintance of his earliest youth.
All
were received with the most bland and good-humoured hospitality by Mr.
Willoughby; who, in addition to whatever motives he might have thus to hide
himself from himself in a crowd, found an actual gratification to his love of
dissipation and his love of expense, under a form so congenial to some of the
best feelings of human nature, that he never suspected that he was as great an
idler and as thoughtless a prodigal, while doing the honours of his paternal
mansion, as he had ever been in loitering up and down Bond Street or St.
James’s.
To
make Eagle’s Crag once more the scene of festivity and happiness; to renew the
ancient intimacies of his parents; to testify his respect to all whom they had
loved; to spend his property amongst his tenants and dependants, what could be
more amiable? more noble? more just? All that was wanting to make it all these,
was that he should have had a right to the money which he expended, and that
the time which he gave to others should have been the surplus of hours which
had already discharged the duties that he owed to himself and to his God!
But
the present current of Mr. Willoughby’s thoughts were unchecked by such
reflections.
In
the first fervour of joy for his escape from the danger that had beset him at
Brighton, he had thought only of the legitimate and hallowed pleasures that he
should experience in reuniting himself to his wife and child; and no chagrin
could be more sensible than that which he felt in being intercepted in his
progress by the accidental falling in, as he thought it, with Lady Charlotte
and her party. With a design of eluding, if possible, her declared intention of
visiting Eagle’s Crag, he had suffered himself to be dragged from place to
place for a day or two, but by so doing had only strengthened the chains which
he wished to break. It was with undissembled and genuine reluctance that he had
been at last compelled to receive her visit; and this not only from his desire
to be alone with Isabella, to, and with whom he had much to communicate and
arrange; but from an apprehension that he should derive little honour from the
condition of a place so long neglected by him, or the state of a household,
which he concluded must be so little suited to the appearance which ought to
belong to the large and magnificent, though, as he feared, dilapidated mansion
of his ancestors.
An
invisible hand, of which he knew nothing, had averted the first evil, and the
good sense and good taste of Isabella had supplied all that was wanting to
remedy the second. He had been struck with equal delight and admiration by the
order and propriety with which he and his guests had been received; but, above
all, he had been astonished and charmed by the reception given him by Isabella,
and by the dignity and superiority which her character appeared to have
attained. He listened to Roberts, until he thought it little less than
miraculous that the young creature from whom he had parted so few months ago,
and whom he had been accustomed to regard more as a plaything than as a friend,
could in so short a time, and without the sacrifice of an atom of the
simplicity and unassumingness which so peculiarly marked all that she said and
did, have been so equal to the difficulties of the novel situation in which she
had found herself; that she could so justly combine economy with a due regard
to appearances; that she could submit to solitude and deprivations with
cheerfulness; and, above all, that she could tolerate the irritating and trying
suspense in which he could not but be conscious that he had so long kept her,
with an equanimity of temper which had given her a friend in every one who had
approached her, and had secured such a respect to her character as made her the
astonishment of those who could best appreciate the whole merit of such
self-command.
All
this Roberts knew how to insinuate without sacrificing any respect due to his
master; and Mr. Willoughby was never weary of listening to eulogiums so closely
identified with himself, that he could not but admit a hope that she might
supply all that was wanting on his part, to restore him to those better
thoughts and more virtuous feelings with which he had set out in life, and the
loss of which he regretted at times even with agony.
But
while Isabella was the goddess of his reason, Lady Charlotte was the idol of
his passions; and the more so, because she had not wholly yielded to the
impulse of her own. Thus far she had
persevered in the refined coquetry of allowing him to see that he was beloved,
and in withholding every positive proof of her love. Hence he persuaded himself
that his passion for Lady Charlotte was nearly as much a tribute to her virtues
as to her charms; and hence was he so sensitively alive to any imputation that
the malignity or morose suspicion of others might attach to her. A suspicion of
this kind had occasioned his spleen against Mr. Parr; and any detection of
jealousy on the part of Isabella would have been ruinous to the incipient
interest that she was so powerfully creating in his heart.
Yet
poor Isabella, in escaping from this danger, incurred another. Mr. Willoughby
did not sufficiently understand the elements of a truly virtuous love, to
comprehend how it could exist under neglect, and, as he could not conceal from
himself, at times, under evident marks of preference to another, and yet
preserve the unruffled surface that Isabella’s invincible sweetness of temper,
and gentle acquiescence in all his wishes, never failed to maintain. The
consequence was, that while he gave her credit for all the higher qualities of
the mind, he denied her that warm and distinctive feeling which it is so
flattering to the vanity of man to excite, and which he could tell himself, as
an apology for his own aberrations, was the greatest charm in woman. The
concentrated affections of Isabella remained unknown; while the light particles
of Lady Charlotte’s base passion flew off and sparkled, and misled the unhappy
Willoughby. Hence it was that, however dissatisfied he had been when he found
himself so suddenly turned adrift at Brighton; and discomposed as he had been
by the unforeseen meeting with Lady Charlotte, and her obstinate determination
to accompany him to Eagle’s Crag, he soon found in the flattery of her
acknowledged attachment to him, an excuse for all that had disappointed, and
all that had disgusted him. In affecting to take him as a monitor in the
regulation of her conduct towards her husband, she found the secret of resuming
her full influence over his mind; and in assuming the right of schooling him
upon what she called “his follies;” she became the dictator of all that he
should or should not do; and the depository of all his embarrassments, and his
plans for obviating them. Thus, while he allowed Lady Charlotte to usurp the
confidence so justly due to Isabella, he satisfied himself for the injury he
did her, by endeavouring to persuade himself that her interests were safe in
the hands of Lady Charlotte, and that it was a kindness to hide from her
details which could only serve to make her unhappy.
At
this period then Mr. Willoughby was tolerably well satisfied with himself. He
was not doing anything that he called wrong, and full purposing to do
everything that was right; exalting Lady Charlotte in his imagination alike for
the favours she granted, and those which she withheld; and taking credit to
himself for the homage that he rendered to the excellencies of Isabella, he
banished from his mind all thoughts of the future, except such as referred to
the excellent conduct which he was then to withhold, and gave himself wholly to
the display of that magnificent hospitality and festive profusion, which could
only have been well placed in the days of unimpaired fortunes and an unreproving
conscience.
CHAP.
XXXIV.
“I delight in masks and
revels, sometimes altogether.
Art
good at these kickshaws, knight?”
SHAKSPEARE.
WHAT
were now the workings of Isabella’s mind? — Was she to be carried away with the
stream, or was she to attempt to oppose some boundaries to a tide which swelled
to her destruction? To whom could she look for counsel or assistance? The only
eye of the many which were upon her, which seemed to understand her situation,
or to sympathize in her feelings, was Sir Charles Seymour’s. In spite of the
grounded distrust that she entertained of his principles, and of his designs,
she could not but acknowledge that nothing could have been more irreproachable,
and even praiseworthy, than the whole tone of his manners and conversation
since his arrival at Eagle’s Crag. All frothy gallantry was banished from his
tongue; his admiration was expressed more by the homage of respect than the
tribute of adulation. No word, dropped as if without design, betrayed that he
was awake either to the folly of Mr. Willoughby’s extravagance, or to the still
more reprehensible error of his too apparent attachment to Lady Charlotte.
Isabella
was not called upon to reprove the censurer of her husband; or to blush at the
exposure of his weakness; yet she saw the delicacy with which Sir Charles
interposed to stem the current of the one, and to veil the other from the eyes
of common observers.
She
saw with how much address he contrived to preserve for her the pre-eminence so
justly her due; and how skilfully he baffled the attempts of Lady Charlotte to
be known as the lady of the revels, or felt as the origin of the pleasures of
the society.
Under
pretence of saving Isabella trouble, or relieving her from exertions, that she would
suppose were disagreeable to her, she would say,—
“My
dear creature, I know you do so hate all these things! Leave all to me, and sit
down to the instrument; the chosen few will be gathered around you. I will do
all the drudgery. Set the old dowagers down to cards, and the misses to dancing
reels, or make them play at questions and commands; and I will talk to the
squires of their dogs and horses. What, indeed, would I not do in furtherance
of that, which you know of? and which succeeds admirably. Willoughby was never
happier in his life: I verily believe in a little time it will be as difficult
to tear him away from Eagle’s Crag, as it once was to drag him there.”
Isabella recalled to mind Mrs. Nesbitt’s assurances of
the evident success of her plan; and was as little exhilarated by the
happiness which Lady Charlotte discovered in Mr. Willoughby, as she had been
flattered or encouraged by Mrs. Nesbitt’s congratulations on the progress that
she had made in his admiration, by her love for dissipation, or by the display
of her taste in the fashionable follies of the day.
Isabella was therefore by no means inclined to take Lady
Charlotte’s advice in consulting her own ease, rather than to maintain by some
sacrifice the place that was due to her in the present society. By her own
diligence, and the well-timed intervention of Sir Charles, Lady Charlotte never
succeeded in any of these attempts to render herself important or necessary.
Isabella was the most gracious and attentive of
hostesses,—the respectful administratrix to the accommodation of the old, and
the cheerful partaker in the pleasures of the young; while Sir Charles never
failed to step forward whenever it appeared expedient to do so, and so to bring
Isabella into action, that Lady Charlotte was thrown into the shade, and all the
country visitors received the impression that they owed to Mrs. Willoughby all
the charms of their visit at Eagle’s Crag.
Isabella could not be insensible to the obligations which
she owed to Sir Charles, nor could she be ungrateful for them. Involuntarily
their eyes communicated on every incident interesting to Isabella; and without
a word having been uttered on the subject, she was more persuaded than if he
had told her so a thousand times, that Sir Charles saw all that was going on,
that he pitied her, and that he was zealous to befriend her. Under this
impression she often unconsciously acted by his suggestion, and she grew
accustomed to watch his countenance for a confirmation or a disavowal of what
was passing in her own mind.
Yet not for all this did Isabella feel any alarm, nor had
she reason to do so. Nothing could be more perfect than the line which Sir
Charles thus silently traced out for her to tread; nothing more consonant to
the pure dictates of her own heart, thus sanctioned, as she thought, by his
better knowledge of the world, and perhaps by his more intimate acquaintance
with the circumstances in which she stood.
She took, therefore, the part which she believed that
prudence assigned her; and covering an aching heart with a cheerful countenance,
threw no impediment in the way of any pleasurable arrangement suggested by Mr.
Willoughby; promising herself that the interest which her yielding at this time
would establish, might be used at no very distant period to avert the evil that
otherwise seemed to advance with hasty steps to destroy her.
But thus, while with fiend-like art Sir Charles plotted
to make her very virtues lead her to vice, and while he believed that he was every day
becoming more and more master of her fate, she had another more honest and more
open-hearted friend, who often threw himself between her and mischief, without
claiming or thinking of any reward beyond the simple pleasure of being of use
to her.
Mr. Burghley was always the first to break up the
card-table; or to cause it to be neglected, by calling the attention of its
votaries to fifty amusing follies and boyish tricks. Sometimes he would appear
in masquerade; or he would act a scene in some play; or he would insist upon
dancing; and being always sure of having the young and the gay of his party, he
was able to overbear any opposition that the wishes of those who had other
things in view might have made to his plans.
Most particularly did he manage to keep Mr. Stanton from
Mr. Willoughby, as he well knew, that as to him, he was the most dangerous
member of the society; he frequently did this by giving Mr. Willoughby a
substitute for the frenzied delights of high play, by inducing Isabella to sit
down to her instrument, and to accompany her music by her voice. This was an
attraction which could draw him
at any time away from every other, except the conversation of Lady Charlotte,
who appeared every passing day, to add a link to the chains which she was
throwing around him.
Mr. Burghley it is true found the gratification of more
than one inclination, in practising this diversion in favour of Isabella. His
boyish dislike to Lady Charlotte was increased tenfold by all that was now
passing before his eyes; and it was delicious to him to mortify Lady Charlotte,
and to serve Isabella at the same time; and when to this was added the defeat
of what he could not but consider as the nefarious designs of Mr. Stanton upon
the purse of Mr. Willoughby, his happiness was complete.
When the sounds of Isabella’s harp, or the strains of her
voice, caused Mr. Willoughby to play the wrong card, or suspended
the impassioned attention with which he was
listening to Lady Charlotte, Mr. Burghley’s eye sparkled with pleasure; and
when Mr. Willoughby said, “No more now, Stanton; I can play no more now”— or
when he broke in upon Lady Charlotte’s eloquence with, “Come, let us listen to
Isabella; I really had no conception of the powers of her voice or her knowledge of music,” Mr. Burghley was ready to
dance for joy.
Lady Charlotte was too acute not to see all this, and in
consequence she hated Mr. Burghley with a most devout hatred.
Mr. Willoughby’s taste for music was genuine and correct,
and it had been cultivated from his youth; but though he knew that Isabella was
considered as being peculiarly accomplished in this science, yet he had never
hitherto had inclination nor leisure to attend to her. There were too many
public sources of this kind of gratification in London, to leave any want of it
at home; and Isabella, whose retiring nature made her averse from all public
exhibition, was scarcely ever a performer elsewhere. In Mr. Willoughby’s more
peculiar society therefore Lady Charlotte bore away the palm in all such
exhibitions; and Mr. Willoughby little suspected how much she could have been
excelled by Isabella.
But the scene was now changed: Isabella, in her own
house, and at the request of her friends, could have no motive or inclination
to decline displaying her powers, both of voice and finger.
The various and excellent musical instruments which were
to be found in almost every room at Eagle’s Crag, enabled her to gratify the divers tastes of her
auditors, from the sublimity of the organ to the light gaiety of the country
dance.
She was always ready to comply with the wishes of any one
who found their gratification in musical sounds; and not the less so from the
effect, that with equal pleasure and surprise, she perceived that her skill and
excelling powers had upon Mr. Willoughby.
“My dear Isabella,” would he say, “you astonish me; I did not know that you could
thus ‘take the prisoned soul and lap it in elysium.’ It must be this northern
air that has had such an effect on your voice; or have you some ‘little seraph
that sits up on high,’ and sends forth such sweet tones, while you only move
your lips?”
Isabella blushed, as though Mr. Willoughby had been
making love to her; and in truth it was much more like love making than she had
ever before heard from his mouth.
“Is not the change more in you than in me?” asked she,
smiling.
“I know not,” replied Mr. Willoughby; “I would it might
be so! you astonish me in a thousand ways. I believe I must make you my
bailiff, my house steward, and my head musician; and if what Roberts says, and
what I see and hear, is not waking visions, but sober sound reality, I certainly could not do a
wiser thing.”
“Might not the title of friend,” said Isabella, “express
in one word the earnestness of the wish to serve and please you? and perhaps in
this case explain all the powers that I can boast, and which you so kindly
magnify beyond their natural size?”
“Would I were worthy of such a friend,” said Mr.
Willoughby with a sigh.
Oh, would to God that you really prized the blessing!
thought Isabella, and sighed too — the time may come! and with that
thought she cleared her over-shadowed brow.
CHAP. XXXV.
“Thus conscience does make cowards of us all.”
SHAKSPEARE.
BY such anticipations, by the support that she felt in
Sir Charles’s discreet sagacity, and the more open efforts of Mr. Burghley in
her favour, Isabella found herself enabled to go through, day after day, the
various mortifications and tormenting apprehensions to which she was
perpetually exposed. She believed that it was almost impossible that the
present order of things should continue. She thought that it could not be that
Lady Charlotte, under any pretence whatever, could maintain her post much
longer; and she entertained a daily expectation that the next morning would
announce her intended
departure.
This expectation, however, became fainter and fainter,
when she saw that although the perpetual ill-humour of Mr. Dunstan shewed that
he was as little satisfied with Lady Charlotte as Isabella herself could be!
yet that, notwithstanding the never-ceasing war between him and Lady Charlotte
on every other point, they appeared to agree in a mutual desire to remain where
they were.
Mr. Dunstan amused himself with field sports all the
morning; returned to indulge in the pleasures of the table; and filled up the
evening between the whist-table and in saying ill-natured things to Lady
Charlotte; or in talking of the great people who were in despair that they
could not get him amongst them; and in assuring Mr. Willoughby that he would
not leave his society for that of
the first duke in the kingdom.
Lady Charlotte also had a three-fold office; the separate
parts of which she filled with equal zeal and spirit. The mornings were
dedicated to cajoleries with Isabella; the dinner-hour to sarcasms on her husband; and the evenings were given to the most
undisguised coquetry with Mr. Willoughby; and, because undisguised, could not
be supposed otherwise than innocent. With Isabella she could even advance a
claim of merit for such flirtations. It was wholly to amuse Mr.
Willoughby—wholly for the purpose of keeping him satisfied with his continued
absence from the dangerous habits of a London life.
“I know, my dear,” she would say to Isabella, “that we
are living here just now at an
enormous expense; but what is it to what would be incurred in town? And there,
now the Herefordshire house is sold, you must go immediately on leaving
Westmoreland. I tell Willoughby so every day. But I don’t tell him that I hope
soon to wean him from the necessity of being always surrounded by such
numbers of people, who consume his fat beeves and drink his wines at such an
immoderate rate. But you will see, my dear, that this will soon be over. Our
constant guests are thinning every day; and what with your music, my dear, and
my nonsense, I hope we shall be able to do garrison duty ourselves; and then, I
really cannot contemplate anything more agreeable or comfortable than our snug
little party. I include Sir Charles Seymour, of course; may be for weeks to
come. And, my dear, we will live only upon Westmoreland mutton and potatoes,
with their ‘boiled up berries,’ and bid defiance to impertinents and ennui,
even if we should be snowed up. But I entreat you get rid of that intolerable
rattle Burghley first. He will never be content without some foolery is going
on, nor without a regiment of fools like himself at his heels.”
When
Lady Charlotte undertook to converse with Isabella, she was generally obliged
to content herself with being chief speaker; to harangue, rather than to take
part in a dialogue. Isabella usually heard her in silence, answered her with a
civil monosyllable or two, and, as soon as possible, found herself some
occupation that separated them.
But
these monologues of Lady Charlotte were by no means useless to Isabella. They
often let in upon her a ray of light, which she would have wanted without them;
and nothing kept alive in her breast any degree of distrust of Sir Charles’s
integrity, but the toleration that Lady Charlotte extended to the constant
protection that he gave to Isabella, even to Lady Charlotte’s disadvantage. Mr.
Burghley was the object of her avowed hostility for offences of the same
nature; and as Isabella knew that Lady Charlotte’s penetration and pride would
be to the full as much awake in the one case as in the other, so was she sure
that Sir Charles would not have escaped her resentment if there had not been
some sinister motive to bribe her to forbearance. The never failing to include
Sir Charles as one of the family party, and the continually designating him as
Isabella’s friend, made her still more upon her guard against him. An incident
that occurred at this time awakened anew all the suspicion which she had ever
entertained of the evil that might, under the fairest aspect, lurk at his
heart.
Isabella
had occasion to remark that the name of Parr was not acceptable to Mr.
Willoughby, and that he seemed still to entertain some suspicion of his
sinister influence over her mind. She imputed this to his attributing Mr.
Parr’s refusal to visit at Eagle’s Crag at this time to some injurious opinion
adopted by him of Lady Charlotte’s character. Nor was she mistaken in this
supposition. Such was the impression that rested on the mind of Mr. Willoughby;
and his knight-errantry called upon him to resent this, as he maintained it to
be a most unjust, and narrow-minded imputation; and he had manifested his
resentment not only in slighting expressions of Mr. Parr, but in never having
condescended to shew him the most trifling civility, making him the only
exception to a most gracious and open-hearted recognition of every former
friend and acquaintance who had ever been honoured by the regard of his
parents.
“He
has refused to come near us; I shall not presume to intrude upon his privacy,”
would he say; “and I have reason to believe that our society is not suited to
his taste.”
Lady
Charlotte had evidently shewn that she partook of Mr. Willoughby’s suspicions,
and the indignation that they had excited; and Isabella, feeling how grounded
such reasons for Mr. Parr’s absenting himself really were, could not but admit
the probability that he was in fact actuated by them; and in adopting this
explanation of his conduct, she lost sight of the one that her own penetration
had at first suggested. Feeling, therefore, that she could not with truth, or
with likelihood of success, attempt to subdue the prejudices of Mr. Willoughby,
she had thought it best quietly to give way to them; and by never bringing Mr.
Parr or his daughter under observation, to let all recollection of them, if
possible, slip out of the minds both of Lady Charlotte and Mr. Willoughby. In
pursuance of this object she had carefully abstained from all personal
intercourse with Fell-beck, and had restrained her notice of her friends there
to a few friendly words addressed to Catherine, or some share of the dainties which
now abounded at Eagle’s Crag.
Thus
it happened that the name of Parr had ceased to be mentioned; and not only
might Isabella have had no such friends, but such people might never have
existed.
All,
however, that Isabella’s discretion had suggested to keep them out of notice
was rendered vain by the enthusiastic feelings and open temper of Mr. Burghley.
His passion for the romantic scenes with which he was surrounded made him pass
almost the whole of his mornings in scrambling over the rocks and torrents in
the vicinity; and his first burst into conversation when he appeared at dinner,
was generally a rapturous description of what he had been exploring during the
preceding hours.
Hitherto
his transports had been confined to the beauties of inanimate nature; but one
memorable day he had no sooner taken his usual place on the left hand of
Isabella, than, with an eye even more on fire than common, and a heightened
colour, he cried out,
“My
dear Mrs. Willoughby, by what other divinity are these solitudes of yours
inhabited? I had thought you sole goddess here; but I have today seen such a
creature!
‘Oh! ne’er did Grecian chisel trace
So fair a form, so sweet a face.’
“False
quotation, Burghley; and as false admiration, I suspect,” said Lady Charlotte,
with a disdainful tone. “An over-heated imagination, like an over-heated
furnace, always mars what it touches.”
“Oh!
I bow to the sublime rationality of Lady Charlotte Dunstan!” returned Mr.
Burghley. “But I would not advise you to put your foot into the circle of my
goddess, for all that.”
“What
neat-herd’s daughter have you seen, Burghley,” said Mr. Willoughby, laughing,
“whose ruddy cheeks and black eyes your fancy has turned into charms of
ethereal mould?”
“Oh!
she is nothing earthly!” said Mr. Burghley.
A hair-brain’d sentimental trace
Was
strongly marked in her face;
Her
eye e’en turn’d on empty space
Beam’d
keen with honour.
Down
flow’d her robe, a tartan sheen ——
“Mad!
absolutely mad!” cried Sir Charles Seymour, interrupting him.
“I
suspect not sir,” said a respectable looking old gentleman at the bottom of the
table. “By the young gentleman’s description I conceive he may have fallen in
with Miss Parr; by her maternal descent she is of Scottish extraction, and
therefore it is not unlikely but that she may affect the dress of her
ancestors. I have heard that she does inherit her mother’s beauty; God give her
better fortunes! not to say better conduct.”
“Ha,
ha,” said Lady Charlotte, “these northern solitudes, I perceive, are not more
free from tales of scandal than the peopled haunts of busy men;—pray, sir, tell
me all about it?” turning eagerly to the old gentleman, who was placed by her
side.
“Your
ladyship will excuse me,” returned he solemnly; “charity covereth a multitude
of sins; and all is oblivion in the grave!”
“Now
could I hug that delectable old Nestor,” said Mr. Burghley, in a low voice to
Isabella; but she heard him not. Her whole attention was engrossed by Sir
Charles Seymour, whose trembling hand, and varying countenance, now pale, now
glowing, spoke the emotion of his mind.
Entire
conviction flashed on the mind of Isabella, that she was at that very moment
sitting by the seducer of the unfortunate Morna, and the destroyer of the
happiness of her highly valued friend Mr. Parr. She drew her flowing garment
closer around her, as if shrinking from the touch of something noxious; and
shuddered with the remembrance how lately she had listened to such a man with
complacency, and regarded him with confidence.
Mr.
Burghley’s quick sense saw in the twinkling of an eye that something was wrong;
and filling a glass of wine, and bowing to the old gentleman, “Then here’s to
the oblivion of all faults and follies,” said he, “and mine amongst the rest.”
Sir
Charles pledged him, with an almost hysteric laugh, and the subject was
dropped.
But
the effect had sunk deep into the heart of Isabella. The more she reflected,
the more she was convinced that she had not wronged Sir Charles by the
suspicions to which she had given way: but was it equally certain that a lapse
of years had made no change in his character or principles? Was it fair to
condemn him now for an offence committed so long since, and which, for anything
she knew, might have been repented in bitterness of spirit? But, without such a
proof of his dereliction of integrity, had she not repeatedly had reason to be
displeased with him on her own account? And could she trust even to the fairer
appearances of later days, when there was too much cause to apprehend that such
appearances were assumed to cover the basest purposes?
The
result of these reflections was a resolution to be more than ever on her guard
against Sir Charles, and to get rid of Lady Charlotte as soon as it was
possible.
CHAP.
XXXVI.
“All with me’s meet, that I
can fashion it.”
SHAKSPEARE.
ISABELLA
had additional cause for being confirmed in both these purposes within the next
eight and forty hours.
Wearied
by the continual effort to which she was now called, let who would be her
companion, she resolved to give herself a few hours’ suspension from such a
state of exertion, by one of those morning excursions with her boy, which had
made the happiest parts of her life previous to the arrival of Mr. Willoughby.
She therefore ordered the nurse to be with the child at the garden entrance
into the park, accompanied by the nursery girl and the pony; for as she did not
purpose to go to any great distance from home, she ventured to dispense with
the attendance of the footman, who had now little leisure from the necessary duties
of his office. Her wish was to avoid, if possible, meeting with any individual
of the company that was at present assembled at Eagle’s Crag; and she therefore
silently withdrew herself from the crowd, before the morning arrangements that
generally took place immediately after breakfast had been made; and joining the
little party at the place appointed, struck directly out of the common paths
and resorts of the park, into a wild and sequestered dell, where, by the height
and thickness of shelter from the northern blasts, and the exposure to a
southern sun, she would be secure of a warm and cheerful spot either for
exercise or rest.
It
was here that she had enjoyed two hours of the most perfect repose, and of the
purest delight, in an abstraction from her usual state of contending feelings,
and in witnessing the health, hilarity, and enjoyment of her boy. He was all
life, laugh, and intelligence; and his animated actions, and his imperfect
sounds, were to her the model of all grace, and the consummation of all human
wit.
Seated
on a dry bank, at the edge of the thickest part of the forest that overshadowed
them, she was watching the child consume the last morsels of the meal which her
foresight had provided for him, when a rustling amongst the trees behind her,
occasioned her to look up; and she beheld a remarkably large and fierce-looking
red stag, upon a high trot, in the immediate direction of the whole group.
“Fly,
fly!” cried she to the nurse: and at the same moment threw herself directly
before the animal, and was the next laid low by his branching horns, and
trodden under his feet. In this instant of imminent peril, the screams of the
flying nurse and girl offered but faint hopes of assistance; and had Isabella
had time for thought, she must have given herself up for lost. But in fewer
moments than the story takes in telling, the stag had been seen. Isabella had
fallen under his attack, and she had found herself safe, and her enemy lying
dead by her side!
“Merciful
Heaven!” said she, “to whom do I owe such a deliverance?”
“To
one,” said a voice but too well known to her, “who would have thought his life
a cheap purchase, had it preserved yours.”
“Sir
Charles Seymour;” said Isabella; “how came you here?”
“By a
miracle, no doubt,” replied Sir Charles. “But, my dear Mrs. Willoughby, do you
rather question how I came, than rejoice that I am here?”
“But
at such a moment!” said Isabella; “in a place so retired? when I thought myself
so entirely alone! how came it, that I did not see you when I first saw the
stag? and yet that you should be so near that you could shoot him through the
head at so critical an instant?”
“Take
my arm, I beg you will take my arm,” said Sir Charles; “you tremble; you must
be bruised; as we walk homewards I will tell you all. Come, let me assist to
mount your nurse and your little boy; and they may trot on before us, and send
you Lady Charlotte’s little carriage; for you ought not to have so long a walk
after such a fright. I thank God that there seems to be neither dislocation nor
sprain.”
“I
will not separate myself from my boy,” said Isabella, fervently. “I will carry
him myself on the pony, for the nurse trembles sadly; and if you will be so
kind as to guard us home, I shall be much obliged to you.”
“And
yet,” said Sir Charles, looking at her with a scrutinising eye, “you have not
yet thanked me for saving your life.”
Isabella
cast down her eyes. “Can you doubt,” said she, “whether I feel the obligation?
add to it, I beseech you, by conducting us home in safety; never again will I
seek the solitudes of the park; I see that they are beset by dangers.”
“Dangers
indeed!” replied Sir Charles. “If a melancholy mood had not sent me into these
solitudes this morning, with my gun in my hand, I should by this time have been
the most miserable of men!”
Isabella
made no reply; fearing by farther exertion to increase the trembling and
sickness of which she now became so sensible that she feared she should not be
able to retain her seat on the pony, or to hold her child.
Sir
Charles watched her looks with the most attentive solicitude; and, suddenly
stopping the horse, which he was leading by the bridle, “You are ill,” said he;
“you must alight; you must suffer the servants to go forward, and bring you a
carriage.”
But
the fear of being left alone with Sir Charles, overcame, with Isabella, every
other fear; and calling all the powers of her mind to her aid, she said, “I am
better! — pray go on gently; and in a few minutes I shall be well.”
At
the same time she delivered the child to the nurse; and rubbing her temples and
the palms of her hands with lavender-water, she found herself relieved; and
presently after, perfectly re-assured as to her ability to proceed homewards
without any farther assistance.
Both
sides preserved an almost uninterrupted silence. The presence of the servants
restrained Sir Charles in whatever he might have wished to say; and Isabella
was too much afraid of exhausting her spirits, and too much disturbed in mind,
to be willing or able to say much: but, on her dismounting from her horse, she
said, “Mr. Willoughby shall thank you for my safety; I feel that my thanks
would be very inadequate to the value of the obligation I owe you.”
“And
yet,” returned Sir Charles, “cruel and ungrateful as you are! your thanks are
the only reward that I either desire or expect.”
“Allow
me to quit you,” said Isabella. “My limbs tremble; I must lie down.” And, so
saying, she took hold of the nursery girl’s arm, and withdrew into the house.
The
report of the danger that Isabella had incurred, soon spread through the whole
household; and the anxiety of Mrs. Evans for the safety of her lady, brought
her immediately to Isabella’s apartment. The external injuries that had been
received were small; a few scratches and slight bruises made the sum of them.
To these, Mrs. Evans applied her surgical skill; but feeling more alarm from
the agitated state in which she saw Isabella, than from any of the contusions
that she had received, she added to the gold-beaters skin and Hungary water,
camphorated julep and lavender-drops, and recommended a recumbent posture, and
perfect quiet for a few hours. To all this Isabella submitted; and the more
willingly, as she learnt from Mrs. Evans, that neither Mr. Willoughby nor Lady
Charlotte were within, they having driven out in Lady Charlotte’s carriage
about an hour before. Isabella therefore hoped that by the means of remaining
quiet she should be quite recovered before their return, and able to treat the
whole matter as an event that had left no consequences behind it. But before
she retired to rest, she naturally went into the nursery to look once more on
her boy, of whose escape she thought much more than of her own.
Nothing
could be thought or talked of but the adventure of the morning; and the nurse
and the girl were describing with gesticulation and eloquence the spot on which
all had happened; and detailing their own danger, and their own terrors, and
their wonder that Isabella had not run away too, but had actually thrown
herself quite under the foot of the mad creature. Isabella’s appearance cut the
narrators suddenly short in their story, and caused their auditors to break up
the circle which they had formed around them: “Don’t go,” said Isabella,
good-naturedly: “I shall not be here a moment; and I am sure you must all long
to know how your young master was saved so providentially.”
“Why
to be sure, ma’am,” said the nurse; “it was the good Providence that put it
into my head to tell that good gentleman, as I stood waiting with the pony, and
because he asked me, that you were going to be all the morning in the park. But
how he came to know just where, and just at that lucky moment, I don’t know,
for I did not tell him, because you know, ma’am, I could not; not knowing
myself.”
Isabella
scarcely wanted this confirmation of her suspicions, that Sir Charles’s coming
was not accidental; that she had been watched by him, and that it must have
been his purpose to have fastened himself on her as her companion in her walk
home. What farther he could hope, she scarcely dared to conjecture; but she
could not resist the impression, that on his former forbearance and respect, he
had grounded an opinion that he had made an interest in her heart, and had
thrown her off her guard; and that it would not be difficult to bring her to a
more explicit avowal of her sentiments, and that this had been the time when he
resolved to put the matter to an issue, and openly to plead for her favour.
This
thought discomposed her more than all Mrs. Evans’s sedatives had contributed to
the quieting of the nerves; and after embracing her boy, and shedding over him
some bitter tears, from thinking to what insults she was exposed by the neglect
of her husband; she withdrew to try what perfect stillness would do for her.
It
had had the usual effect of composing her fluttered spirits, when the hasty
steps of Mr. Willoughby along the gallery, caused her to arouse herself from
her couch, and to advance to meet him. But all her agitation returned, when she
beheld him trembling, pale, and speechless! while he clasped her fervently to
his heart, and, bursting into a passion of tears, she heard him ejaculate
blessing on Sir Charles Seymour, and thanks to the Giver of all good.
Astonished;
and transported with a sense of happiness which she had never known before,
Isabella clung to Mr. Willoughby in all the confidence of acceptable love.
“My
dear, dear Willoughby!” cried she, “be composed! be happy! such moments repay,
a thousand fold, the alarm and danger that I have undergone.”
“Oh
thou preserver of my boy!” said he; “how shall I thank you, or chide you enough
for the hazard to which you exposed yourself to save him!”
“Every
mother would have done as much;” said Isabella. “Every father could have done
more.”
“Let
us look upon our dear rescued jewel together,” said Mr. Willoughby; “he must be
early taught at how great a price his life might have been redeemed.”
Isabella
hanging upon her husband’s arm accompanied him to the nursery, and there passed
a few of the most delicious moments of her life.
“Are
you well enough to go down stairs?” said Mr. Willoughby; “you have other
friends who long to congratulate you upon your escape. Lady Charlotte says that
she shall not be able to believe that you are alive, till she sees you walk,
and hears your voice.”
So,
thought Isabella, fade all my joys! yet her answer was a ready acquiescence in
his request; and they went together to the library.
Here
Isabella had to undergo the painful effort of receiving with apparent
thankfulness, congratulations which she knew were hollow; and of listening to
the studied details of Sir Charles, by which he explained very satisfactorily
to all but Isabella, the “luckiest chance in the world,” that brought him to
her rescue at so critical a moment. Mr. Willoughby seemed never to be able to
satisfy himself with the expression of his gratitude. He varied it in an
hundred different ways; and if he had had a kingdom to have divided, would have
said with Herod, “ask what thou wilt, and it shall be given thee, to the half
of my kingdom.” He gave orders immediately for a gala through the whole house,
and seemed to consign himself wholly to the gaiety and happiness which so
wonderful an escape from misery was so well fitted to inspire.
It
seemed, however, as if Sir Charles was willing to intimate to Isabella that the
most lively feelings, were not always the deepest. He took the tone of
sentiment; he remained tremulous and pensive, and let it be seen that he was so
from the terror impressed upon his mind by the danger that had threatened
Isabella. “Those may rejoice in mirth,” said he, “that did not witness the
horrible scene; but for me!” and on the slightest renewed allusion to the
subject he would cry, “for God’s sake don’t name it! — it haunts me night and
day! — the scene is constantly before my eyes! — good God! — a moment later,
and all would have been over.”
Isabella
could scarcely help reproaching herself for ingratitude in being unable to
repay so much gallantry, and suffering by nothing more than a simple
acknowledgement of obligation; but in spite of the plausibility by which he
accounted for his sudden appearance, and the little claim that he seemed to
establish on her favour from the service he had rendered her, she could not but
feel that there was affectation in the effect that he pretended the incident
had had on his feelings; nor resist the conviction that there had been design
in the whole transaction; and that not improbably he had been the cause of the
very mischief which he so much gloried in having been the instrument to avert.
Under
these thoughts she grew impatient in his society, and her wishes to see the
departure both of him and Lady Charlotte took place of every other desire; but
she soon found that there was less likelihood than ever of so happy a
consummation.
CHAP.
XXXVII.
“Can’st thou know peace? is
conscience mute
within?” SHAKSPEARE.
THE
intimacy between Lady Charlotte and Mr. Willoughby became every day more and
more confirmed; more and more open. Long morning walks tęte-ŕ-tęte were
avowed; the evening conversations were more exclusive than ever, and Lady
Charlotte’s natural harshness of manner, seemed softened to something
approaching to tenderness.
Mr.
Willoughby had said to Isabella, “I think we cannot do better than to endeavour
to prevail upon Dunstan and Lady Charlotte to take up their winter abode with
us. We shall then be able to make head against the dreariness of its long
evenings and snowy days; and it will be extremely convenient to me, not to go
to town this year.”
“I
should not be afraid of encountering all the dreariness of Eagle’s Crag with
you alone for my companion,” returned Isabella; “and would not the advantage of
such a withdrawal from the expenses of London be much enhanced by the reduction
of those that would be incurred by such an addition to our family as you
propose?”
“Oh,
all expenses would soon come to an end in that case,” replied Mr. Willoughby;
“for I should certainly hang or drown myself in a fortnight. The alternative is
society here, or ruin in London.”
“Do
not terrify me,” said Isabella.
“Is
there any thing terrific,” said Mr. Willoughby, “in passing a few months here
in good company; with good fires; good cheer; and your delicious music? this is
what I offer you, and if you will accept it, all will be well; then time will
bring every thing round. I have talked the matter over with Roberts; but to
re-establish ourselves in town just now would undo all.”
“I
much doubt,” replied Isabella, “that a few months of such seclusion as you
propose will do any thing. You have imputed to me more than my due, in the
attention that I have been drawn to give to circumstances which I could have
been well content should never have come under my observation; but from the
knowledge that I have attained, I cannot believe that the evil is of so light a
nature as to be cured by abstaining one single season from the expenses of a
London residence.”
“You
do not know my resources,” replied Mr. Willoughby; “but we will talk of such
things another time. I only mentioned the subject incidentally now, to know if
you would object to domesticating the Dunstans with us for sometime to come. I
dare say I could prevail with them to oblige us, if you make no objection.”
“I
never shall make an objection to what is agreeable to you,” said Isabella; “except
I am compelled to the cruel option of chusing between your wishes and your
welfare.”
“Then
the thing is decided,” replied Mr. Willoughby; “for in this case they go
together. The Dunstans shall stay with us.”
“And
Sir Charles Seymour?” said Isabella.
“Oh,
that must be as he likes,” said Mr. Willoughby. “I wish to God I knew how to
show my gratitude for the inestimable blessing he has preserved to me; but his
remaining here would only add to the obligation. Yet he would certainly be a
very agreeable addition to our party, especially as Burghley leaves us
to-morrow; but we can hardly expect that Sir Charles should make us such a
sacrifice.”
“I
really do not see why we should desire it,” replied Isabella; “and I shall be
glad to find that he is not willing to offer it.”
“And
yet you do not seem much to delight in Dunstan,” said Mr. Willoughby.
“I do
not know who does,” replied Isabella. “I should have thought that you would
have found him a very heavy weight in a tęte-ŕ-tęte.”
“I
will take care that we are never reduced to that;” said Mr. Willoughby; “but do
you make nothing of yourself, and Lady Charlotte?”
“You
have given me little cause to depend upon my powers to preserve you from ennui,”
said Isabella, yielding to a sadness of feeling, which at that moment she was
not able to resist.
Mr. Willoughby looked earnestly at her. “Those words are not in your usual spirit,” said he.
“Then,
if they displease you, be kind enough to forget them;” said Isabella.
“I
think you could not mean to reproach me?” said Mr. Willoughby.
“Be
assured that I did not,” said Isabella. “If there be a fault it is
probably mine; and I am sure it was involuntary.”
“But
why so serious? why so sad, my love?” said he.
“Oh,
Willoughby!” cried Isabella; “but forgive me: I would not offend you! I would
not give you pain!”
“Forgive
you!” said Mr. Willoughby; “alas, I fear that I have most cause to ask
forgiveness! but in this embrace,” cried he, clasping her to his heart, “be all
misapprehension forgotten. I know your virtues; be candid to my faults, and I
hope that we shall neither of us have any reason to complain.”
Is it
possible, thought Isabella, that he can at this moment be conscious that he
injures me? Can he premeditately intend to injure me? I will not believe it.
Yet to what a fiery trial does he expose us both!
Isabella,
who was naturally tenacious of her sincerity, would have disdained to have
sacrificed an atom of it to propitiate Lady Charlotte. She did not acknowledge
the necessity of being civil at whatever cost of truth; and she suffered the
arrangement thus notified to her by Mr. Willoughby, as it had been made without
her concurrence, to take place without any observation on her part. She thought
that she read in Lady Charlotte’s countenance when they met, an expectation
that she would speak on the subject: she was but the more disinclined to do so;
and on her continued silence, she saw, not without some degree of triumph and
pleasure, the expectation give place to disappointment and chagrin.
“Have
you seen Willoughby lately?” said Lady Charlotte.
“Yes,”
replied Isabella.
“Then
I suppose you know,—I conclude that he has told you, that he,—that we,—that
you,—in short, my dear creature, I really have been obliged to comply with his
so earnestly urged request, that we will remain here a little longer; indeed I
know it will be the best thing for you both: and I have always told you that
you might command me for any period that you chose. But I did not think Dunstan
would have been prevailed on. Poor creature! he does so long to be amongst his
Lords and his Dukes! but I saw that if we had gone, Willoughby would have gone
too; and whether with or without you, my dear, I can assure you, appeared
problematical; but in either case the ruin would have been complete. You have
not the art of controlling Willoughby’s excursions; the great matter is to keep
him in the country till old habits are a little broken; and you know you are
not to mind us. We will have no more feastings; no second courses; mutton and
potatoes, as I told you before, and a little soup will do as well for four as
two: so it will be all economy, and you and I must do the best we can to make
the time pass easily, if not merrily.”
“Mr.
Willoughby,” said Isabella, “has been so kind as to give me his reasons for
what has been arranged; and I have acquiesced in them. As to the economy of my
family, I hope I shall be able to make it such as Mr. Willoughby will approve.”
“Well,
my dear, you are a good creature, that’s the truth of it,” returned Lady
Charlotte, with a look of contempt; “but I sometimes fancy I can see a little
of the wolf under the sheep’s clothing. I perceive you are resolved not to tell
me you shall be glad of my company.”
“As I
cannot flatter myself that my society has made any part of your motives for
remaining at Eagle’s Crag,” returned Isabella, “you must pardon me, if I do not
trouble you with any opinion as to the effect that yours will have upon me.”
“Oh,
I do assure you,” cried Lady Charlotte, her eyes flashing fire, “that I am
quite indifferent as to any of your opinions. I wrap myself up in my own
integrity; and in the consciousness that under the sanction of your mother and
mine, I am doing the best thing for Willoughby, and of course for you. But what
do you intend to do with Sir Charles? after all your obligations to him, I hope
you design to be a little more civil to him than you are to me?”
“Sir
Charles will do what he best likes with himself,” said Isabella; “and I cannot
suppose that his friendship for Mr. Willoughby will induce him to
rusticate in Westmoreland.”
“Perhaps,”
said Lady Charlotte, with a sneer, “his friendship for you might exact
such a sacrifice; to whom will he delegate the office of shooting red stags for
you, when he is gone? and what will you do without such a valiant defender?”
“When
that becomes the question,” returned Isabella, wholly unmoved, “I shall know
how to reply. As I do not wish any body to sacrifice themselves
for Mr. Willoughby, so I will take care that no body shall sacrifice
themselves for me.”
Lady
Charlotte felt awed by the dignity and spirit with which Isabella spoke:
“Come,
come,” said she, “don’t let you and me quarrel. You know my hot way; but you
know that it is only a flash in the pan, and its all over.”
“I
quarrel with no body,” said Isabella, regardless of Lady Charlotte’s
out-stretched hand; “and I give my friendship only to those I think worthy of
it.” And so saying she quietly withdrew.
“Oh,
now I could destroy her!” said Lady Charlotte. And the words were not uttered
when Sir Charles entered the room.
“Against
whom are you meditating such vengeance?” said he.
“Against
your idol!” returned Lady Charlotte. “That little detestable puritan, Isabella
Willoughby; never, never will I forgive her for bearing that name!”
“I
would I could assist you in making her lose it;” replied Sir Charles; “but the
truth is, it is a little frost piece that there is no melting by kindness. I
frightened myself half out of my wits, in hopes of frightening her out of the
whole of hers; that I might have the merit of rescuing her from a danger of my
own creating. There is not one women in ten who would not have thrown herself
into my arms out of gratitude; for when a man has saved a lady’s life, there is
nothing that she thinks she ought to refuse him. But she thought of nothing but
throwing herself under the feet of the monster to save her boy; and scarcely
seemed to care that her life had not been the sacrifice. She neither fainted,
nor lost her presence of mind; but arose from the ground with all her senses
about her, to question why and how I came there; instead of clinging round me
in fear, or in thankfulness for what I had made her undergo, or for what I had
saved her from.”
“Oh, you made a fine piece of
work there!” said Lady Charlotte; “exalted all her heroic qualities in the eyes
of Willoughby; and even given her a hold upon his imagination, that were it not
for my counter-working, might have been formidable.”
“Well,”
returned Sir Charles, “if she is as cold as ice, she is also as fragile; and who
knows but between us we may reduce her to nothing. I owe her a little ill-will;
if she has not heart to win, she has one to break.”
“Heart!”
returned Lady Charlotte; “she has no heart! with her mincing duties! and
regulated affections! who but she could bear to see Willoughby’s passion for me
with that unmoved countenance and unvarying demeanour? If I could but see her
writhe upon the hook, I should be happy!”
“She
may feel it as acutely, without making faces,” replied Sir Charles; “but I
suspect she does not think so much of resenting the evils as of remedying it.
She may think that the day may at last be her own.”
“She
dare not!” replied Lady Charlotte; “she cannot have the presumption to think
so.”
“Yet
there are symptoms,” replied Sir Charles, “that Willoughby is opening his eyes,
not only to her virtues, but her charms; you have yourself seen them.”
“How
dare you tell me so?” said Lady Charlotte. “Is it not enough that his foolish
prudence robbed me of him as a husband? because, in sooth, I was not gentle,
and meek, and mild enough; that is, not such a hypocrite, as the doll he chose;
but do you so abet her pretensions, as to presume to insinuate that she will be
able to deprive me of him as a lover?”
“I
presume nothing,” said Sir Charles; “but the game is up with us both, if we do
not carry our point by a coup-de-main; if we do not look about us, with
all our activity, the tortoise will win the race.”
“What
more can be done, that we have not done?” said Lady Charlotte. “Have not I been
attacking her with jealousy on one side, and you with adulation on the other,
for this month past? and what have we gained? she neither hates me, nor loves
you; and I verily believe, if I were such a fool, I might run away with
Willoughby, and she not care a pin about the matter.”
“And
I believe it would be the best step you could take to bring about both our
ends,” said Sir Charles. “It is possible that despair and revenge might yield
me that, which I am farther off than ever from being likely to attain by
gentler means.”
“Why
farther off than ever?” returned Lady Charlotte; “surely she is not so little
of a woman, as not to have felt the perpetual immolation of my rights that you
have been making on the altar of her vanity ever since we have been here. Let
me tell you, Seymour, I have found it hard enough to bear, even while it seemed
to forward my own views; but if you have been such a bungler as to have done
all this in vain, there is nothing on earth that I shall hate so much as you,
except that insolent creature who will then triumph over us both.”
“Isabella,”
returned Sir Charles, “has her own point, as well as you and I have ours. This
point is to possess herself of the heart of her husband; and to recall him, as
she would phrase it, from the error of his ways. While any hope of attaining
this point remains, she will neither be turned out of the even path by
jealousy, nor seduced from it by adulation; but despair and resentment may
still be her ruin. The business be yours by some decisive step, to deprive her of
all hope; and leave me to reap the advantage of her anger and desperation; and
then we shall both have what we wish.”
“And
suppose you are so clumsy as not to know how to do so? what will be my
situation? I tell you, Seymour, as I have told you an hundred times, I will not
play the fool for any man that cannot marry me.”
“But
you would jingle your bells for one that could? would you not?” said Sir
Charles.
“I do
not know what I might not be tempted to do, that would rid me of my present
plague. You must confess he grows quite intolerable; and is become so snappish
and authoritative, that if I did not suspend the rod of his papa, the earl,
over his head, there would be no living with him.”
“Why
yes, I do believe you would find Willoughby the gentler ruler of the two,” said
Sir Charles.
“No
doubt!” said Lady Charlotte; “besides, he is not an idiot like Dunstan. I can
speak and be understood. Oh, the misery of being ‘over-mastered by a piece of
valiant dust!’ ‘to make an account of one’s life to a piece of wayward marle!’
and, Oh the folly of our laws that binds me for ever to such servitude, or
presents an alternative that no woman of common sense would pass par lŕ
to her wishes.”
“It
is no part of common sense,” said Sir Charles, “to remain always hesitating;
either forego the chase or seize the prey: why endure the misery you talk of
any longer? the remedy is in your own hands; but you must make the first step:
I will ensure you the second, and the third crowns your wishes.”
“The
first step ought to be yours,” replied Lady Charlotte; “and I despise you for
not having got more secure footing already; and what can you mean by being
father off than ever? I don’t understand you.”
“It
is not necessary that you should,” replied Sir Charles; “but I tell you again,
that the game is up, except you make some decisive step.”
“Well,
something must be done,” said Lady Charlotte; “there is no going on to be
disdained, and triumphed over by a creature that I could crush to atoms any
moment that I please. If she has a heart to break, I will break it, or
compel her to yield the prize for which we have so long contended.”
“Bravely
resolved!” said Sir Charles; “about it then! and victory attend you!”
END
OF VOL. II.
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