SIMPLE FACTS.
VOL. I.
SIMPLE FACTS;
OR, THE
HISTORY OF AN
ORPHAN.
IN TWO VOLUMES.
BY MRS. MATHEWS.
VOL. I.
LONDON:
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1793.
SIMPLE FACTS,
&c.
CHAPTER I.
IN the county of Devon, about two miles from Torrington, lived Mr.
Harcourt, a gentleman of respectable family. He had an estate of about two
hundred a year, which he farmed himself. He married at the age of twenty-two,
the daughter of a neighbouring Clergyman, a very amiable young lady, with no
great fortune, but that Mr. Harcourt did not consider as an object to be put in
competition with the many valuable qualities he discovered in his lovely
Maria:ÑHe had no reason to repent his disinterested choice. The prudence of
Mrs. Harcourt, in the management of their domestic concerns, made ample amends
for the smallness of her fortune. Their mutual attachment encreased with their
years, and they may with propriety, be numbered amongst the favourite few,
ÒWho in each other clasp whatever fair
ÒHigh fancy forms, and lavish hearts can wish.Ó
In
the first two years after their happy union, they were blessed with two sons;
and twelve years after the birth of the youngest, Mrs. Harcourt, was, to the
great surprise of every one, delivered of a daughter, who was named after her
amiable mother. Though Maria came so unexpectedly, she was not the less welcome.
Mrs. Harcourt had long wished for a girl, to complete her happiness, and now
that she was blessed with one, she had not another wish. She considered her
little Maria, as a blessing from heaven to comfort her declining years.ÑHow
little do mortals know the designs of heaven?ÑCould that tender parent, have
foreseen the distresses her beloved child was born to undergo, how different
would have been her feelings? But,
ÒHeaven from all creatures hides the book of fate.Ó
Mr.
Harcourt, had prudently made it a rule from his oeconomy, to lay by a small sum
yearly, for a provision for his second son; and the year before Maria was born,
he purchased a small estate, which was immediately settled on him. He had now
another to provide for; and he chearfully determined to pursue the same plan.
Maria grew a beautiful child, and early discovered uncommon abilities; her
tender mother undertook the delightful task
ÒTo teach the young idea how to shoot.Ó
Mr.
Harcourt, had finished the same charge with his two sons, much to his credit
and satisfaction; they were very fine lads, and appeared to be well disposed.
The youngest, who was now fifteen, he put apprentice to an attorney. His eldest
being comfortably provided for, Maria, remained their only care.
They were under no great apprehension concerning her,
as Mr. Harcourt enjoyed a good state of health, and was not much above forty.
Hope is a powerful passion in the human breast; they fondly looked forward with
pleasing expectation to the time when they should behold their beloved child,
the admiration of all, and the delight and comfort of their old age.
It
is sometimes a misfortune to be too secure. Had Mr. Harcourt experienced some
of those ills, which are the lot of thousands of his fellow creaturesÑHad he
been afflicted with any of those complaints, so incident to human natureÑHe
would not have delayed making that provision for his child; the neglect of
which, exposed her to so many dangers. Such was the happy state, Mr. and Mrs.
Harcourt enjoyed; reflecting on the past, with a satisfaction which none can
feel, but such as make virtue the guide of all their actions; and looking
forward to the future, with the most flattering expectation.ÑWhen Mrs. Harcourt
went one day with her eldest son and little Maria, to pay a visit to Lady
Palmer, who had a seat about two miles from their house; Mr. Harcourt could not
accompany them, having some business to transact, which detained him; but
promised to join them in the evening, and they set out chearfully without him.
They
were received at the Grove with their usual welcome. Lady Palmer had a great
respect for Mrs. Harcourt, and her children were doatingly fond of Maria. They
clung about her, and strove which should shew most attention. They were all
happy; Maria with her play-fellows in the nursery, and Mrs. Harcourt in the
conversation of Lady Palmer, until the hour arrived when Mr. Harcourt promised
to join them. That past, and almost another; but no Mr. Harcourt! Mrs. Harcourt
could no longer conceal her uneasiness. She began to be seriously alarmed, and
expressed her fears to Lady Palmer, that something of a very serious nature
must have happened, or Mr. Harcourt, who was always punctual on the most
trivial occasions, would not, she was certain, have forfeited his word.
Lady
Palmer endeavoured by every possible means to persuade Mrs. Harcourt her fears
were groundless; but to no purpose. She grew more uneasy, until it was resolved
to send her son with one of the servants, to know the cause.
Lady
Palmer, was the widow of Sir Thomas Palmer, who had been dead about two years;
her elder son, the present Sir Thomas, was at this time at Oxford. She had two
other children who were then at home; a daughter, who was about eleven years of
age, and little Charles, who was only nine.
Lady
Palmer, was one of those few amiable women, who after the death of their
husbandÕs, devote the whole of their time to the education of their children.
She lived in a very retired way: Mrs. Harcourt and two or three of her old
friends, were all the visitors she received. Young Harcourt entered the parlour
pale and trembling; Òmy poor fatherÓ said heÑ ÒHeavenly God! preserve him,Ó
cried Mrs. Harcourt! ÒWhat has happened? tell me all?Ó ÒBe not so frightened my
dear motherÓ said he, Òit may not be as we fearÓÑbut on my enquiry at home, the
servants assured me he set out to come to us at the time he appointed; and
coming by the river we found this cane; which, I immediately knew to be my
fatherÕs. ÒOh!Ó cried Mrs. Harcourt, he is then lost! he is gone for ever! and
dropt on the floor. Every means were used to recover her, which for some time,
proved ineffectual, but at last coming a little to herself she exclaimed, Òis
he then lost?Ó and again fainted. Lady Palmer advised young Harcourt to take
some of the servants and search the riverÑand likewise to send people different
ways about the neighbourhood to endeavour to get at the real state of what she
began now to dread to know.
Poor Mrs. Harcourt still continued in a state of
almost insensibilityÑLady Palmer, at her intervals of reason, begged her to
compose herselfÑpressed her to take an apartment in her house; adding, Òif
things should be as we fear, (which heaven forbid) your own, will by no means
be a proper place for you, at least for some time.Ó ÒOh! Lady Palmer,Ó cried
she, wringing her hands, I am in a state of destraction! Òif I have lost my
beloved husband what place will be proper for meÑnone in this worldÑbut let me
entreat your ladyship to send me homeÑI must see him dead, or aliveÑdead! repeated
she, with a wildness in her looks, can I then live, if all I have to live for
is goneÑwhat will become of me?Ó
Lady
Palmer was extremely alarmed at seeing her friend in such distress; begged her
to consider her health, Òif only for the sake of your dear childÓ said she. ÒMy
poor Maria,Ó said Mrs. Harcourt (in a softened tone) Òwhat will become of thee,
if thou hast indeed lost thy father? but pray let me go home; even the
certainty of what I dread, cannot be worse than what I now suffer.Ó
Lady
Palmer then entreated her to leave Maria, which she at last consented to. The
carriage was ordered to be got ready, and Lady PalmerÕs woman to go home with
her. Lady Palmer advised her not to take leave of Maria, as the child would be
frightened to see her in such a distressed state; Òindeed I am distressed,Ó
said she, ÒI am distractedÓÑ ÒOh! cried she, as they were told the carriage was
ready, Òwhat will become of me.Ó
CHAPTER II.
LADY Palmer was deeply affected at her friends distress.ÑShe offered up
a sincere prayer to the Almighty, to comfort her under her sufferingÑand went
to the nursery to poor little Maria. She took the little innocent in her arms,
kissed her, and could scarce conceal the tear which stood in her eye. ÒMy dear
sweet childÓ said she, Òwill you like to stay with your play-fellows, two or
three days? your mama has given me leave to keep you.Ó Maria, answered Òshe
should like it very much; but if her ladyship pleased, she would wish to bid
her mama a good night.Ó Lady Palmer then told her, her mama was gone homeÑshe
stood a few moments in a very thoughtful attitude; at last recollecting
herself, ÒI wonderÓ said she, Òwhat my papa will say, to see my mama without
me.Ó Lady Palmer turned her head to wipe her eyes. Miss Palmer and little Charles,
were delighted to have their favourite some days. It was settled for Maria to
sleep with Miss Palmer. Lady Palmer embraced themÑwished them a good nightÑand
returned to the parlour full of anxiety, for her womanÕs return. She soon
entered the room. ÒOh! my Lady,Ó said Mrs. Harris, Òsuch a scene of distress at
poor Mrs. HarcourtÕs.Ó ÒIt is then as I fearedÓ said Lady Palmer; Òbut let me
know the particulars.Ó Mrs. Harris then told her, that Mrs. Harcourt supported
herself pretty well, till the carriage came within sight of the house. Then on
seeing such a number of people about the door, she screamed out, that all was
lost. Her dear husband was brought home dead; Òher fears were too true,Ó
continued Mrs. Harris, Òfor on searching the river, Mr. HarcourtÕs body was
found, and on examining the bank, they discovered the place where his foot had
slipt.Ó Poor Mrs. Harcourt was taken out of the carriage quite insensible, and
carried to her apartment. Doctor Johnson, who happened to be amongst the number
of spectators, had ordered her a composing draught but she very much feared it
would answer no purpose, as she did not think Mrs. Harcourt could live.
ÒHer
two sons are nearly in as bad a stateÓ said Mrs. Harris, ÒPoor Henry the
youngest, is laying over the body of his father, and raving like a distracted
creature: his brother seems in a state of stupid dejection. I desired Dr.
Johnson to call here in the morning, as I concluded your ladyship would wish to
know how Mrs. Harcourt did.Ó ÒYou did very right,Ó answered Lady Palmer, deeply
affected with the distressing scene her woman had described. ÒPoor Mrs.
HarcourtÑhow I pity herÑwho but a few hours ago, was one of the happiest of
women; the Almighty will, I hope, give her fortitude to support this great
trial. Poor little Maria, a beautiful girl only eight years old, to be left at
the mercy of a brotherÑto lose her father, and perhaps her mother, who adored
her! who watched every turn of her growing genius, to find out where to
improve, or where to check.Ó
Mrs.
Harris put her lady in mind of the hour, and advised her to go to rest; she
retiredÑbut not to sleepÑher thoughts were too much taken up with the sorrows
of her friend to admit of any. She rose earlier than usual the next morning and
went to the nursery. She was surprised to find the young people up and dressed;
the thoughts of their new companion had awakened them. She found them in high
spirits. She embraced them all tenderlyÑbut when she took Maria in her arms,
she could not conceal the tear which started in her eyes; which Maria
perceiving exclaimed ÒMy dear Lady Palmer, you weep, and it seems about meÑwhat
have I done? I shall be very unhappy indeed, if I have been so unfortunate as
to have offended you:Ó and burst into tears. Lady PalmerÕs tears flowed now
without restraint. She pressed Maria to her bosom; ÒYou sweet innocentÓ said
she, Òyou have never offended me, be not alarmed.Ó By this time her companions
began to share in the distress of Maria and their mama. Little Charles took
Maria by the hand, ÒOh?Ó mama said he, ÒI cannot bear to see Miss Harcourt
weep, indeed I cannot; it makes me weep too.Ó Lady Palmer felt extremely
distressed how to act, she thought it would be proper, to prepare her for the
sad news; yet feared to shock her sensibility, of which she appeared to have an
uncommon share, for one of her years. ÒYou must not be frightened at what I am
going to sayÓÑ Òbut I am told your papa is very ill, and you know he may die:
if he should, you must not make yourself more uneasy than you can possibly
help; as God Almighty acts in those cases as he thinks best; and we must all
submit to his will, or we cannot be considered as christians. You see, my dear,
your companions have lost their papa, and they are not unhappy.Ó Maria now
sobbed, as if her little heart would breakÑ Òbut my papaÓ said she, when she
was able to speak, Òhas always been so kind and good to me, I am sure I cannot
live if he should die.Ó
Lady
Palmer after endeavouring to convince her of the impropriety of such a thought,
left her with her companions, who joined in her grief.
CHAPTER III.
DOCTOR Johnson was soon announced, he gave a most alarming account of
Mrs. HarcourtÕs state; declared it was his opinion, that if she survived, it
would be with the loss of her reasonÑbut added, a few days will determine her
case. ÒNever,Ó said the Doctor, Òdid I behold such a distressing scene. Poor
Mrs. Harcourt is really distracted, her second son almost in the same state,
and the eldest melancholy; the poor labourers all lamenting the loss of a good
masterÑindeed I have not seen one soul who is not affected at the news of poor
HarcourtÕs death.Ó
ÒHis
poor daughter,Ó said Lady Palmer, Òwill, I fear be the greatest sufferer; I
very much fear she is totally unprovided for.Ó ÒGood God!Ó said Dr. Johnson,
ÒMr. Harcourt cannot surely have neglected so material a business as taking
care of his child: but his death being premature, may in some measure excuse
such a neglect. Joseph seems to be a good lad, but it is hard to be a dependant
on a brother.Ó Lady Palmer entreated he would call every day to acquaint her
with the state of Mrs. HarcourtÕs health, which he promised to do, and took his
leave.
She
now acquainted Maria in the tenderest manner possible, with the death of her
father. She was deeply affected with the loss, but after the first transports
of her grief had a little subsided, she supported her sorrow with a fortitude,
superior to her years; which gave Lady Palmer a high opinion of her
understanding. She expressed a great desire to see her mama; but on Lady
PalmerÕs assuring her she should, as soon as her mama was in a state proper to
receive herÑshe readily submitted.
Mrs.
Harcourt remained four days totally insensible; her fever was so high, that Dr.
Johnson declared there must be a change in a few hours. In the evening she fell
into a deep sleep, and continued in it twelve hours. The Doctor waited with
great impatience for her awaking, in hopes of a favourable turn; he was not
disappointed. When Mrs. Harcourt awoke, she lay a few minutes as if just
recovered from a trance: she looked round, and on seeing the Doctor, who stood
by the bed-side, without attempting to speak, till he saw what state she was
inÑshe exclaimed, with her hands and eyes lifted up, ÒGod Almighty is just! I
have deserved all that has befallen me. I have, Doctor Johnson,Ó said she, Òfor
twenty years past been so happy, I had almost forgot I was mortal; I even dared
to measure out the length of that happiness to a period, when I vainly imagined
I should sink with my beloved husband gradually to the grave; after
experiencing nothing but the blessings of this life. Wretch, that I was, what
right had I to expect, to be exempt from the distresses my fellow creatures are
subject to?Ó The Doctor begged she would not talk, or she would hurt her
health; she answered she was perfectly composed, ÒNothing can now change the
state my mind is in, I am so thoroughly convinced of the justness of my
suffering; I shall never utter another complaint, but be thankful to the
Almighty for the many years of uninterrupted happiness, I have enjoyed.Ó
The
Doctor was very much surprised to see her so calm; he offered her some
refreshments, which she consented to take. She enquired after her children, but
expressed no desire to see them. ÒThis fatal blow, Dr. JohnsonÓ said she, Òhas
taught me a lesson I have never till now known; which is, not to be too much
devoted to any thing in this world. I have had more than my share of the
comforts, blessings I may say, of this world; it was time for me to experience
the reverse, which I hope I shall support as becomes a christian.Ó The Doctor
again repeated his request, that she would not fatigue her spirits by talking
too much; she promised to obey him, and he took his leave.
Lady
Palmer was very happy when Dr. Johnson acquainted her Mrs. Harcourt had
recovered her reason. The doctor being fearful she might fall into a state of
stupid insensibility, advised Lady Palmer as soon as the funeral was over, to
take Maria to her, in order to awaken her attention, which she agreed to do.
Maria and little Charles then entered the room, she ran to Dr. Johnson, with a
face expressive of the greatest anxiety, to enquire after her mama, and
brothers, the tears ready to start from her eyes. He took her by the hand, and
assured her, her mama was a great deal better, and that she should see her in a
day or two, and her brothers were pretty well. She sighedÑ ÒGod bless and
protect you, sweet innocentÓ said he, ÒI wish you may not be the greatest
sufferer.Ó ÒBut Miss Harcourt shall not suffer,Ó cried little Charles; Òyou
know Mama when I am seventeen, I shall go to India to my uncle, the
GovernorÑwhere I shall make a great fortune, and I will give the half of it to
her:ÓÑ Òdo not cry, Miss Harcourt,Ó said he, taking her hand, ÒI cannot bear to
see you.Ó Lady Palmer looked at the doctor; her countenance expressed the
satisfaction she felt at her sonÕs generous sentimentsÑshe took him in her
arms, and kissed him.ÑHer feeling can only be conceived by a tender parent.
The
day came, on which Maria was to be taken to her mama; her companions shed tears
at parting. When Lady Palmer entered the room where Mrs. Harcourt was sitting,
she was, notwithstanding what Dr. Johnson had said, greatly surprised to see
her so composed. They embraced each other in silenceÑ ÒI have brought Maria to
see you,Ó said Lady Palmer, Òbless my child,Ó said sheÑand ordered the nurse to
bring her upÑon her entering the room she run and fell on her knees;Ñ ÒOh! my
dear mama!ÓÑwas all she could utter.ÑMrs. Harcourt now began to discover some
signs of returning sensibility: the tears which had for some days forsaken her
eyes, now began to flow.ÑShe pressed her child to her bosom, when she was a
little recoveredÑ ÒCall my sons,Ó said she, to the nurse,Ñthey entered the room
with dejected looks.Ñ ÒJoseph,Ó said she, taking him by the hand, and putting
one of MariaÕs into the otherÑ Òbehold your childÑyou my dear children,Ó
addressing her sons, Òhave had the blessing of both your parents to watch over,
and instruct your youth: you are at present such as I wish you to beÑcontinue
the same, and you will be an ornament to society, and reflect honour to the
memory of your dear deceased father. But this dear child, has too early lost
one parent; and God only knows, how soon she may be deprived of both. I
therefore commit her to your protection, and as you act by her, so may the
Almighty deal with you.Ó
This
solemn speech, struck them so powerfully, it was some time before there was any
reply made to itÑthe brothers at the same instant fell on their knees; vowed
solemnly, Maria should never have cause to complain of them. Joseph assured his
mother he would pursue the plan his dear father had adopted of laying by a sum
yearly for her, until she was of age. Mrs. Harcourt was very well satisfied
with her sonÕs behaviour, embraced them, and they took their little sister in
their arms and kissed her, with great affection. Lady Palmer, who was equally
pleased and affected with this tender scene, now began to hope MariaÕs case was
not so bad as she had feared. She concluded, Mrs. Harcourt would be the better
of a little rest, got up to take her leave; she asked if she should take Maria
back to the Grove. ÒNo, my Lady,Ó replied Mrs. Harcourt, ÒI will have her with
me whilst I am in this world; it may not be longÑand then my Maria will stand
much in need of such a kind friend to guide her young mind.Ó ÒLet me entreat
you to think otherwise,Ó said Lady Palmer, Òyou will I hope, live to see her
happy beyond the reach of fortune.Ó Mrs. Harcourt sighed, and shook her head;
but continued Lady Palmer, Òshould she, which Heaven forbid, ever stand in need
of my assistance, I shall ever be ready and willing to give it;Ó and then took
her leave.
CHAPTER IV.
MRS. Harcourt seemed every day to recover more tranquillity: she was
soon able to take short airings in Lady PalmerÕs carriage, which was every day
sent to take her out. But her health had received such a visible shock from the
late accident, that she grew extremely thin, and had entirely lost her
appetite; and though she appeared calm, and sometimes rather chearful, it was
very evident her mind was but ill at ease.
She
paid more than common attention to the improvement of MariaÕs mindÑshe set
forth in the strongest colours, the advantages derived from an early attention
to piety and morality. ÒLet nothing, my dear child,Ó said she, Òtempt you to do
a mean ungenerous action, or to deviate from the strict rule of propriety;
remember thisÑthat vice, however it may deceive you by appearance, is always
attended with misery.
ÒTo be good is to be happy.
ÒAngels are happier than us; because
ÒThey are better.Ó
One
thing, Mrs. Harcourt charged her particularly to observe; Òwhen you grow up,Ó
said she, Òmake this a rule; whatever you observe in the behaviour of your
companions, that does not exactly agree with your own idea of right,
impartially examine yourselfÑand you will perhaps find on a strict scrutiny,
you have some time or other been guilty of the same fault; if you have the
pleasure to find yourself free, this will imprint it so strongly in your mind,
that you will be in no danger of falling into the same error.Ó Such were the
instructions Mrs. Harcourt gave her beloved daughter, and Maria lost not a
wordÑshe treasured them in her heart¾and determined,
whatever was her lot, never to deviate from them.
Mrs.
Harcourt grew every day weaker, and on consulting Dr. Johnson, he discovered
she was in a deep decline, and that it was not in the power of medicine to save
her. She called her son Joseph to her, one day, and said, Òmy dear son, I find
my dissolution fast approaching: indeed, there is nothing to induce me to wish
to live, only if it had pleased the Almighty to have spared me till my poor
Maria was provided for. But his will be done;¾Òyou will, I make no doubt, be a kind father to
herÓÑJoseph was really affected at his motherÕs words; assured her, Maria
should be his sole care.
She
then sent for her sister, Mrs. Young, and after acquainting her with the state
of her health, and the natural consequences which must soon followÑshe
consulted with her concerning the disposal of Maria after her death. It was at
last determined that she should board with her aunt, and go to school with her
children. Mrs. Young was married to a linen draper, at Torrington, she had four
children, two sons and two daughters; the youngest of whom was the same age of
Maria, but very different both in person and disposition.
Mrs.
Harcourt having settled this important business, now turned her thoughts wholly
on her approaching fate, which she met with a calmness, that shewed she rather
wished than feared to die. This second shock, which happened about twelve
months after the death of Mr. Harcourt, was too much for MariaÕs tender
natureÑshe was in hysteric fits for some days, and her life was despaired of.
After every means had been used to reconcile her, to no purpose, Lady Palmer
entreated Mrs. Young to let her pass a few days at the Grove, adding, Òthe
society of her old companions might divert her melancholy.Ó Mrs. Young agreed
to the proposal, and Maria went home with Lady Palmer.
From
the attention she received at the Grove, she by degrees recovered her health.
Little Charles strove by every possible means to amuse her; and when he could
not succeed, lessened her sorrows by sharing themÑhis sympathetic soul joined
in her distress; which she perceiving, would often conceal, for fear of giving
him pain; thus by assuming a chearfulness, she soon became really soÑMrs. Young
came for her, this was another trial to Maria, but she knew, she must submit,
and therefore determined to do it with a good grace. She summoned all her
resolution, and thanked Lady Palmer with great composure for her kindness, but,
when she took leave of her young friends, her fortitude forsook her, they were
all in tears.ÑLady Palmer entreated Mrs. Young to let her pass the holidays at
the Grove, which she consented to, and they took their leave.
Maria
was received by her uncle and cousins with great pleasure, they at first shewed
her every kind of attention, and Mrs. Young took a pleasure in hearing her
praised. But her youngest daughter soon discovered a jealousy at her superior
abilities, which she considered as a reproach to herself, and therefore
conceived a violent hatred against her. She practised all those mean
insinuations which little minds are capable of, to prejudice her father and
mother against herÑand Maria saw with sorrow her arts succeed, but too well.
She soon discovered the progress she made in learning, which instead of gaining
her the approbation she hoped to receive, would gain nothing but some
ill-natured sarcasm, such as, ÒAy to be sure, you are cleverer than any body.Ó
This affected her exceedingly, her situation became very uncomfortable, but she
thought the most prudent method would be to bear it without complaint, as those
little disagreeables would make her brothers unhappy without answering any
other purpose. She mourned in secret the loss of her tender parentsÑthe only
comfort she ever enjoyed was in the holidays, which she always spent at the
GroveÑMaria had spent two years in this unhappy state, when Lady Palmer fancied
she saw a settled dejection on her countenance, and kindly enquired if she was
happy. She answered, Òshe was as happy as she could expect to be, without a
parent.Ó This negative kind of reply, and the dejection which accompanied her
words, Lady Palmer was by no means satisfied with; she concluded Maria was not
so well treated as she could wish, and therefore determined to get at the
truth, as she loved her, both for her own sake and her motherÕs. She again
repeated the question, respecting her happiness, and got nearly the same
answer.ÑShe took MariaÕs hand, Òmy dear childÓ said she, ÒI think you have no
reason to doubt but I have a sincere regard for you, to suppose I should ask
questions merely out of idle curiosity; I very much fear you are not happy;
tell me truly, are you kindly treated? and be assured of this, if I cannot
serve you, I will do you no injuryÓÑMaria bust into tears, Lady Palmer, pressed
her to answer herÑ ÒI must not my dear Lady PalmerÓ said she, Òexpect to be so
happy who have no parent as those who haveÑhow can I suppose, but my aunt will
be fonder of her own children than of meÑI have nothing material to complain
of, but I confess I every day feel more sensibly the loss of my dear motherÑOh!
Lady Palmer! what a sad thing it is for a young girl to lose her mother.Ó Lady
Palmer thought it unnecessary to enquire farther into the cause of MariaÕs
dejection, she could easily judge the rest. She began to consider how she could
serve her. She consulted Miss Palmer, and they determined to take her wholly to
live at the Grove. ÒShe can attend,Ó said Lady Palmer, Òwhilst the Governess
gives you lessons in French and GeographyÑand to music and dancing from the
masters who come twice a week to instruct you. By that means she will save her
brother Joseph, the expence of her board and schooling, which will be a
sufficient inducement for him to consent to the change, and I shall have the
satisfaction of seeing her happy.Ó
CHAPTER V.
LADY Palmer lost no time to put her scheme in
execution. She sent for Mr. Harcourt, and acquainted him it was her wish to
have Maria wholly at the GroveÑbut concealed from him the idea she had of her
being uncomfortable; Joseph very readily consented to her proposals; indeed, he
was rejoiced to have his sister taken, as he thought, off his hands. He had,
after the death of his mother, taken a farmerÕs daughter to superintend his
house, a girl of no education, and very few natural abilities; however, she had
a very pretty face, and a great deal of artful insinuation, which prevailed
with JosephÑhe in a short time after Maria was settled at the Grove, to the
great surprise of every one, married her. This gave Maria great uneasiness; she
had flattered herself her brotherÕs house would prove a comfortable asylum to
her when she grew up; her hopes on that score were now entirely lost. Her
brother Henry now remained her only hope; he had just finished the term of his
apprentiship with great repute, and was advised to settle at Bath. Before he
set out, he came to the Grove to take leave of his sister, of whom he was
always very fond. He expressed in the strongest terms his disapprobation of his
brotherÕs conduct; assured Maria, she should never want a protector whilst he
lived; that when he was settled, if she liked it, she should come to him, and
if he should marry, it should be such a woman as would love and be kind to his
sister.
He
then paid his respects to Lady Palmer; took an affectionate leave of Maria, and
set out for Bath. Maria seriously lamented parting with her brother, he was the
only relation she had, who for some time past had paid any attention to her;
and now he had left the country, she very much feared he would soon forget her.
She
applied herself with uncommon assiduity, to those improvements which she hoped
might prove of advantage to her. She was soon able to speak French pretty well,
and write it grammatically; her genius received no check; her companions were
too liberal minded to entertain any of those little jealousies, which had
caused her so much uneasiness at her auntÕs; they all took a pleasure in
instructing her; Charles was her writing master, a task he undertook with great
pleasure, and Maria felt no less in studying under so agreeable a master: her
happiness received a check when he was sent to school at Exeter; however, as he
always passed the holidays at home, she consoled herself in his absence, with
the pleasing expectation of seeing him soon again; and in the mean time, strove
to improve in her studies, in hopes of surprising him with the progress she had
made during his absence. Charles had the same motive for emulation; he had
always his Maria before himÑand his constant thoughts were how he should merit
her approbation. Thus they imperceptably formed each otherÕs mind; and their
little hearts were united, before either of them were sensible they had one.
One
thing surprised Maria exceedingly, which she endeavoured in vain to account
for;ÑCharles and his sister met, and parted with such indifferenceÑshe observed
his sister never shed tears at parting, or seemed to feel that tender emotion
at his return, which she was so sensible of Ñ Òit is strange,Ó said she to
herself, that his mother and sister should not love him better than I
do!ÓÑthere was only one way she could reconcile this. ÒMiss Palmer never knew
what it was to be unhappy; she has always had a tender mother to comfort and
cherish her;Ñtherefore, she is unacquainted with those emotions which arise
from kindness, shewn on such occasions. I should be very ungrateful indeed, if
I did not love CharlesÑhow kind he was to me when I lost my dear mama!Ó This
seemed clearly to account to her why she felt more for him than his sister, and
so far from conceiving there could be an impropriety, she thought it would be
next to impiety not to adore him.
ÒBy what thin spun threads, our affections are
wove together.Ó
She
often regretted he was not indeed her brother.
CHAPTER VI.
SIR Thomas Palmer having finished his studies, left Oxford, and set out
on the tour of Europe; Charles who was now fifteen, was taken from his school
at Exeter, and sent to that UniversityÑwhen he returned at the vacation, he had
acquired such a manly appearance, as struck Maria with uncommon emotion; when
he, all animation, seized her handÑshe blushed and an unusual trembling seized
her, she found it impossible to appear easyÑan involuntary sigh escaped her.
Charles, as if he had caught the infection, turned pale, he fancied she
received him with too much indifferenceÑand endeavoured in vain to account for
this change: he grew thoughtful, he shuddered at the idea of having offended
her.ÑHe examined himself with the most scrutinising attention, to find out if
he had imperceptibly imbibed any of those follies so frequently learnt at the
University. ÒPerhaps,Ó said he, ÒI have been so unfortunate, instead of
attaining accomplishments which I flattered myself would render me more
agreeable to herÑonly to have acquired some disagreeable manner which is
disgusting; if so, how shall I regret ever going to Oxford. But how is Maria
changed! if that is the case, how freely did she use to tell me of any action
she thought wrong, and how readily did I attend to her.Ó
Thus
with doubts and perplexities did Charles rack his imagination, to account for
this change, which gave him so much uneasiness. Maria was far from being easy;
her rest was disturbed; Charles occupied her thoughts more than ever, yet she
could less support his presenceÑwhenever she caught his eye, she would blush
and turn away, as if she had committed a fault. A sigh from him, upbraided her
for her cruelty.
This
was all strange to Maria, she could not find out the cause of her extraordinary
conduct; and more extraordinary sensationsÑthe real cause never once entered
her head. She had, indeed, heard of love, but had formed no idea how it
affectsÑshe saw Charles uneasy, and fancied it was at her strange behaviour.
ÒMy God!Ó said she, Òwhat shall I do?Ñhow shall I act?Ñought I to make him
unhappy, who has almost from my infancy shared in my sorrows, and greatly
alleviated them.ÑShe determined to appear as chearful and easy as possible to
him in company with his mother and sister; but she studiously avoided being
alone with him.
Charles,
who watched every look of Maria, felt greatly revived at this favourable
change; he began to flatter himself, whatever was the cause of her reserve at
their first meeting, he should soon recover her good opinion, and only wished
for an opportunity of a conversation with her, to remove any little prejudice
which he fancied she had formed to his disadvantage; but he found it no easy
matter to get such an opportunity, as Maria, as carefully strove to avoid it.
Fortunately, for him, the family received an invitation to dine where Maria was
not asked; Charles pleaded indisposition for not accompanying them, and had the
pleasure to find he should dine with Maria alone.
This
was the very height of his wish, how did he long for the hour,Ñhow tedious was
the time until the bell summoned them to the dining parlour; Maria felt strange
emotions at the thoughts of being alone with Charles, she trembledÑshe
blushedÑshe could not tell whyÑshe wished to look better than usual, and spent
more time in dressing that morning than common.
The
signal Charles had so impatiently expected, at length arrived; they both
blushed, and looked extremely confused. Whilst the servants continued in the
room, they talked on indifferent things; but as soon as the cloth was taken
away and the servants gone, they were both silent.
Maria,
after setting a little time, made an effort to retire. Charles now started and
caught her hand, Òam I then become so very disagreeable,Ó said he, Òthat Maria
cannot sit in the same room with me,Ñlet me entreat you, at least to condescend
so far as to acquaint me, wherein I have been so unfortunate as to offend you,
unless you wish to see me unhappy.Ó He ceased to speak; he had still hold of
her hand; she trembledÑhis looks were expressive of the tenderest anxiety; it
is difficult to say, whether hope or fear was most predominant in his heart.
ÒOffend
me, Mr. Palmer,Ó said Maria, Òno, indeed, you have never offended meÑI do not
think it is in your nature to offend any one.Ó Charles felt a little revived at
these wordsÑ Òthen let me conjure you to tell me why this change in your
behaviourÑwhy Mr. Palmer,Ñam I not the same Charles as ever?ÓÑMaria sighedÑ
ÒOh, Maria,Ó continued he, if you knew what I have suffered from your cold
reserve, you would not keep me in suspense; but freely tell me, what part of my
conduct is disagreeable to you, that I might endeavour to become every thing
you could wish.Ó ÒI think,Ó said Maria, Òyou are such as the most sanguine of
your friends must approve. ButÑ Òbut what, MariaÑOh, do not chill my very
soul,Ñwhat is the approbation of my friends, no! it is your good opinion alone
must make me happy: if I no longer have the pleasure to find my improvements,
as I hoped they were, prove agreeable to Maria, I have no motive to continue
themÑto what purpose should I labour for accomplishments, if I have lost the
end I flattered myself would recompense meÓÑGood God! what would you have me
say?Ó said she, Òif my poor approbation will afford you any pleasure, I will
not withhold itÑyou are every thing I could wish to see in a beloved brother.Ó
Charles kissed her hand and pressed it to his heart, with a rapture which
surprized her. She was still more sensible of the impropriety of being familiar
with him. ÒBut,Ó continued she, a deep blush overspreading her face, Òthe same
familiarities now, which in our childhood appeared innocent, would, in my
opinion, be deemed improper; and you would not, I am sure, wish me to do any
thing improper.Ó ÒOh! my dear Maria,Ó exclaimed Charles, ÒIf to love your
Charles with the same warmth of affection he does you, is an impropriety, I am
the most miserable of beings.ÓÑ ÒLove,Ó cried Maria, starting, and endeavouring
to withdraw her hand;Ñ ÒYes, my sweet girl,Ó answered he, ÒI have long
endeavoured to deceive myself, with an idea that it was only a strong
friendship which had united, I hope our hearts, but I find friendship too cool
a phrase to express what I feel; it must be, then loveÑthe most pureÑthe most
tender, and disinterested, that ever possessed the human breast, and only wants
the assurance of a mutual return to make me the happiest of mortalsÑ ÒWhat ails
my Maria!Ó observing the colour forsake her cheek, and her hand turn cold, ÒI
have said too much,ÓÑMaria faintedÑhe caught her in his arms, and used every
method to recover her, without calling the servant; in a little time she
revived.
She
begged he would permit her to retire to her room, as her spirits were very much
flurriedÑhe pressed her hand to his lipsÑ ÒWill my dear Maria allow me to hope
what I have ventured to disclose, is not disagreeable to her,ÓÑshe sighed,Ñ ÒI
wish,Ó said she, Òwe may not both be unhappy;Ó she promised to return to tea,
and left the room. When Maria reached her room, a flood of tears came to her
assistance, which greatly relieved her: ÒThenÓ said she, Òthis is love, which I
have so long felt, and I am beloved by Charles, why then should I feel unhappy?
he is amiable as lovely,Ó a thought of Lady Palmer came across herÑshe
trembledÑ ÒAh! what will be the consequence if Lady Palmer should discover our
attachment, she had, no doubt, higher expectations for her sonÑI am a poor
unprovided orphanÑshe is my only friendÑno, I must not think of Charles,
otherwise than a dear brother; it will surely be no crime to love him as such,
he has always loved me better than either of my brothers; yes, I will always
love him as such, and I will persuade him to think of me in the light of a
sister.Ó These were MariaÕs refections when she was called to tea, Charles took
her hand and led her to her chair: after tea, he, respectfully taking her hand,
said, ÒWill my sweet Maria forgive me if I repeat the question which she left
unanswered?Ó she blushed, ÒThere isÓ said she, Òbut one way that I can dare
venture to say I can love youÓÑOh! cried he, Òname it: whatever it is, I shall
be satisfied, if I am only assured I am so happy as to be beloved by my
Maria.ÓÑ ÒI will,Ó said she, Òpromise to love you as long as I liveÓÑCharles
fell on his knees, ÒThank you my sweet angelÓ said heÑ ÒButÓ continued she Òit
must be as a brotherÓÑ ÒA brother!Ó exclaimed heÑ Òno, my Maria, I cannot think
of you in that light; my love is of a very different nature from that of a
brother.Ó ÒWhy,Ó said Maria, Òwill you deprive me the only pleasure I could
ever promise myselfÑI never dare think of you, but in that lightÑI am a poor
orphan, who have nothing to entitle me to you: even though you are so
disinterested, your friends will despise me; and I should be very unhappy
indeed, if I were to offend Lady Palmer, she has been so kind to me.Ó ÒDo not
cried he, interrupting her, let such thoughts give you a momentÕs concernÑyou
will be an ornament to any family; mine are, I am persuaded, too sensible of
your worth, to object to youÑyou areÑyou must be adored by all who know you:
but should they, from interested motives, endeavour to prevent our happiness, I
shall no longer consider myself as bound to abandon mine to such mercenary
views. I shall go to India, there to make my own fortune, which I shall have an
undoubted right to dispose of as I shall think properÑto make my Maria happy!
Oh, my love, with what pleasure shall I bear every fatigue, with a prospect of
such a reward? how, with your dear image ever before me, shall I double my
honest endeavours to shorten the tedious absence. But nothing shall ever induce
me to leave England until I am well assured of your affections. If you refuse
me thatÑwhat is the riches of the East to me? Let those seek them, whose
selfish minds can find pleasure in wealth alone; any little corner of the earth
will suffice me; there is an end of my ambitious views, all my romantic hopes
of happiness must for ever banish, if you deny me a place in your heart.Ó
He
took her hand, and was going to press her to make him happy, by confessing a
partiality, when the carriage stopped at the door with her mother and sisterÑ
Òhow unfortunate,Ó said he, Òbut, Oh!Ñsay, am I to expect happiness, or eternal
misery.ÓÑ ÒGod send,Ó said Maria, Òyou may be as happy as I wish you.Ó Lady and
Miss Palmer now entered the room.
CHAPTER VII.
MARIAÕS mind was now occupied by a variety of ideas
all new to her, that Charles loved her with the purest, and sincerest
affection, she made no doubtÑthat she was no less attached to him was equally
clear; her heart, in spite of all the difficulties her reason suggested,
exulted in the prospect of her future happinessÑthe fear of offending Lady
Palmer gradually diminished, and all other difficulties with it. All were
trifling, when placed in competition with her Charles.ÑShe regretted the
lowness of her situation; and for the first time in her life, wished for
riches.
Novice,
as Charles was, in affairs of love, he began to entertain favourable presages
from MariaÕs behaviour:Ñhe now no longer supposed the reserve which had so much
alarmed him, proceeded from dislike, but the effects of a growing passion,
which she was herself insensible of. He determined not to shock her delicacy by
pressing his passion too precipitately, but trust to some favourable juncture
to discover what he so much wished to know;Ñhe therefore treated Maria with the
tenderest respect, but did not seek earnestly for an opportunity to renew the
subject, which had been interrupted by the arrival of his mother.
Three
days had elapsed since Charles had declared the state of his heart.ÑWhen Lady
Palmer had some company, Maria was not disposed for any societyÑher heart was
too full of what had lately passed between her and Charles. Seeing them all
pretty much engaged, she slipped out and strolled into the garden, there to
indulge her reflections.ÑShe got to an arbour, and run over in her thoughts the
hopes and fears which naturally arise in a susceptible mind, in such a
perplexed situation.ÑShe exclaimed aloud, ÒMy God! why am I not more deserving,
or he less amiable?ÓÑCharles that instant entered the arbour, and throwing
himself at her feet, ÒWho,Ó cried he, Òthat was less amiable, could dare ever
to indulge a hope to possess so much perfection. Oh! my Maria, if I may presume
to flatter myself, your last words alluded to me, I am the happiest of beings.Ó
ÒI
could not,Ó said she, a little recovered from her confusion, Òhave supposed you
capable of such an action, as to surprise me thus:ÓÑ ÒDo not,Ó said he, Òmy
dearest life, regret having made me happy. It was chance alone which kindly
directed my steps hither: I came merely to indulge my reflection, on the most
perfect of the Creation.ÑI came, O! Heavens! just in time to hear, that already
more that human voice declare a wish, she was still more deservingÑcould I then
resist the sound; no, I must be indeed more or less than human, if I had:Ñnever
shall you have cause to accuse Providence for this happy removal of my
fearsÑonly assure me I was the subject of your thoughts, when I entered the
arbour.Ó ÒTo be sure,Ó said she, with great simplicity, ÒYou could not surely
believe I thought of any one else.ÓÑ ÒBless you, my angel,Ó cried he, in
extacy,Ñ ÒOh! I am the happiest of human beings; now fortune, I defy all thou
canst do! My Maria has confessed herself mine, what more can I ask?Ó
ÒAh,Ó
said she, ÒCharles, if your happiness depended wholly on me, you would have
nothing to fearÑbut I still tremble, when I think on Lady Palmer, and your
other friends; you know I am no way intitled to such an alliance.Ó ÒDo not,Ó
said he, Òlet me entreat you not to torment yourself with these unnecessary
fears; you know my resolution; should they be so cruel as to wish to separate
us, I shall no longer consider them as friends; let us, my love, endeavour to
keep our attachment a secret, until I return from India, when I hope I shall be
in a situation to declare my love, and boldly assert my independence.Ó
Maria
saw the propriety of this request; all reserve would have been now affectation;
they exchanged mutual vows of everlasting love, and looked forward to the time
when Charles would return with riches and honorÑwith an unbounded confidence in
each other.
Providence,
fortunately for youth, so ordaineth, that they shall only view the best side of
thingsÑor where would be that commendable spirit for emulationÑthat noble
thirst for glory, were their generous minds damped by the many and probable
chances there are against their success. The misfortunes of others, which every
day present themselves to their view, no way affect their aspiring
genius;Ñhope, kindly takes them by the hand, and leads them on with fair
promises, that they shall escape such dangers.
Charles
set out for Oxford, happy in the certainty of his MariaÕs affections; and she
was no less so, with the idea of being beloved by the most amiable of
youthsÑshe trusted to that Power, who knew the purity of their hearts, to
protect them for each other. Four years of MariaÕs life had passed at the
Grove, in peace and happiness; the only thing which gave her uneasiness, was the
indifference her brother Joseph had lately treated her with: his wife had never
been received at the Grove, which did not a little hurt her pride; and add to
the dislike she evidently shewed, whenever Maria went to pay her respects to
her brother. Mrs. Harcourt never failed to wound her sensibility, by some
ill-natured sarcasmÑas Òsuch a fine lady as youÓ or ÒI hope Lady Palmer intends
to provide for you, since she has brought you up such a fine lady.Ó
Maria,
with sorrow, saw her brother but too much inclined to join with his wife; her
visits therefore became seldom and short. Her brother Henry wrote to her
frequently; his letters were dictated with all the affection of a tender
brother, to a much loved sister. In his last, which she received soon after Charles
set out for Oxford, he acquainted her with his marriage to a young lady of a
respectable family at BathÑthat he was comfortably settledÑand if she should
ever want a home, begged she would consider his house as such; as he should
never forget the promise he had made to his dear deceased mother.
Maria
at the same time received one from his wife, expressing pretty much the same
sentiments; she shewed them both to Lady Palmer, who, to her great
astonishment, expressed much joy at the prospect she had of a comfortable home,
at her brother HenryÕs. ÒYou will, my dear,Ó said her ladyship, Òfind Bath a
most agreeable place; and under the protection of your brother, and your own
prudent conduct, you cannot fail of being soon well settled.Ó
This
speech from Lady Palmer, struck Maria motionless; she had long considered
herself one of the family; every part of which was dear to her. Lady Palmer,
observing her confusion, said, Òyou must, my dear, suppose both myself and
Mary, will greatly regret the loss of so amiable a companion; but your leaving
us, will, I hope, be to your own advantage; your brother is in a respectable
lineÑhe will introduce you into genteel company, and let me assure you, there
is nothing in this world would give me more pleasure than to hear you were well
married.Ó
The
tears which had stood sometime in MariaÕs eyes, now made their way down her
cheeks.ÑLady Palmer continued, ÒI will write to your brother, to prepare him to
receive you, and likewise send for Joseph, to know what you are to depend onÑI
am sorry to say your expectations must not be too sanguine from himÑif I may
judge from his late behaviour, but I will try what I can make of him.Ó
Maria
was too deeply affected with this discourse, to make any reply to it. All her
agreeable prospects in a moment vanished. She saw herself going to be thrown a
dependant on her brother.ÑLady PalmerÕs eagerness too for her departure, gave
her great concern.
CHAPTER VIII.
LADY Palmer lost no time to accomplish what she had proposed.ÑShe sent for
Mr. Harcourt, and acquainted him with her intentions respecting his sisterÑher
brother Henry was ready to receive her; and as Maria was a beautiful
accomplished girl, she thought it would be a pity not to introduce her into
life; but it would be necessary for her to know, what she had to depend on.
Joseph,
with great seeming humanity, lamented not having it in his power, without
injuring his own familyÑwhich her Ladyship, or any other person could expect
from himÑto do much for his sister, circumstanced as he was. He was persuaded,
had his mother lived, she would have been satisfied with his giving her a
trade, whereby she would be enabled to maintain herself:Ñhe was willing to
advance fifty pounds, to apprentice her to a milliner or mantua-maker, or whatever
she liked; and to allow her ten pounds a year for cloaths, during the term of
her apprenticeship.
In
vain did Lady Palmer argue the injustice of such a proposal, or represent how
inadequate it was, to what Maria had a right to expect, either from the promise
he had made his dying mother, or in proportion to his fatherÕs estate.
Joseph
answered coolly, Òhe did not think it more disproportioned than her LadyshipÕs
family were provided for; For instance,Ó said he, ÒSir Thomas, enjoys an estate
of two thousand a year; whilst the younger branches of the family have only one
thousand pounds each to their portion.Ó
Lady
Palmer was not prepared for this retort, she only answered, ÒThat from the
solemn promise he had made, in her presence, to his mother, she had conceived
hopes he would have acted more generously: but if he could reconcile such
actions with himself, it was more than she could have believed him capable of.Ó
ÒBut
suppose your brother Henry, or your sister should object to the scheme you propose,Ó
said Lady Palmer, Òwhat are you willing to advance to Henry, should he
undertake to provide for Maria?Ó ÒHe was willing,Ó he said, Òto give her twenty
pounds, by way of paying her expences to Bath, and at any time when she and
Henry should think proper to draw on him, he would advance one hundred more,
which was all he could do.Ó
Lady
Palmer seeing it in vain to argue any farther with him, accepted this offer; he
left the twenty pounds with her, and took his leave without expressing a wish
to see his sister, either then, or before she left the country.
Maria
heard the account of her brotherÕs unnatural behaviour with concern; she
lamented the loss of his affections more than his want of generosityÑbut her
thoughts were employed on an object nearer her heartÑher beloved CharlesÑthat
she must leave the country without seeing him, was a severe trial to her
fortitude.ÑShe visited every walk about the house and gardens, and shed tears
at the remembrance of the happy hours she and her dear Charles, had past in
them.ÑOn her entering the arbour where they had changed their innocent
caresses, she fell on her kneesÑand vowed whatever should be her fate in the
world, no power on earth should prevail with her to forget himÑand then, after
recommending herself to that Power, who was alone able to give her fortitude to
support her afflictions, she became more composed.
She
regretted leaving the rest of the family; she remembered, with gratitude, the
tenderness, protection, and instruction, she had received; ÒCertainlyÓ said
she, ÒI had no right to expect Lady Palmer was always to maintain me: how
thankful ought I to be, for the many advantages I have derived from this
family. Wherever I am, I shall love Charles as much as here! and my heart tells
me, no change of place or time will alter him.Ó
With
these reflections Maria soon recovered her spirits: and she heard the day fixed
for her departure, without any visible sign of uneasiness. Indeed she now
appeared the most composed of the three; Miss Palmer was very much dejected,
and Lady Palmer felt greatly at parting with the amiable MariaÑbut she had such
reasons, as were, in her opinion, sufficiently urgent to make such a step
necessary.
The
parting between Maria and her friends was very affecting; they were all in
tears. Lady Palmer gave her some very excellent advice, and some rules for her
general conduct in the great world. She again hinted that the accounts of her
being well settled for life, would afford her the highest satisfaction: this
was the only part of her discourse, Maria paid no attention to.
Lady
PalmerÕs carriage and servants took her to Exeter, where she took the Bath
CoachÑMaria had just entered her seventeenth year, when she left the GroveÑher
stature was rather above the middle size, elegantly proportioned, with a
regular set of fine features, beautiful auburn hair, and fine blue eyes, she
had a peculiar sweetness in her countenance, a sort of tacit resignation, which
at once interested and gained the respect of her beholders. She was, as
Thompson describes, his Lavinia,
ÒThoughtless
of beauty, she was beautyÕs self!Ó
Thus
was Maria, when she entered that great stageÑthe world; one of natureÕs
master-pieces. She had heard of vice, but knew no more of it than the name.
The
company in the coach consisted of an elderly respectable looking gentleman, who
appeared about sixty years of age, a young officer, and a decent middle-aged
woman. After the usual opening for a general conversation in a stage coach,
such as a fine morning, the roads are pretty good, this is a good easy coach,
and such like, which is a sort of introduction to each other: the old
gentleman, addressing himself to Maria, ÒSo Miss, you are going to BathÓÑYes,
Sir, Òit is a charming gay place, I can assure youÑyou will, I dare say, be
quite delighted with it;Ó Òof that,Ó said Maria, ÒI am not so certainÑand I
confess its being a gay place is in my opinion no recommendation. ÒIt is very
singular,Ó said the Captain, with a great oath, Òfor a young handsome girl, not
to be fond of gaiety; but you will soon, I make no doubt, be of another
opinion.Ó
Maria
scarce heard this last speech, her attention being engrossed by a small hut at
a little distance from the road, and the coach going slowly up a hill, she had
time to examine it minutely.
It
appeared so small as not to admit of more than one inhabitant; the door was
almost concealed from view by the ivy which had made itself master of the
outside, and seemed to be making its way to take possession of the inside also
without opposition. She was still more surprised to see working in a little
garden before the door, a tall figure of a man, who, notwithstanding the
evident neglect of his person, did not appear to be above thirty.
ÒI
do not wonder,Ó said the old gentleman, who observed MariaÕs attention so
engaged, Òat your curiosity being raised by that strange character; you must
know I have made some enquiries about him, but all that I can discover, is,
that about twelve months ago he came to this country, a stranger to every one,
and after searching about for some time, he at last found this hut, which he
immediately purchased. He had, I was told, then very much the appearance of a
gentleman, and a very elegant man they say he was, but he has never shaved
himself, or dressed his hair, since he took possession of his hut. I was told
he employs a boy belonging to one of his poor neighbours to get him provision
once a weekÑand to carry his shirts, which are of the finest cloth, to be
washed. One thing I must not forget to observe, it is thought he has changed
his name, as his linen is marked W. S. and he calls himself John Moor.Ó
ÒHe
suffers no woman to come near him, and is very shy of any well-dressed man, but
converses freely with the lower sort.ÑThere are various conjectures concerning
him; some think he is crossed in love.ÓÑMaria sighedÑ Òothers are of opinion he
is an American SpyÓÑand othersÑ Òthat he has killed somebody in a duel, and has
taken this method to evade justice.Ó
ÒI
confess, I think it strange, for a fine young fellow to forsake the world and
turn hermit, as one may say, just at a time he should be most attached to it;Ó
ÒBy GÑ,Ó said the Captain, ÒI will venture a good bet he is a highwayman, and
belongs to some gang:Ó ÒNo Sir,Ó said the Gentleman, Òthat cannot be, he would
soon be found out, as the eyes, I may say, of the whole country are on him.Ó ÒI
dare say,Ó said Maria, Òhe is crossed in love.Ó
ÒPerhaps,Ó
said the Gentlewoman, Òhe is doing penance for some great sin; if so, he will,
if he is a good Catholick, profit by the mortifications his director inflicts
on him;Ó this caused a loud laugh from the Captain, and a smile from the rest.
ÒHe must be a poor stupid fellow,Ó said the Captain, Òthat wants a director at
his time of life,Ó swearing a great oath, ÒI should like to see an old priest
pretend to direct me, to mortify myself in that manner.Ó The Gentlewoman
answered very gravely, ÒShe thought he stood much in need of such a director,Ó
he affected another loud laugh, although it was evident he did not much relish
the reply.
Nothing
worthy notice happened the remainder of their journey. Maria was met by her
brother at the White Lion, who received her with great joy, and conducted her
to his house.
CHAPTER IX.
MRS. HARCOURT appeared no less happy to receive Maria, than her husband;
she rather exceeded him in expressions of joy, congratulated herself on the
acquisition of such an agreeable companion, and assured her, with great
appearance of sincerity, that nothing on her part, should be wanting to make
her situation comfortable.
Maria,
whose heart was ever sensible of the smallest kindness bestowed on her, felt
most gratefully for those attentions, the more so perhaps, as she had been so
differently treated at her brother JosephÕs. Indeed Mrs. Henry Harcourt, was a
genteel, well-bred woman, and might be called rather handsome, though not a
striking beauty.
Henry
exclaimed with great indignation against his brotherÕs unnatural behaviourÑ
ÒBut my dear sister,Ó said he, Ònever you be uneasy, you will live to see him,
or I am very much mistaken, in a state to deserve your pity. Such actions must
sometime or other meet their punishment.Ó Maria answered, Òshe never wished to
see it, she only regretted his behaviour had put it out of her power to respect
him as she ought.ÓÑThey resolved to draw immediately for the hundred pounds
which he had promised to Lady Palmer.
Maria
then consulted her brother, what plan he would advise her to adopt for her
support, adding, she had a great aversion to those her brother Joseph had
proposed. Both Henry and his wife strongly objected to her forming any other,
than that of continuing with them until she settled for life; as with such a
person and accomplishments as she possessed, she could not fail of soon having
advantageous proposals.
Maria
entreated her brother not to form any such expectations, as she was much too
young, and inexperienced to think of such a charge, as she considered the duty
of a wife and mother required; that if ever she entered into that state, it would
be many years hence. Her brother smiled and said, Òshe would soon be of a very
different opinion.Ó
The
next day Mr. Harcourt resumed the conversation with his sister, ÒI have been
thinking,Ó said he, Òwhen Joseph sends your hundred pounds, I will, if you
please, take the charge of it for you; and whilst it remains in my hands, allow
you twenty pounds a year, which will find you in clothes.Ó
Maria
thanked him with unfeigned tears for his generous offer, but assured him at the
same time, she should not feel happy until she was in some way to provide for
herself, without being totally depending on him. ÒYou will, my dear brother,Ó
said she, Òno doubt soon have a family of your own, who will have an undoubted
right to all your earnings; let me not deprive them, and by that means render
myself disagreeable, and with reason, to my sister. I have studied, I hope with
some success, those accomplishments, which will, I flatter myself, prove
useful, and enable me to support myself in a genteel line. I am pretty well
acquainted with the principles of Music, French, and Geography; and, if I could
get recommended to some genteel family, as Governess, I flatter myself, by
assiduity and attention, I should establish myselfÑI should then have the
happiness to find, I should be no incumbrance to my brother.Ó
Henry
begged she would make herself easy, at least for the present, adding, if she
continued in that mind, something might perhaps fall in his way, which would
probably suit her. In the mean time he endeavoured to render every thing as
agreeable to her as he possibly could.
Mr.
Harcourt lived in rather a comfortable, than splendid style; his friends were
mostly professional: He had often little musical parties, where Maria was the
principal performer. Dr. Curtis, a brother of Mrs. Harcourt, who was just
established in great repute at Bath, played the bass, and Mr. Harcourt the
violin.
The
Doctor was a very handsome, agreeable man, about thirty years of age, much
esteemed by every one for his affable and engaging manners: he soon saw in
Maria, all he had figured to himself, as requisite to make the marriage state
happy.ÑHe discovered that her beauty, which at first surprised him, was by no
means her principal recommendation:Ñthat sweetness in her countenance, which he
could perceive, proceeded from the innocence of her heart, charmed him; his
visits to his sister, which used to be seldom, now became frequent.
This
was observed by all but Maria; she could admire the DoctorÕs good qualities,
and even allow him to have a fine person, beyond which, her heart was too
sincerely devoted to her beloved Charles, to bestow a thought.
Mr.
Harcourt saw the DoctorÕs growing attachment for his sister, with infinite
pleasure, and formed to himself the most agreeable presages. He considered that
the DoctorÕs person and character was such as no woman could object to, and in
his profession, there were very few to equal him. How fortunate did he think
his sister in making such a conquest.
The
Doctor now became a daily visitor, and appeared particular in his attention to
Maria; which she, from the innocence of her heart, attributed to the respect
she conceived he had for her brother. She therefore received his attentions
with an unaffected openness, which he mistook, and considered as assenting to
his addresses. He had, as he thought, no obstacle to surmount, no rival to
supplant; he should, he vainly imagined, be the first that ever caused her
tender bosom to feel the sensation of love; no wonder then he suffered love to
take full possession of his heart.
CHAPTER X.
DOCTOR CURTIS communicated to Mr. Harcourt the state of his heart, and
begged him, as a friend, to be sincere with him respecting that of his sister.
Mr. Harcourt assured him with truth, he had every reason to believe MariaÕs
affections were disengaged, as he was very certain she had no correspondence,
or received any visitors but what he knew of. It was concerted between them,
that Mr. Harcourt should endeavour to find out how he stood in her opinion,
before he should openly declare himself to her.
When
Mr. Harcourt saw Maria alone, he began a panegyric on the Doctor, which she
artlessly joined in; she allowed him to be all her brother described, and ended
with saying, she thought there were very few men so deserving.
ÒHow
happy,Ó my dear Maria, said Mr. Harcourt, Òyou make me, to hear you are so
sensible of his merit. He is the only man in the world, I should wish to see
you united to; and I have the pleasure to tell you, he adores you: yes, Maria,
you will be one of the happiest of women.Ó She blushed, and appeared greatly
confused.
ÒDo
not be ashamed to acknowledge an affection for a worthy man. Come,Ó said he,
taking her hand, ÒI hope my sister will prove superior to those little arts of
the weaker part of her sex, who take a pleasure in tormenting a man, for no
other reason, than because they know he loves them; let me intreat you
generously to confess your partiality for the Doctor, and make him happy.Ó
ÒMy
dear brother,Ó said she, Òlet me intreat you, not to press me to what I must
refuse. I acknowledge all you can say in behalf of Doctor Curtis, but at the
same time, declare, it is not in my power, to make any other return to his
passion, than my sincere esteem, and I am extremely sorry, he should ever have
felt more for me.Ó
This
answer, which was delivered with great earnestness, and appearance of
sincerity, greatly surprised and confounded Mr. Harcourt. ÒIs it possible,Ó
said he, Òyou can seriously determine to refuse Doctor Curtis? Let me beg of you,
to consider what you doÑallow me, let me intreat you, to give him hopes, that
your esteem may in time ripen into love; he is a man who deserves your
affections; he will, I know, make you happy; or I would not, believe me, my
dear sisterÑI would not, for the world, wish you to encourage him, come,Ó
continued he, ÒI know you will not refuse me.Ó
Maria
burst into tearsÑ Òlet me beseech you my dearest brother,Ó said she, ÒIf you
have any love for meÑnot to press me to what I cannot, grant. I never can love
Doctor Curtis; therefore it would be treating him very ill to give him any such
hopes. There is nothing in this world I could refuse you my only protectorÑmy
ever dear brother, but the disposal of my affectionsÑthat is not in my power to
grant.Ó
ÒNot
in your power,Ó said Mr. Harcourt, Òare they then already disposed of!Ó MariaÕs
tears flowed a freshÑ ÒI mean,Ó said she, endeavouring to evade the question,
Òit is not in our power to command our affections: they must, so far as I am
able to judge, be voluntary: and I am sensible, I never can command mine for
him. Indeed I have determined not to marry any one, for some years to come.Ó
ÒSuffer
me, my dear Maria,Ó said Mr. Harcourt, Òto represent to you, the impropriety of
keeping such a resolution; you have, I may say, no protector in this world but
myself, and whilst I live, you shall never want one; but the uncertainty of
human events are such, as I think, ought not to be disregarded; you have but
too much reason to fear them. The melancholy accident of our much loved father,
has thrown you unprovided for in the world; and should any thing happen to me,
you will then be exposed to such dangers, as I tremble to think of. You are
such, as the designing part of mankind pursue as lawful prey. Oh!Ó continued he,
Òif you have any value for the peace of mind of a brother who adores you, give
him the satisfaction of bestowing you on a worthy man, who will protect your
innocence, and make you happy.Ó
ÒOh!
my brother,Ó cried Maria, throwing herself at his feet, and bathing his hand
with her tearsÑ ÒSpare me, let me entreat you, to spare me the painful task of
refusing you any thing you can ask; if you knew how it wrings my heart, you
would not, I am convinced, you would not, urge me, to what I must still deny
you.Ó
Mr.
Harcourt was deeply penetrated with the distress he saw his sister inÑhe caught
her in his arms, and raised her to her feet;Ñ ÒMy dear Maria,Ó said he, with
great tenderness, ÒI would not, for the world, be the cause of a momentÕs
uneasiness to you; but I thought it necessary to represent the dangerous
situation you may be in; I will not distress you farther at present, you know
my wish; think deliberately on it, and you will see I have nothing more at
heart than your interest and happiness.Ó He then embraced her with great
affection; ÒGo,Ó said he, Òto your room, and compose yourself.Ó
CHAPTER XI.
WHEN Maria reached her room, she threw herself into a chair, and with
her hands clasped, exclaimed, ÒOh my Charles! could you but see my heart now,
you would be convinced how sincerely it is devoted to you. This is indeed a
severe trial of my affection; but no earthly power shall prevail, to eradicate
thee from my heart. Even all the dangers my kind brother has described, I would
brave with the prospect of being at last recompensed with one yearÑone month of
happiness with thee. That would repay me for all my unhappiness.Ó
Her
heart exulted in the thought, it revived her dejected spirits; she dreaded,
indeed, a second meeting with her brother. His kind and tender concern for her
happiness, had penetrated her heart: she feared he would consider her refusal
of the Doctor, if she assigned no reason, to proceed from obstinacy; she could
not support that ideaÑ ÒNo,Ó said she, Òmy brother deserves I should act openly
with him, as he is gentle and kind heartedÑhe knows my Charles too, and
therefore cannot be surprised at my partiality.Ó
Dr.
Curtis met Mr. Harcourt with a countenance full of hope, which was in a moment
succeeded by fear. On observing strong marks of disappointment on Mr. Harcourt,
ÒOh, Harcourt,Ó said he, ÒI see I have flattered myself too farÑbut tell me,
has your sweet sister really rejected me? if she has, I am an unhappy man
indeed!Ó
Mr.
Harcourt then related as faithfully as his memory would permit, the whole of
the conversation which had passed between him and Maria, and ended with saying,
he still hoped, she would soon see the propriety of making them all happy, by
consenting without reluctance to his generous proposals. ÒReluctance,Ó repeated
the Doctor, Òmy dear Harcourt, not for the world would I receive your sisterÕs
hand, if I was not well assured she gave it willingly. My affections are of
such a nature, as not to be satisfied with her barely consenting to be mine. I
must be well convinced of her affections. If I have not the good fortune to be
such, as she can love, I may be unhappyÑI confess I shall be miserable, but I
shall not make her so. No, Harcourt, so far from forcing your sisterÕs
inclination, you must promise me not even to use your influence to bias them in
my favour. Maria says true, affections must be voluntary.Ó
Mr.
Harcourt answered, Òhe hoped there would be no occasion, as his sister was so
sensible of his merit; he doubted not, but in a little time, her heart would be
inclined to love, which at present she seemed frightened at the very name of.Ó
They agreed to trust to time, and the DoctorÕs assiduity for the accomplishment
of what they all so much wished.
Maria
joined them at tea. She summoned all her fortitude to appear tranquil; the very
idea of even being in company with a man, who she knew wished to make an
impression on that heart, which was so sincerely devoted to another, was, in
her opinion, a deviation from the sincerity which she had determined to observe.
She therefore could no longer feel cheerful and pleased with the DoctorÕs
conversation, which used to be so agreeable to her.
Her
heart revolted at the attentions she received from him: they appeared injurious
to her love. Her situation became very uncomfortable: his connections in the
family entitled him to her politeness, at least, and she could not, without
doing violence to her inclinations, appear even easy, in his company. She
determined, once more, to solicit her brother to look for a situation for her;
being certain, she could no where be more uncomfortable than at present.
When
Maria made this request, Mr. Harcourt answered, ÒHe was extremely concerned,
after the conversation which had passed between them, she should still persist
in such a resolution. I should, Maria,Ó said he, Òbe glad to hear what your
objections to the Doctor are. He is in my opinion, such as no woman, of the
nicest delicacy can object to; unless her affections were previously engaged,
which is not the case with you; as I flatter myself, you would have favoured me
with your confidence.Ó Maria blushed. ÒI should hope,Ó continued he, Òif you
had disposed of your heart, it would have been, to an object so deserving, you
would have had no occasion to be ashamed to acknowledge it,Ñbut I will not
press to know any thing you wish to conceal from me.ÓÑShe burst into tearsÑ ÒMy
dear brother,Ó said she, Òthere is nothing I wish to conceal from youÑyou are
so kind, so good, and affectionate, it distresses me beyond measureÑI cannot
comply with your proposals: but you shall know the real state of my heart, and
then judge yourself, how I could have acted otherwise than I have done by
Doctor Curtis.Ó
She
then related, in the simplest manner, all that had passed between her and
Charles,Ñshe dwelt on the little attentions he paid her when a childÑpainted in
the strongest colours, the tender sympathy he shewed on the death of her
mother, and ended with,Ñshe was sure, Providence must have designed them for
each other, as their hearts were united by such imperceptible degrees,Ñtheir
affections had indeed grown with their years; and she was sure no power on
earth could prevent their ending but with their lives. Mr. Harcourt heard this
with great concernÑHe saw the many and probable chances there were against his
sisterÕs happiness; but he saw at the same time, her heart was too deeply
engaged to admit him to make any attempt to oppose her inclinations,Ñhe knew
any such attempt would only render him disagreeable to his sister, without
answering any other purpose: he likewise knew Charles Palmer to be such as she
described him, and therefore was not surprized at their mutual
attachmentÑindeed they seemed formed for each other,Ñwhat gave him the greatest
concern, and which he did not forget to represent to his sister, was: Charles
he considered a man of family, living in gay dissipation, as he undoubtedly
would, in the East Indies, might forget an engagement made at so early a
period: but this had no weight with Maria; she judged of his heart by her own,
and therefore had no fears. She felt greatly relieved in having made this
discovery to her brother; again repeated her wish of changing her situation,
which he now made no very strong objection to.
ÒThere
is a lady,Ó said he, Òwho I do business for, who has spoken to me about
you:Ñshe is a very agreeable woman, and wants a companion. If you are
determined to pursue such a plan, I think you cannot be more comfortable than
with her.Ó Maria thanked him, and expressed a desire to be introduced to the
lady, which her brother promised to do the next day. Mr. Harcourt then
communicated to Dr. Curtis the insurmountable obstacle to his hopes, and
advised him to endeavour to forget his sister. He answered, Òthat was more than
he feared he should for some time, if ever, be master of himself sufficiently
to do. The impression was too deep to be soon effaced.ÑAh! said he, with a deep
sigh, what a happy man is Charles Palmer.Ó
Maria
was introduced by her brother to Miss Scot, the lady he had mentioned.ÑShe was
struck with the elegance of her person, which was so majestic and commanding,
it was impossible to behold her, without being impressed with awe, which the
benignity of her countenance soon removed, or joined to a more pleasing
sensation, that of respect and love. Maria found these emotions succeed each
other so rapidly, that the former was soon lost and she only remained sensible
of the latter. Miss Scot appeared delighted with her, and soon settled on the
terms for her immediate removal to her house.
Maria
had not been long with Miss Scot, before that lady conceived a sincere
friendship for her, and testified it by the attention she paid her in all
companies wherever they appeared together; unlike the generality of ladies who
keep companions, merely to exercise their ill-humour on; she found more
pleasure in seeing her happy and chearful; she treated her more as a favourite
sister than a dependant.
Maria
was so sensible of her happiness she began to fear it would not be
permanentÑshe had experienced a little of the fickleness of fortune, as her
being obliged to leave the Grove, at a time, when she found herself most happy;
and again the disagreeable adventure at her brotherÕs which had rendered his
house unpleasant to herÑthese made her fear to depend too much on its
continuance.
She
was now introduced into a higher sphere of life: Miss Scot was visited by most
of the nobility who frequented Bath. The first time Maria appeared at the play
with her, was at the representation of the School for Scandal: the house was
very much crowded, it was with difficulty they got inÑIn passing through the
lobby a gentleman addressed himself to Miss Scot, and begged she would permit
him to conduct her to her seat, she readily accepted his assistance, and they
soon got to their box. ÒI fancy, Sir Richard,Ó said Miss Scot, Òwe can make
room for you, here seems to be a seat unoccupiedÓÑhe took possession of it, and
made one of their party.ÑThe play now beginning, engrossed their attention.
Maria was greatly surprized to see it was not sufficient for the whole of the
audienceÑtwo ladies in the stage box seemed to vie with the performers, and
with each other, who should draw the attention of the house most: one of these
ladies talked incessantly, and the other seemed to listen, but it was evident
with no other motive than to exercise certain airs, which she fancied set off
her person to advantage.
ÒI
see,Ó said Miss Scot to the gentleman, ÒMrs. Prattle and Miss Andrews are still
inseparable companions, which I am rather surprized at, as they are such very
different characters.Ó ÒThat,Ó said he Òis the very reason of their intimacy;
If they were of similar dispositions, they would never be seen together, for
Mrs. Prattle is satisfied to let Miss Andrews pass for a very fine woman if she
will not attempt to be clever, and Miss Andrews is very happy to compromise the
matter, as she thinks her person quite sufficient without rivaling her friend.Ó
Another act of the play now beginning put an end to their remarks. Maria was
very much entertained with the performance; she was particularly struck with
the two lovers, Charles and Maria, Òhow strange,Ó thought sheÑ Òbut how much
happier am I than she, my Charles has all the good qualities of her lover,
without his vices.Ó
After
the performance, the gentleman handed them to their chairs, and with a
respectful bow, wished them a good night.Ñ ÒWell, my dear,Ó said Miss Scot,
when they got home, Òhow do you like Sir Richard Harlow?Ñbut you scarce looked
at himÑtell me sincerely, was not that a little artifice in you, to give him an
opportunity of looking more at you? I can assure you, if it was, it had the
desired effect, for his eyes were never off you, and he has begged my
permission to call in the morning, to be introduced to you,Ñwhat do you think
of thatÑif you should have made a conquest of the young Baronet,Ñwhat a
delightful thing that would be.Ó
Maria
answered, She had not the vanity to suppose any such a thing, but if it was the
case, so far from being pleased at such an event, it would give her great
uneasiness, as she did not wish to attract the notice of any one.
ÒCome,
come,Ó said Miss Scot, ÒI think that is going a little too far; I have heard,
indeed, you refused Doctor Curtis, which surprized me excedingly, but should
Sir Richard Harlow offer, I can scarce believe you would be quite so mad as to
serve him the sameÑHe has three thousand a year, my dear, in his own
possessionÑHe was the only son of the late Sir Richard Harlow of
Nottinghamshire, who has been dead about two yearsÑhe is lately returned from
his travels and taken possession of his estatesÑhe has, as you must have
observed, a fine person, and his morals are as good, I fancy, as most of his
neighboursÑI have not heard he is given to any particular viceÑThe ladies are
all mad after him, I can assure you: so you see the conquest, if you have
really made it, is not an inconsiderable one.Ó Maria answered, she had no
ambition to dispute the conquest with those ladies, who from their high rank
were better entitled to it; for her part, she did not aspire so high. ÒBut,Ó
said Miss Scot, Òif Fortune should, without looking for, throw such favors in
your way, I see no reason why you should refuse to accept her bounty.Ó ÒIt will
be time enough for me to refuse when I have the offer,Ó said Maria, Òso if you
please, we will change the subject. I am impatient to know who those two ladies
in the stage-box were, who attracted the eyes, and I may say ears of the whole
house.Ó
ÒThat
was Mrs. Prattle and Miss Andrews,Ó said Miss Scot, Òtwo ladies very much in
fashion at present; one for her great abilities, and the other for her beauty.Ó
ÒTell me,Ó said Maria, Òif her abilities are really so great, as I confess I
rather doubt it from the loudness of her vociferation in public.ÓÑ ÒThat you shall
have an opportunity of judging of yourself,Ó said Miss Scot, Òthey will be here
on Tuesday at my rout, I will introduce you to them; I will not give you my
opinion of them, until I have heard yourÕs, as your observations are generally
drawn from Nature, I will have them genuine.Ó
ÒBut
I do not think it fair,Ó said Maria, Òto give an opinion of a person at first
sight, it requires time and intimacy to know a character thoroughly.Ó ÒI agree
with you,Ó said Miss Scot, Òin most cases, but not the present; you will know
these ladies as well in one hour, as in years.Ó
CHAPTER XII.
THE next morning, before the ladies had well finished their breakfast, a
loud knocking at the door announced Sir Richard Harlow. Miss Scot immediately
introduced him to Maria. He enquired anxiously if they had caught no cold the
preceding evening, and thanked his good fortune for being so lucky as to join
them. The conversation then turned on the new play and the performers: ÒYou
seemed to pay particular attention to the piece, Miss Harcourt,Ó said he, Òwill
you favor me with your opinion of it, or which part you prefer.Ó Maria
answered, Òso far as she was able to judge, it was altogether excellent, but
she could not but acknowledge, she was most pleased with the character of Maria,
as the other ladies of the piece were entirely without sentiment.Ó Sir Richard
applauded the justness and delicacy of her taste.
He
then enquired if the ladies should be at the ball that night. Miss Scot
answered, Òshe intended it,ÓÑhe looked at Maria, who said she should not go; he
looked disappointed. ÒI think,Ó said Miss Scot, ÒYou had better go, Miss
Harcourt,Ó she replied, it was not in her power, as she was engaged at her
brotherÕs. He talked on different subjects as long as he could, without being particular,
and then took his leave, saying, ÒHe should have the pleasure of seeing them on
Tuesday, as he had the honour of a card.Ó
ÒWhy,Ó
said Miss Scot, Òyou foolish girl, did you not say you would be at the ball, I
am certain he came on purpose to engage you to dance with him.Ó
ÒYou
know, Madam,Ó said Maria, ÒI wish to go as little into public as possible,
particularly to balls. I think, in my dependent state, it would be by no means
prudent for me to assume the fine lady, and be dancing with Sir Richard
Harlow.Ó ÒI fancy,Ó said Miss Scot, Òyou will not long be in a state of
dependance.Ó Maria took no notice of this speech. In the evening, Miss Scot
went to the ball, attended by her uncle, Mr. Worthy, who was at that time at
Bath, and Maria to visit her brother. She found him still kind and
affectionate, but she saw, with concern, Mrs. Harcourt, although she behaved
with politeness, did not receive her with the same cordiality as she hoped and
expected. Indeed, Mrs. Harcourt considered MariaÕs refusal of her brother as a
sort of an affront to her family: she was one of those women who know very
little of what is meant by fine feelings; she possessed none of them herself,
and therefore could form no idea of their influenceÑMaria thought it most prudent
not to notice this change, as she saw Mrs. Harcourt endeavour to conceal it
from her husbandÑshe was extremely sorry to hear from her brother, that Doctor
Curtis was in a very dejected state. She took her leave of them about eleven
oÕclock, and got home just before Miss Scot returned from the rooms. ÒWell,
Maria,Ó said she, as soon as she came in, Òit is just as I wished, as sure as
you are alive, you have fairly conquered the BaronetÑHe was at the ball, but
quite out of spirits; he took an opportunity of joining me, and talked of
nothing but you; enquired particularly about you, and when I related your
little history, he really sighed, and said you was a sweet girl, and would be
an ornament to any family:Ñso I will, by way of accustoming you to your new honors,
ask your ladyship if you have supped, or if you will do me the honor of taking
a bit with me.ÑYou do not seem to rejoice at your good fortune; well really
this is too much, I may venture to say if I had communicated the same to any
single lady in the rooms, she would have thanked me, almost on her knees, and
have had very little sleep to night for thinking on her good fortune. Come
Maria, I shall begin to suspect you of insincerity, if you do not freely
confess you are pleased with this piece of intelligence.Ó ÒI should,Ó said
Maria, Òbe guilty of it indeed, if I said I was. But I am willing to believe,
Sir Richard may have talked in the manner you describe, with no other motive,
than merely to satisfy his curiosity; therefore, it would be absurd to make any
serious reflections on it.Ó
ÒWell,Ó
said Miss Scot, Òyou are right not to be too sanguineÑbut if I have any
judgement in those matters, and I think I have a little, I may venture to
prepare to accompany your ladyship to Nottinghamshire.Ó Maria felt greatly
relieved by the entrance of a servant, with Miss ScotÕs supper.
CHAPTER XIII.
NOTHING worthy notice past until Tuesday, when they were all busy
preparing for the rout. Mrs. Prattle and Miss Andrews were among the first of
the company. Miss Scot introduced them to Maria. ÒI had the pleasure,Ó said
Miss Andrews, addressing herself to Maria, Òof seeing you at the play the other
night: Was not you quite delighted? It is a most charming thing, it is
not?ÓÑBefore Maria could make any reply, she went on,Ñ ÒDid Sir Richard Harlow
go in your party?Ó ÒNo,Ó answered Maria, Òhe joined Miss Scot by chance.Ó ÒYou
were very fortunate,Ó said she, ÒIs not he a charming man? Will he be here to
night?Ó ÒYes.ÓÑ ÒLa, that is delightful.Ó ÒYou look beautiful, Miss Harcourt,
what a fright I am,Ó looking in the glass, ÒI wish I had not put on this
frightful dress, how yellow it makes me look, donÕt you think it does?Ó
Maria
saw she was very well satisfied with herself, and only wanted to have the
pleasure of hearing herself admired:Ñshe answered coolly, she did not perceive
it, but as she had only the honor of knowing her then for the first time, she
could be no judge. ÒOh,Ó said she, ÒI look horrid.Ó She turned from Maria to
some ladies, who just then entered the room, and repeated the same lamentable
story of her frightful dress and yellow looks; but they soon put her in conceit
with herself, by assuring her she never looked to more advantage, and that her
dress was beautifulÑanother view of herself in the glass, put her in perfect
good humour.
The
rooms being pretty full, Miss Scot began to settle the card tables. ÒYou will
have the goodness, Miss Harcourt,Ó said she, Òto entertain those ladies who are
not engaged at cards, with a tune on the harpsichord.Ó Maria, who had never
exhibited before such a large party felt a little confused; however, she sat
down, and after playing two or three airs, she went on with great ease. Just as
she had finished a very pathetic air, which she had been singing, a deep sigh
from behind her chair caused her to look roundÑshe was greatly confused on
seeing Sir Richard Harlow.
ÒI
could not,Ó said he, Òbe so cruel to myself and the rest of the company, as to
interrupt you, Miss Harcourt, to pay my respects to you before.Ó He then politely,
and with great tenderness, enquired after her health. ÒYou are very cruel, or
very charitable, I know not which, to seclude yourself from the public; I have
in vain looked for you every where, but find you are unlike the generality of
your sex, only to be found at home.Ó ÒYou must not, Sir Richard,Ó said Miss
Andrews, before Maria could make any reply, Òdeprive us the pleasure of hearing
Miss Harcourt singÑCome, Miss Harcourt, do favour us with another song.Ó Maria
obeyed.
Sir
Richard kept close to her, much to the mortification of Miss Andrews, who used
every method, without effect, to get him to take notice of her. Miss Scot
addressed him, and asked if he would wish to play a rubber. ÒIf you can do
without me,Ó said he, ÒI would wish to be excused, as I confess I am much more
agreeably entertained.ÓÑShe excused him, and he continued his station.
After
Maria had played her favourite airs over, she offered her seat to a lady who
stood by, and seemed to be a judge of music. She accepted it, and performed
with great taste and judgement.
ÒI
wonder,Ó said Miss Andrews, in a loud whisperÑ ÒWhere Miss Harcourt buys her
rouge?ÓÑ ÒAt JollyÕs, MaÕam,Ó said Maria. ÒBy the Lord,Ó exclaimed an Irish
gentleman, who heard both the whisper and reply, Òthat same Jolly sells the
only rouge in the world, that ever had, or ever will have, the power of
animation; for IÕll swear, I have seen it turn high and low coloured about a
dozen times to night:
Ò¾¾¾ÑÑÑHer pure and
eloquent blood
Spoke in her cheek, and so distinctly wrought,
That one would almost say, her very body thought.Ó
ÒFaith, I should like to purchase a few boxes, to make a present of to
some ladies of my acquaintance, who go to the wrong shop.Ó
By
this time the eyes of the whole room were on Maria and the GentlemanÑHer face
was perfect scarlet;Ñ Òthere is rouge for you, ladies,Ó said he, Òlong life to
that said Jolly, who has brought it to such perfection.Ó ÒNo,Ó said Sir Richard
Harlow, ÒMiss Harcourt wants no assistance from art, Nature has been more than
sufficiently bountiful to her.Ó
Miss
Andrews left her seat, and walked to the next room. ÒI vow and protest,Ó said
Mrs. Prattle, as she came from the other room, Òit requires the patience of
Penelope, to play such cards as I have held to night.Ó ÒHave you had a bad run,
Madam,Ó said Sir Richard, ÒRun, Sir RichardÑIf Socrates had been a card-player,
and held such cards, he would never have kept his temper.Ó ÒI think,Ó said the
Irish Gentleman, Òbegging your pardon, Madam, that after he shewed himself proof
against a scolding woman, he might defy the Devil, and all the cards in the
universe.Ó
ÒI
wish,Ó said Mrs. Prattle, Òhe had tried; I am very much inclined to believe,
they would have overset all his philosophy. I think I have as much command of
my temper, as most people, and I confess I am fairly ruffled.Ó ÒEntreat one of
those ladies,Ó said he, Òto play a soft air, and if that will not set you to
rights, you must be very much ruffled indeed.Ó ÒO, no,Ó said she, ÒI am too
much out of tune, to relish harmony; I am afraid it would not have the same
effect as the Pitch-pipe Julius Caesar made his slave use, when he spoke too
high, to turn his voice to a proper key.Ó ÒI never understood,Ó said Mr.
Worthy, ÒJulius Caesar ever stood in need of such a pipe.Ó ÒO, yes, Sir, he
did.Ó The Gentlemen looked at each other with a sort of smile, at her
ignorance, and the ladies with surprise, at her great learning. She run on at a
great rate, brought in the ancients, of whom she only knew the names, and
ascribed indiscriminately, the actions of one to the other.ÑIn talking of
eloquence, she was very unfortunate. ÒCicero,Ó said she, Òacquired his by dint
of perseverance, he had originally an impediment in his speech, which obliged
him to labour hard to get the better of, he used to speak with pebbles in his
mouth.Ó ÒI fancy, Madam,Ó said Maria, Òyou mean Demosthenes, the Grecian; he
was obliged to use that method, but I believe Cicero had never any occasion.Ó
ÒO! no, Miss,Ó said she, ÒyouÕll find I am right, it was Cicero.Ó ÒCertainly
no, Madam,Ó said Mr. Worthy, Òit was Demosthenes, Cicero had never any
occasion.Ó ÒBless me,Ó said she, ÒHow came I to be mistaken?Ó The ladies looked
surprised, that Mrs. Prattle should be mistaken, and that Maria should be able
to set her right. Maria felt a little confused; in a moment it occurred to her,
she had said too muchÑshe dreaded the imputation of affecting to be learned,
and as there were so many gentlemen present, she considered it would have
looked better, if some of them had set Mrs. Prattle right: she determined in
future to be more cautious.
This
did not check Mrs. Prattle, she went on, spoke of all the new Publications and
with great confidence pointed out their faults and perfections.
ÒBy
St. Patrick, Madam,Ó said the Irish Gentleman, ÒI begin to be as much out of
tune as you were, when you left the card tables; and if I cannot prevail on
this lady,Ó to Maria, Òto relieve me with the melody of her sweet voice, I am
afraid I shall get so low, it will not be in the power of my slaves pitch-pipe
to raise me to a proper key.Ó Maria then went to the harpsichord, and played
until most of the company went away.
Sir
Richard Harlow staid till the last, and then enquired if the ladies would be at
the next dress ball. Miss Scot resolved to do Maria a little violence; thinking
it would be to her advantage, answered, ÒYes. Miss Harcourt,Ó said she, Òseldom
goes, but she has been so obliging as to promise to accompany me on Friday.Ó
Maria looked extremely confused. ÒMay I,Ó said Sir Richard, Òhope for the
honour of your hand Miss Harcourt.ÓÑ ÒYou know, my dear,Ó said Miss Scot, Òyou
are not engaged.Ó She said she did not intend to dance. ÒIn that,Ó said Sir
Richard, Òyou shall do as you please, only allow me the honour of attending you.Ó
She gave a silent assent, and he wished them a good night. ÒI did not think,Ó
said Maria, Òyou could have been guilty of such a piece of cruelty.ÓÑ
ÒCruelty,Ó replied Miss Scot, ÒI know the time when I should have been very
much obliged to any friend, who would have had the good-nature to have
practised the same sort of cruelty on me. I see I must force you to be
happyÑthey then parted for the night.Ó
CHAPTER XIV.
ÒWELL,Ó said Miss Scot, the next morning at breakfast, Ònow tell me what
is your opinion of the two ladies?ÓÑ ÒYou expect a sincere one, I suppose?ÓÑ
ÒcertainlyÓÑ Òwhy, then, sincerely, I would prefer real ignorance to the one,
and ugliness to the otherÑMiss Andrews is undoubtedly, a very beautiful woman,
she has one of the finest faces I ever saw; but she is, in my opinion, one of
those beauties which excite admiration more than love: her face, though
perfect, has nothing interesting in itÑshe seems entirely without sensibility,
but what renders her disagreeable is, although she is quite certain, she is
beautiful, she is not satisfied if she is not constantly put in mind of itÑshe
courts admiration from both men and women.ÓÑ ÒSo much for Miss Andrews,Ó said
Miss Scot, smiling, Ònow for Mrs. Prattle, if you please.Ó ÒShe has just
learning enough to make her ridiculousÑshe has taken enough of the waters to
intoxicate her poor weak head, but has unluckily neglected to drink again to
sober herselfÑshe talks disgustingly of the ancients, and her opinion of the
moderns, I am convinced, she takes from the Monthly Review, and gives it as her
own; what surprizes me is, how she can possibly pass for sensible.Ó
ÒI
will tell you,Ó said Miss Scot, Òhow it is: most of the ladies of Mrs.
PrattleÕs acquaintance never read any thing, they are easily imposed on, they
take all she says for granted, and by that means save themselves the trouble of
study,Ñthe opinions which Mrs. Prattle takes, as you observe, from the Monthly
Review, they take from her, and by that means, most of her acquaintance become
very intelligent. Those who think her clever, always tell her so, and those who
have understanding enough to see her as she really is, are content to laugh at
her, without taking the trouble of setting her right.ÑShe married early in
life, and had the misfortune to match with a professed wit; you may conclude
they did not long agreeÑthey were continually at variance which was most
entitled to pre-eminence; they had not prudence enough to reserve their
disputes for their private hours, but were constantly the butt of each other in
all companies wherever they appeared together; this soon brought on a mutual
aversion, and there remained but one thing they could agree in, which wasÑa
separationÑthat soon took place.ÑMr. Prattle soon found all women were not so
insensible to his great abilities as his wifeÑMrs.
MÑÑ, who he took off the stage, consoles him for his disappointment of
conjugal happiness; and Mrs. Prattle consoles herself with lamenting his want
of taste and judgement.Ó
MariaÕs
mind was not easy; the thoughts of having consented to Sir Richard HarlowÕs
accompanying her to the ball, although she was in some measure forced to give
it, shocked her. She regretted her want of resolution to contradict Miss Scot;
yet she still hoped he meant nothing, and if that was the case, how absurd it
would appear in her to shun him. ÒNo,Ó said she to herself, Òit would be
ridiculous for me to appear distant and reserved with a man, who certainly can
have no design to trouble me with his addresses. His wishing to dance with me,
implies nothing more than a wish to dance, he must dance with some-body.Ó These
reasonings gave her some ease; she determined to give Sir Richard no reason to
suppose, from her behaviour, that she hoped or feared any thing from him.
ÒBut
you intend to dance to night,Ó said Miss Scot, ÒdonÕt you Maria.Ó ÒI should
wish not,Ó said she; Òbut I am afraid my declining may deprive Sir Richard the
pleasure of dancing, and I should be very sorry to do that, as he has had the
politeness of choosing me for a partner.Ó ÒNow that is talking like a rational
girl,Ó said Miss Scot, ÒI begin to have some hopes of you.ÑI advise you
seriously not to neglect to avail yourself of this opportunity, which I think
offers of making your fortune; Sir Richard is a man of some consequence,
therefore is little accustomed to refusals. He would feel his pride hurt, from
any dislike to his person, knowing his fortune to be such, as to tempt almost
any woman.Ó ÒI assure you, my dear,Ó continued she, ÒIt is from friendship
alone, I am induced to give my advice.Ó
Maria
felt greatly alarmed when she found Miss Scot seriously thought Sir Richard had
some intentions: ÒMy dear Madam,Ó said she, Òtell me sincerely, do you think he
has any other motive for asking me to dance with him than mere politeness?Ó
ÒWhyÑyes,Ó Òand do you think, my accepting, any ways implies an encouragement
to him to make proposals; for I confess, I am rather unacquainted with the
etiquette of those matters?Ó ÒWhy, no,Ó said Miss Scot, Òit does not absolutely
imply anything, unless, indeed, he had been more particularÑbut why do you
ask?Ó ÒbecauseÓ said Maria, ÒI would not for the world, go, if it had.Ó ÒCan
you be serious? is it possible you should determine to discourage his
addresses, should he be inclined to make them?Ó
ÒWhy,
my dear madam,Ó said Maria, Òshould you be surprized? what advantage has Sir
Richard Harlow over Doctor Curtis, besides fortune, which has no weight with
me, and if I had resolution to withstand the earnest entreaties of a beloved
brother, who I knew had nothing more at heart than my interest and happiness;
what great difficulty will there be in refusing Sir Richard Harlow?Ó Òthan I
must conclude your affections are engaged,Ó said Miss Scot,Ñ Òdoes that
follow?Ó said Maria, blushing,ÑÒmay not I have an aversion to matrimony?Ó ÒOh,
no,Ó Òbut I really have determined not to marry for some years to come, if
ever.Ó ÒThen you must have some very substantial reasons, which I am
unacquainted with,Ó said Miss Scot.
ÒAllow
me, Madam,Ó said Maria, Òto ask, if it may not be from choice? As I am almost
certain there are instances of ladies giving the preference to a single state,
and I cannot but observe, you are one.Ó ÒYou are exceedingly mistaken,Ó said
Miss Scot, Òif you think so.Ó ÒDo not from my being single infer, that I have
an aversion to the marriage state, for I freely declare, I have the highest
opinion of it, though I fearÓ with a deep sigh, ÒI shall never experience its
blessings. I see,Ó continued she, ÒI have raised your curiosity, you shall hear
the particulars of my story some morning, when we are at leisure, for it will
take up some time to relate: Although you do not honour me with your
confidence, I will not withhold mine from you.Ó Maria felt this reproach very
sensibly: ÒLet me entreat you, my dear Madam,Ó said she, Ònot to misconstrue my
silence, on any of the little incidents of my life. If I have omitted to relate
them, believe me it has not proceeded from want of confidence, but from an idea
they were too trifling to merit your attention.ÓÑ ÒWell,Ó said Miss Scot, ÒI
forgive you the past, but if in future, you suppose I can be indifferent to any
thing which concerns either your interest or happiness, I assure you you wrong
the friendship I have conceived for you.Ó
MariaÕs
heart felt gratefully sensible of this kindness: she thanked Miss Scot in the
warmest terms for such goodness, and then related much in the same manner she
had done to her brother, the mutual attachment which subsisted between her and
Charles Palmer. Miss Scot paid great attention to her simple narrative, which
so clearly accounted for her conduct: Maria finished with saying, ÒNow, my dear
Madam, let me entreat you, not to suffer me, through inadvertency, to give Sir
Richard Harlow cause to think I should be pleased with his addresses.Ó ÒYou
will not,Ó said Miss Scot, ÒI fancy easily persuade him to think otherwise;Ñbut
how are you sure your Charles, for whom you make such a sacrifice, will reward
you for such constancy?Ó Maria answered, she had no fears on that head, she knew
their hearts were united by such irresoluble ties, as neither time nor absence
could effect. ÒBut,Ó said Miss Scot, Òshould he go to India without seeing you
and renewing his assurances of constancy, I think you would be to blame to
think more of him.Ó ÒHe may be so circumstanced as not to have it in his
power;Ó said Maria, Òbut that should have no effect on me¾Indeed if I had, which I am certain I never shall,
reason to think he had forgot me, I should still continue my affection for him,
pure and unvariable.ÑI never knew what it was to have a heart, it was so early
disposed of to him, and his it shall remain until it ceases to beat.Ó ÒDo not
you think that a little romantic?Ó said Miss Scot, ÒI do not know,Ó said Maria,
Òbut I am sure it is sincere.Ó ÒI sincerely hope you will be rewarded as you
deserve,Ó said Miss Scot: they then parted to dress for the Ball.
Sir
Richard was early in his attendance; he was elegantly dressed, and in high
spirits. MariaÕs dress was simply elegant, which set off the beauty of her
person to great advantageÑSir Richard appeared delightedÑhe gazed on her with
rapture, which he no longer endeavoured to conceal.
As
this was the first time of MariaÕs appearing at the rooms, she was very much
struck with their elegance, and the brilliancy of the company; but her heart
would not allow her to feel any enjoymentÑShe shuddered at the idea of being
there by the means of Sir Richard Harlow,Ñher spirits were depressedÑshe sighed
often, which he attributed to a wrong cause. Miss Scot and Sir Richard danced a
minuet, which they performed to the admiration of all the company; the
gracefulness and dignity of her person appeared to such advantage as even to
surprize Maria. ÒHow delightfully Sir Richard dances! what an elegant man he
is! do not you think he is? Miss Harcourt,Ó said Miss Andrews, addressing
herself to Maria, ÒHe is very well,Ó said Maria, Òbut I think Miss Scot the
most elegant woman I ever sawÓÑ ÒIs she engaged to dance with Sir Richard in
the country dances?ÓÑ ÒNo, Miss Scot is to dance with Lord D. her
brother-in-law.ÓÑ ÒWhy, did not Sir Richard attend her to the rooms?ÓÑ ÒYesÓÑ
ÒPerhaps he is to dance with you?ÓÑ ÒI am not sure,Ó said Maria, Òwhether I
shall dance at all.ÓÑ ÒBut if you do, shall you dance with him?ÓÑ ÒYes, I
believe so.ÓÑShe looked chagrined, but kept close to Maria, in hopes of shewing
herself to Sir Richard; who, as soon as the minuet ended, handed Miss Scot to
her seat; and then taking MariaÕs hand, respectfully pressed her to do him the
honour of only one dance. She answered, Òshe should be extremely sorry to
prevent him from dancing; but it would be much more agreeable to her, if he
would choose another partner, and she would sit with Mr. Worthy, and look on.Ó
ÒNo,Ó said he, ÒI have no inclination to inflict such a punishment as that on
myself: I should have more pleasure in being permitted to attend you, than I
could possibly have in dancing with any other woman in the rooms.ÓÑMiss Andrews
hearing this, and being convinced she only lost time in attempting to gain Sir
RichardÕs attention, turned away to join her own party.
ÒI
am afraid, Madam,Ó said Sir Richard, addressing himself to Miss Scot, Òyou have
more influence with Miss Harcourt than I haveÑwill you have the goodness to use
it for me? she will I am sure refuse you nothingÑand it would afford me
infinite pleasure to go down one dance with her.Ó ÒO! she will I know,Ó said
Miss Scot.
Maria
thought there could be no more in dancing than in sitting still; as she saw it
was impossible to avoid Sir Richard, gave him her hand, and they took their
places. Sir Richard and his lovely partner soon drew the attention of the
company.Ñ ÒWhat an elegant man!Ó said the ladies, and ÒWhat a beautiful girl,Ó
said the gentlemen. ÒWho is that sweet girl?Ó asked a gentleman, addressing
himself to Miss Andrews, ÒI saw you speaking to her.Ñ ÒLa,Ó said she, Òwhat a
fuss is made about that girl, I do not see she is so handsome.ÓÑThe gentleman
smiled. ÒBut you do not answer my question, as to who she is.Ó ÒWhy, she is
some poor orphan, whom Miss Scot has taken out of charity, a sister of her
attorney. ÒI am surprised at her bringing her into publicÓÑand turned away
scornfully.Ñ ÒIt is a very extraordinary circumstance,Ó said the gentleman,
turning to Mr. Worthy, (who stood by) Òthat you cannot affront a fine woman
more than by praising another; I think, if they would practice a little
disguise, in that particular, it would give them a more amiable appearance, at
least; but I am happy,Ó continued he, Òthere are exceptions to this, I believe,
too general a rule; and your niece, much to her honour, is one. It would have
been a great pity for so beautiful a girl to have remained in obscurity: she
will, I make no doubt, make some noise now she appears in public.Ó ÒI fancy,Ó
said Mr. Worthy, Òthat will not be often, as it was with great difficulty she
was prevailed on to appear to night.Ó ÒThat is rather singular,Ó said he, Òfor
one of her years, with so much beauty.Ó ÒHer beauty,Ó said Mr. Worthy, Òis the
least of her valuable qualities;Ñindeed, she does not seem sensible of having
any. She is one of the most amiable girls I ever knew; and I hope she will be
as happy as she deserves.Ó ÒSir Richard pays her great attention,Ó said the
gentleman, Òshe will be a lucky lass if she can make a conquest there.Ó ÒIn my
opinion,Ó said Mr. Worthy, Òhe will be lucky if he succeeds with her.Ó ÒHe has
nothing to fear,Ó said the other. ÒI would venture a good bet, there are not
two single women in the rooms who would refuse him.Ó ÒI am not certain of
that,Ó said Mr. Worthy.
Sir
Richard having finished the first dance, now returned with Maria to her seat.Ñ
ÒAh!Ó said he, ÒShirley, how happens it you are not dancing?Ó ÒFaith, Sir
Richard,Ó said he, ÒI have had a great deal more pleasure in admiring your
partner than I could have had in dancing myself.ÑYou are in luck;Ñbut I do not
wonder at it.ÑYou have the choice of the Bath beautiesÑand you have shewn great
taste to-night.Ó Sir Richard answered, ÒHe was so sensible of his happiness, he
would not exchange it with eÕer a gentleman in the rooms.Ó Miss Scot now joined
them, and the conversation became general.
Mr.
Shirley entreated Mr. Worthy to introduce him to the ladies; which he did, and
he took his tea with them.
Maria
attracted so much notice, the gentlemen gathered about them, and a continual
enquiry of, who is she? and, what a sweet girl! She grew so extremely
embarrassed, that when Sir Richard solicited her to favour him with another
dance, she readily consented, to avoid the gaze of some impertinent fops, who
took a pleasure in putting her out of countenance, and continued dancing until
Miss Scot expressed a desire of leaving the rooms. Lord D. pressed them to go
home with him, to sup. As Miss Scot had not seen her sister that day, she agreed
to go. He then gave Sir Richard an invitation, which he accepted, and they all
went in Lord DÕs carriage. Maria had never seen Lady D. She having been
confined with a slight indisposition, had not visited her sister since she had
been with her.
She
found her much such a woman as Miss Scot, elegant and affable. Lady D. though
she was prepared, by her uncleÕs account of Maria, to expect to see nothing but
sweetness and a lovely person, appeared surprized, and confessed to her sister,
that she surpassed all which her imagination could form. She paid her
particular attention, and at parting said, ÒI cannot allow you, Amelia; to keep
Miss Harcourt to yourself; you must be content to share her with me. I shall be
satisfied to have her whenever you are engaged, and she does not accompany you.
I hear she has a dislike to going much into company, and as I go very little,
she cannot oblige me more, than to bestow on me as large a portion of her time
as she can spare.Ó
Maria
thanked Lady D. and promised to avail herself of her kind invitation. ÒUpon my
word, ladies,Ó said Sir Richard, Òyou seem inclined to make a very pretty
monopoly.ÑÑI could not have suspected you of so much cruelty. What will become
of Miss HarcourtÕs other friends, if she is thus to be shared, as you call it,
between you two? I think her too valuable to be shared, and too great a
treasure for any one mortal to possess.Ó
These
profusions of compliments confused Maria exceedingly, which Miss Scot
perceiving, relieved her, by hastening to her carriage.
CHAPTER XV.
ÒHOW do you like the rooms, Maria?Ó said Miss Scot. She answered, ÒThey
were elegant, beyond her conception! and if she was a woman of fashion, she
should take great pleasure in frequenting them; but as it was, she should never
go again.Ó ÒWhat is your objection?Ó said Miss Scot. ÒI am sure you had your
share of admiration; but I will do you the justice to say, you have less vanity
than any girl of your age, I ever knew.Ó ÒYou may be mistaken,Ó said Maria. ÒI
am not without my failings; and if it is one, to feel a pleasure in being
admired, I confess, I have that. But it is not public admiration which gives
it; yet if it is a weakness to wish for the approbation of the deserving,
those, whose superior understanding, will not, I know, allow them to judge from
a fine outside; that weakness is mine. I was more flattered to night by the
attention I received from Lady D. than Miss Andrews could be at hearing herself
admired by the whole of the company at the rooms, and you must allow that is saying
a great deal.Ó
ÒUpon
my word,Ó said Miss Scot, Òyou pay a very handsome compliment to those whom you
wish to make yourself agreeable to: you are an unaccountable girl, that is
certain.ÑSo good night.Ó
The
next morning, soon after breakfast, they had a visit from Sir Richard Harlow.
After the usual compliments, and enquiries, he addressed himself to Maria, and
said, ÒI hope, Miss Harcourt, now you have once been so good-natured as to
honour the rooms with your appearance, we need not despair of having that
pleasure repeated. But you will please to remember, that it is on condition you
do me the same honour; for to see your hand in the possession of another, if
only for a few hours, would be too great a mortification for me to support.Ó
Maria thought it best not to notice this speech; and only answered coolly, ÒShe
did not intend to frequent the rooms. That she was induced, partly by
curiosity, and partly by the entreaties of Miss Scot, just to go once; but she
believed she should never go a second time.Ó ÒI see,Ó said he, gaily, ÒI must
have recourse to my old stratagem, which assists me on those occasions, and
petition Miss Scot to use her influence. May I hope, Madam, for your interest.Ó
Miss Scot, knowing the state of MariaÕs heart, only answered, that ÒMiss
Harcourt must use her own will in those matters; she would by no means wish her
to do any thing contrary to her inclination.Ó He looked chagrined. He then
enquired if they would be at the play that night? and was answered, No. He
lengthened his visit as long as he could, and then took his leave, saying, ÒHe
would, with Miss ScotÕs permission, do himself the honour of paying them
another visit soon.ÓÑHe went away dejected.
Lord
D. and Mr. Worthy dined with them, and were to accompany Miss Scot to a party
in the evening. After dinner, ÒI have,Ó said Lord D., Òa petition to present to
you, Miss Harcourt, from Lady D., praying, if you are not engaged, you will
have the goodness to pass the evening with her,Ñwe will set you down.Ó Maria
answered, ÒLady D. did her a great deal of honor,Ó and accepted the invitation.
Lady
D. and Maria were equally pleased with each other on a nearer intimacy; Maria
entertained her ladyship with some little airs on the harpsichord, after which
they entered freely into conversation. Lady D. was a woman, with great natural
abilities, which she had improved by studying the best authors, both ancient
and modern. She was greatly surprized to find Maria pretty well acquainted with
both. She was so pleased with her society that she expressed great regret when
Miss Scot returned to take her home, repeated her request that she would give
her as much of her company as she could possibly spare, which she promised, and
then wished her a good night.
MariaÕs
situation was now so agreeable, she had nothing even to wish forÑnothing but
the uncertainty of the state of her beloved Charles, gave her uneasiness; she
knew the time drew near, which was fixed for his leaving England: what
surprized her was, that in all the letters she received from his sister, who
kept a correspondence with her; his name was never once mentioned.
One
morning, Miss Scot went out without her, to pay some visits. She had just taken
up Cecilia, and was deeply engaged in a very pathetic scene, when a knock at
the door took her attention. A servant entered, saying, ÒA gentleman enquires
for Miss Harcourt.Ó Before Maria could ask his name, Charles Palmer entered the
room. ÒOh! my Charles,Ó cried she, letting fall the book, and nearly falling
herself. ÒMy ever dear Maria,Ó exclaimed he, catching her in his arms, Òdo I
once more see you? Do I once more embrace you?ÑOh, my love! How!Ó said she, a
little recovering her surprize, Òto what miracle am I indebted for this
unexpected happiness? I fear it will be attended with great inconvenience to
you.Ó ÒWhat inconvenience, my beloved, dearest girl!Ó said he, Òcan there be,
that the sight of you will not compensate. Could you suppose I could leave
England without seeing you?ÑNo!Ñno power on earth should have forced me to it. If
my Maria knew what I have suffered, on her account, she would indeed pity me,Ó
ÒSuffered on my accountÑGod forbid!ÓÑ ÒIn the first place,Ó continued he, Òyou
may guess my surprize when I returned from Oxford and did not see you, for I
had never been made acquainted with your leaving the Grove,ÑI could not help
enquiring of my mother where you were: she said you was at Bath with your
brother, and continued she, ÔI expect every day to hear she is settled for
life: her brother writes me word, she has received the addresses of Dr. Curtis,
a very amiable man; and he hopes she will soon make him happy.Õ Conceive, my
love, my confusion at hearing this, she went on, without paying any attention
to me, saying, there was nothing in the world would give her more pleasure than
to hear you were well married. I could scarce contain myself to hear her out. I
went immediately to my room, to consider what I should do.ÑI could think of
nothing but to set out immediately for Bath, to prevent, if possible, your
being for ever separated from me. I was certain some means had been used to
force you to such a complianceÑI feared you might want resolution to withstand
the entreaties of your brother. I thought I had no time to lose, and was
actually preparing to leave the Grove that night. When I saw the postman at the
gateÑI trembled.ÑAh! said I, it is too lateÑI am undone;Ñthis is a letter from
Mr. Harcourt, to give my mother the intelligence she so much wishes for, and
which will inevitably prove the utter destruction of her son.
ÒI
flew to the parlour, more dead than alive to hear the dreadful tidings.ÑI
watched my motherÕs countenance whilst she read the letter, which was indeed
from your brother, and found myself a little relieved, by observing on it some
marks of disappointment. When she had read it, she exclaimed, with displeasure,
ÔWhat can possess the foolish girl, she must sure be mad!Õ I now recovered
myself sufficiently to enquire if you had refused the gentleman proposed by
your brother? ÔYes,Õ said she, with a look of anger, Ôshe has; and it seems has
assigned no reason, but a determined resolution not to marry for some years to
come.Õ
ÒShe
was going on; but I had heard enough. I returned to my room with very different
emotions from those I had when I left it. Oh, my Maria! you cannot possibly
form an idea of what I felt from the sudden transition of the deepest despair
to the very height of my wishes. I fell on my knees, and returned thanks to
that Almighty Power, who had supported you with fortitude sufficient to act
with such spirit. I was even thankful for the event which had proved your
steadiness.ÑYour love I never doubted.ÑI shall now go happy to India; having
this assurance of your being proof against all solicitations.
ÒI could now rest satisfied without seeing you until I
left the Grove, to set out for London; from thence I am to embark for India. I
took leave of my mother and sister yesterday, and they supposed I should take
post at Exeter for London, but I took the Bath road. I soon found your brother,
who behaved kinder than I expected, and offered to send for you; but my
impatience to see you would not brook that delay.
ÒIt
is but just,Ó said he, Òmy Maria should have a companion in my absence, one
whom she may look at with pleasureÑpress to her heart, and love.ÓÑShe looked
surprized.Ñ ÒI beg,Ó continued he, Òyou will take one of my choosing.ÓÑOn
which, he presented a miniture of himself.ÑShe took the little likenessÑkissed
it, and placed it in her bosom;Ñthe tear starting in her eyes,Ñshe was
incapable of speech. Charles felt her distress; caught her again in his arms.
ÒOh, my beloved dear girl!Ó said he, Òhow do I long for the time when I shall
have it in my power to reward you as you deserve for such goodness; but the
time willÑit must come.ÑMy stay shall be no longer, than to acquire a
sufficiency to support you in the style you ought to appear in. Then your
Charles will be, indeed, happy. Oh, my Maria! How constant, how great, will be
my bliss, when I have no other care than that of blessing you!Ó He ceased to
speak.ÑMaria pressed his hand to her heart.ÑThey continued silent some
minutes.ÑTheir silence was of that communicative nature, which spoke a language
not to be expressed by words.ÑThey understood each other.ÑHow long they might
have continued conversing in this way cannot be ascertained, had not a knock at
the door interrupted them. ÒIt is Miss Scot,Ó said Maria. Miss Scot entered the
room. ÒOh, my dear Madam!Ó said Maria, taking her hand, and pressing it, Ògive
me leave to introduce ChaÑaÑMr. Palmer.ÓÑMiss Scot smiled.Ñ ÒThis is Mr.
Palmer, Miss Scot.Ó She received him with her usual gracefulness.
Charles
felt the same emotions as Maria had experienced at the first sight of Miss
Scot, which was awe, succeeded by respect.
She
was not less struck with his person. He was, at this time, not eighteen. His
stature above the middle size, elegantly proportioned. His countenance manly
and engaging. His eyes spoke the feelings of his heart, which was generous and
sincere. She was no longer surprised at the mutual attachment which subsisted
between him and Maria; on the contrary, she saw it would have been next to
impossible for two such, to see, and converse freely with each other, almost
from their infancy, without forming such an attachment. She became interested
in their happiness, and determined within herself to do all in her power to
promote it. She gave Charles a polite invitation to stay to dinner, which he
readily accepted.
CHAPTER XVI.
AFTER dinner, Charles addressing himself to Miss Scot, said, ÒI know
not, Madam, whether Maria has made you acquainted with the particulars of our
story or not; but I think it necessary you should be made acquainted with it,
as she is in some measure under your protection.Ó
Miss
Scot answered, Òshe was not ignorant of it, and sincerely hoped they would be
one day or other united, and make each other happy.Ó ÒYou are very good,
Madam,Ó said he, ÒI shall leave with you all my hopes of happiness. My very
existence, indeed, depends on her safety. If, continued he, I could have called
her my own before I left England, I should have gone happy; as in that case,
she could, with propriety, have received such remittances from me, as would
have supported her comfortably, until I returned; but that, the cruel laws have
put out of my power. All which now remains is, that I may be permitted to hope,
she will find in you, Madam, a protection for her innocence. Oh!Ó said he, Òif
you knew how sincerely our hearts are united, you would, from your own goodness
of heart, I am persuaded, find a pleasure in protecting my Maria until I
return, to claim her as my own.Ó
Miss
Scot answered, that from the friendship she had conceived for Maria, she was
sufficiently induced to afford her every support and protection in her power.
ÒShe shall,Ó continued she, Òremain with me until you return; and I will love,
and treat her as a sister.Ó Charles fell on his knees; and Maria, having no
words to express her thanks, followed his example. This was too much for Miss
Scot;Ñshe entreated them to rise.Ñ ÒI am no way entitled to your thanks, as I
confess, I have my own happiness in view. I have a sincere regard for Maria,
and find a great pleasure in her society. If, indeed, it had been to make her
happy, I would, although I confess it would have caused me some uneasiness to
part with her; but I own, it affords me a satisfaction to know I shall enjoy
her society for some years to come, without any prejudice to herself.Ó ÒWords
are poor, Madam,Ó said Charles, Òthey are very inadequate to what I feel at this
moment; but if the thanks of two hearts, overpowered with the sense of your
goodness, will any way repay you, I can assure you of mine, and my MariaÕs. If
I suspected myself of so much ingratitude, as to be ever capable of forgetting
your kindness, I should for ever despise myself.Ó
Miss
Scot was not less pleased with CharlesÕs sentiments that with his person. She
again assured him, he might rely on her protecting Maria; and then enquired
when he proposed to leave Bath. He answered, he was under the necessity of
setting out early the next morning, as the ships were ready to sail for India,
his mother too would be impatient to hear of his getting safe to town. ÒI will
not,Ó said Miss Scot, Òtake my leave of you, as I expect to find you here, at
my return from the cotillion ball.Ó Mr. Worthy came to accompany Miss Scot to
the rooms. ÒI cannot, my dear uncle,Ó said she, Òdeny myself, and you, the
pleasure I know it will afford one with your generous sentiments, of seeing two
people, whom Providence has so nicely formed for each other as those in the
parlour.Ó On which, she opened the door, and introduced her uncle.ÑMaria
blushed.ÑMr. Worthy looked surprised.Ñ ÒGive me leave, Sir,Ó said Miss Scot,
Òto introduce you to my uncle, Mr. Worthy; and when you do MariaÕs other
friends the honour of thinking of them, you will not forget his name, as he is
not the most indifferent of them.Ó ÒMr. Worthy and Miss Scot,Ó said Charles,
Òshall be joined, with my Maria, in my prayers.Ó
After
Mr. Worthy had chatted about an hour with the two lovers, he wished Charles all
the success he might reasonably expect; adding, he could not fail of making a
rapid fortune, as his uncle was governor of so capital a place; took his leave
of him, and wished Maria a good night.
Maria
sent a servant, to request her brother to do her the favour of his company for
an hour. When Mr. Harcourt entered, Charles addressed him in pretty nearly the
following words:Ñ ÒAs I am under the necessity of leaving England for a
considerable time, I would wish you, Sir, to conceive the nature of the
affection which subsists between your amiable sister and me. I must entreat
you, Sir, to believe it is not the effects of a sudden fancy, which sometimes
possesses the brain of youth, and they mistake for love; nor is it the fever of
an over-heated imagination, which takes its rise from the desire of possessing
a beautiful object, which they pursue, without giving themselves any further
consideration, till the disorder abates of itself, and leaves them to wonder at
the strange infatuation which had so bewildered their senses. Our loves are of
a different nature from such as I have described: and although I cannot
ascertain when I first loved your sister, or from what particular motive, you
will not, I hope, believe it less sincere, when I declare, all I know is, that
I remember no time of my life that I did not love her. We have never had but
one heart, and one mind; and if I may be allowed, without being accused of too
much vanity to say it, it is the similarity of our sentiments that has united
our hearts. I would not, Mr. Harcourt, be assured I would not, had I taken a
fancy to your sister from the beauty of her person, have so far relied on
myself, as to have answered that time, or another person equally beautiful might
not have altered my sentiments; but being well assured my affections, though I
am unable to explain them, are of such a nature as cannot end but with my life;
I may venture, with the firmest confidence in myself, to entreat your
approbation of our continuing in the same reliance on each other, which I am
persuaded our hearts are fixed on; and that she will not want a protector in
you. Sir, until I shall have it in my power to claim her as my own, and make
her happy.Ó
ÒI
am going to India, where I have every reason to hope, Fortune will soon favour
my honest endeavours, to gain a sufficiency to support her properly. My uncle
is governor of ÑÑ; he will forward my wishes; and as far as depends on myself,
there is nothing in human nature consistent with my honour, that I will not
undertake to shorten the tedious absence. Let me, Sir, but be assured you will
protect her for me; for in her is centered all my hopes of happiness; and
whatever expence you may be at, on her account, I will then, if it pleases Heaven
but to spare my life, most thankfully repay.ÓÑMaria wept.ÑMr. Harcourt wiped
his face, and then answered, that his affection for his sister was alone
sufficient to induce him to afford her every protection in his power; that her
safety and happiness were his two principle concerns; that if he could only be
assured, he should live to see her beyond the power of Fortune, he should be
compleatly happy.
Charles
answered, that he hoped he should, one day or other, have it in his power to
express his thanks otherwise than by words, which was all he could then offer,
and those fell very short of what he felt. ÒI shall now leave England happy,Ó
said he Òas Heaven has provided two such friends, as you and Miss Scot, for my
Maria.Ó
It
was settled, that CharlesÕs letters to Maria should be addressed to her
brother. Mr. Harcourt lost his fears, on finding how sincerely Charles was
attached to his sister; he began to flatter himself, he should still see her
one of the happiest of women. He took an affectionate leave of Charles, for
whom he felt the affection of a brother.
Miss
Scot now returned from the rooms. Supper was brought in; but other concerns
occupied the attention of Charles and his Maria. After supper he summoned all
his fortitude, and took his leave of Miss Scot. He then took his Maria in his
arms. ÒMay,Ó said he, Òthe Almighty bless and protect youÑmy beloved girl!Ñmy
wife!Ñand all that is dear to me!ÑOh! be careful of your precious health, for
the sake of your Charles, for his life depends upon yours!Ó Maria was unable to
speak;Ñtears were denied her;Ñshe pressed him to her heart.ÑCharles went three
times to the door, and as often returned;Ñhe thought there was something he had
forgot to say.ÑMaria got to the door.ÑMiss ScotÕs tears flowed.ÑCharles made a
strong effort.Ñ ÒIt must be,Ó said he;Ñclasped her once more in his arms, and
thenÑunable to articulate the wordÑfarewellÑshut the door. Maria dropt into
Miss ScotÕs armsÑher soul had followed her Charles;Ñand, for a little time
forsook its old habitation. Miss Scot, by her tender soothings, soon called it
back, and she revived. Tears now came to her assistance; Miss Scot, by joining
hers, lessened her sorrow. How did this sympathy at once endear and exalt her
to Maria. ÒAh, Madam,Ó said she, Òyour goodness at once flatters and distresses
me. I am not ashamed of my weakness, since you can deign to share it; but you
are as gentle as you are great.Ó Miss Scot took her hand.Ñ ÒGo, my dear,Ó said
she, Òto rest; endeavour to compose your spirits; you will, I make no doubt,
one day or other, be as happy as love and a worthy man can make you. You
deserve each other, and that Power, who delights in innocence, will comfort and
protect you.ÓÑMaria pressed her hand.ÑHow much happier are you,Ó continued Miss
Scot, Òthan your friend, who has not the most distant prospect of ever
beholding the object of her affection again.ÑAh, my poor much injured William!Ó
cried she, with fresh tears, Òwhere art thou.Ó Maria looked as if she wished to
know the meaning of Miss ScotÕs words. ÒI am afraid,Ó said Miss Scot, Òyour
spirits are too much fluttered to hear the particulars of my story to night;
but to-morrow morning your curiosity shall be satisfied. You must now go to
rest.Ó
CHAPTER XVII.
T H E
H I S T O R Y
O F
MISS SCOT.
AFTER breakfast Miss Scot gave orders for no visitors to be admitted,
but her uncle, and then began her story, as follows:Ñ
I
was, as well as you, left an orphan; with this difference, that I had twenty
thousand pounds to my portion. My mother died in bringing me into the world;
and my father soon followed her. He left me and Lady D. who was then only two
years old, and heiress to fifteen hundred a year, to the care of my uncle, Mr.
Worthy, who has been so kind a parent to us, we have never felt the loss we
sustained. He, as soon as we were capable of receiving instruction, took a neat
house, a few miles from London, and provided a proper governess to superintend
our education and morals; and when we were old enough, she provided masters for
us, as my uncle had a great aversion to public schools. When Lady D. was
seventeen, he took us to London, and she was presented at Court. This ceremony
was no sooner over, and she appeared in public, than a number of candidates
offered for her heart; many of whom, as you may suppose, were in love with her
fortune, though they all swore it was only for herself.
My
uncle took as much care as possible not to allow us to be introduced to
improper people. He assured us, he trusted so much to our discretion, that in the
matrimonial way, he wished us to be guided by our own inclinations; as he
rightly judged that was the only way for him not to be deceived. He entreated
us to promise him, that before we disposed of our hearts, and as soon as we
were inclined to favour the addresses of any one in particular, we would favour
him with our confidence. This we promised him, and he was satisfied.
Lady
D. about a year after we were introduced into public, declared in favour of
Lord D. which my uncle was very well pleased at, and she made him happy.
Our
house in the country was now disposed of, and it was settled for me to live
with them until I became of ageÑas I had no inclination to marry;Ñindeed, I had
never seen the man I thought I could love.
My
uncle was appointed governor of an island in the West Indies, and, therefore,
obliged to leave England. He invested his brother and Lord D. with his power of
guardianship over me; with particular instruction not to use it in the disposal
of my heart, farther than giving their advice, as he said, ÒHe had so good an
opinion of my understanding, he was certain I should not make an improper
choice.Ó My twenty thousand pounds brought me a number of admirers;Ñsome wanted
to pay off old mortgages;Ñothers wished to discharge their debts of honour;Ñand
some, no doubt, thought it would enable them to keep the best race horses, and
most expensive mistresses. I found no difficulty in discarding those. But, a
Sir Wm. Warren applied to my uncle, and made such proposals, as he thought were
worthy notice. When he communicated them to me, he said, ÒAlthough my brother
wishes you to be guided by your own inclination, still I think it my duty, to
point out the advantages of such a connection;Ó which he did not fail to do, in
the most flattering colours. I thanked him for his care;Ñassured him I was
sensible of his good intentionsÑbut did not hesitate a moment to give him a
downright refusal; at which he appeared greatly disappointed, but urged me no
farther.
This
refusal likewise surprised Lord and Lady D. as Sir William Warren had a very
good estate, and had the address to impose on the world, who allowed him to be
a man of good morals. But I thought I saw something;Ña sort of disguise.ÑHis
sentiments did not appear to be the dictates of his heart. In short, I was
sensible I could not like him, and that was, in my opinion, a sufficient reason
for me to give him a plain, but polite refusal. He had artifice enough to
receive it perfectly easy, and begged he might be permitted to continue his
visits, as he had, he professed, a sincere friendship for Lord D. This, I
answered, I was no way concerned in, as my objection to him, as a husband, did
not go so far as to prevent his being a very agreeable acquaintance. He availed
himself of this, and was very frequent in his visits, until we left town, to go
to Lord DÕs country seat for the summer.
The
November following, I received an invitation from Mrs. Hartford, a very
particular friend of our familyÕsÑto accompany her to town for the winter. As
my sisterÕs situation was such, as to prevent her going that season, it was
agreed for me to go with Mrs. Hartford. This being the last year of my
minority, my uncle and Lord D. made no objection to trusting me to my own
discretion.
Mr.
Hartford, who was then in town, being a member of parliament, had taken a house
for us in Pall Mall; they lived in great style, and their house was frequented
by most of the nobility. Sir William Warren soon made an acquaintance with Mr.
Hartford, and became a constant visitor. This gave me neither pleasure nor
pain; we behaved to each other with politeness.
CHAPTER XVIII.
I HAD not been long at Mrs. HartfordÕs when she had a rout. The rooms
were, as is generally the case on these occasions, very much crowded. I was
standing chatting with some company, who were not at cards, when a young
gentleman entered the room. I was struck with his person, which I fancied was
the most elegant, and graceful, I had ever beheld. I followed him with my eyes,
to observe who he conversed with, that I might, by that means, form some idea
how he was connected. I confess, I felt a strange desire to know, though I had
not the confidence to make the enquiry. I was not displeased, when I saw him
coming to that side of the room where I stood, or to observe he looked
earnestly at me. I caught his eyes more than once.ÑWe both blushed.
Mrs.
Hartford now seeing him, paid her respects to him in so attentive a manner, as
gave me reason to believe he was not an indifferent visitor. She addressed
herself to me, and asked if I would play a rubber. I answered in the
affirmative, and had the good fortune to cut-in at the same table, and likewise
to get the elegant stranger for a partner. I soon found, by his conversation
and the respect which was paid him, he was a man of family; and a gentleman
addressing him by the name of Spencer, I immediately concluded he was son to
Lord FÑÑ, who, I had heard, was lately returned from his travels. This
conjecture was not unpleasing to me; I began to wish to make myself agreeable to
him: and this was the first time in my life I had ever formed such a wish. I
likewise flattered myself he had the same desire, and fancied he paid me more
than common attention for a stranger. After the company went away, I enquired
of Mrs. Hartford who he was; and she confirmed my conjecture of his being the
only son of Lord F ÑÑ. I confess, I got very little sleep that night, for
thinking of him. My mind was agitated between hope and fear; hope, however, was
the most predominant.
The
next morning, just as Mrs. Hartford and I were preparing to go out to pay some
visits, to my great joy, Mr. Spencer was announced.ÑI felt myself extremely
confused.ÑShe immediately introduced us to each other.
He
chatted a considerable time on various subjects. If I was pleased with his fine
person, I was much more so with his understanding. His opinions were just and
liberal, and delivered with modesty; indeed, I saw in him all I had formed to
myself as the height of perfection in a human being. It would be needless to recite
all the little particulars of my hopes and fears; I will only tell you, that in
a very short time I was relieved from the latter, by his openly declaring
himself. You may imagine I did not endeavour to find out frivolous objections
to his generous proposals. He immediately wrote to my uncle and Lord D. for
their consent, and likewise to his father, who did me the honour of a letter,
expressing, in very warm terms, his approbation of his sonÕs choiceÑand with
what pleasure he should receive me into his family. He likewise wrote to my
uncle and Lord D. and offered such a settlement, as even surpassed their
expectations.
I
now thought myself one of the happiest of mortalsÑthat I had disposed of my
heart to a man every way so deserving. I justly supposed he would reflect
honour to my understanding, in making such a choice. I pleased myself with the
idea of what my uncle would feel, on his return from the West Indies, to see me
so happy. All these, and a thousand other emotions, which are better imagined than
described, filled me with rapture for my ever dear William, who appeared, no
only to love, but adore me. The time which was necessary, from decorum, for us
to be apart became tedious to both; and, I confess, I was not displeased to see
the preparations for our nuptials making hasty steps to a conclusion.ÑWhen, one
fatal morning,ÑShe paused, to give vent to her feelings by tears.ÑAnd Maria,
though she knew not the cause, wept too.ÑAfter Miss Scot had a little recovered
herself she proceeded.ÑA young woman, neatly dressed, with a very pretty face,
enquired for me. I was sitting with Mrs. Hartford in the parlour, and desired
she might be shewn in. I thought she was a young beginner in some business who
wished me to employ her. She said, she wished to speak a word to me. I
answered, she might, as that Lady, Mrs. Hartford, was my friend. She said, what
she had to communicate was of such a nature, as only to be proper for my
private ear.ÑI observed she trembled exceedingly, which excited my curiosity,
and I took her to my dressing-room.ÑAs soon as she entered, she threw herself
on her knees. ÒIn the first place, Madam,Ó said she, Òyou must promise, on your
honour, never to reveal what I am going to disclose to you, or I never can make
the discovery, though your destruction, as well as my own, depends on it.Ó
I
was, as you may suppose, very much surprised at this; and without hesitation
gave the promise she required,Ñmade her rise.ÑHer countenance turned pale.ÑShe
could scarce speak.ÑI did all I could to revive her, as I really pitied her.
When
she recovered herself, she exclaimed, ÒOh, Madam! you are too good to be made
for ever miserable, which you must be, if you marry Mr. Spencer.Ó I now began
to tremble. What do you mean? cried I, greatly agitated. ÒI am,Ó said she,Ñ
Òhis wife.ÓÑHeavenly God!Ñsaid I,ÑIs it possible?Ñ ÒIt is, indeed, true,Ó
replied she, ÒI was a farmerÕs daughter, at Oxford, when he was at that
school;Ñhe brought me to London, where he married me; but as he has a father,
who is a great man, he made me promise not to disclose the secret till his
death, and then he would acknowledge me to the world.
He
allowed me a sufficiency to support me comfortably whilst he was abroad; and
since he came home he has sent me enough, and promises, if I am a good girl,
and keep his secret, I shall never want. But when I heard he was going to be
married, I could not help, in justice to you, as well as myself, coming to
acquaint you with his villainy, although I know he will allow me to starve, if
he knows I have made this discovery.Ó Do not be afraid, said I, no one living
shall ever know it from me. I think myself extremely fortunate, in knowing it
thus timely; it has saved me from endless misery. She then wished me a good
morning, and walked away.
I
cannot describe to you the situation of my mind on this occasion. All my
delightful prospects, which I had, in so high a degree, indulged, were, in a
moment, lost. That Mr. Spencer should be capable of such actions; he, who did
not appear to have a thought which ought to be concealed; he, whose pure
sentiments seemed to be only the dictates of his still purer mind, was more
than I could reconcile. I gave immediate orders, if he came, to be denied, and
likewise any other visitors. I sat down, and wrote a note to him; telling him,
that his calling on me again would be unnecessary; that I would never be his;
and when I acquainted him I was not ignorant of every transaction of his,
during his stay at the university, his own heart would tell him my reasons; but
that was all the explanation he must ever expect to get from me; that his
crimes were of too black a nature; that his writing, or any effort to see me,
would be ineffectual, as I would seclude myself from the world for ever, sooner
than have the chance of meeting him. I likewise wrote to Lord D. and my uncle,
and begged them to acquaint Mr. SpencerÕs father, in order to stop the
preparations from going on, and to let them know, I should leave London the
next morning.
I
now determined, in my own mind, never to think of marriage again. I sometimes
regretted letting the young woman go without giving some proof of what she had
asserted, as I wished, at those times, to think him innocent; but when I
reflected on the agitation she was in, and the simplicity of her manners, that
thought, in a moment vanished. No, said I, it must be so, or what motive could
she have to prevent our union.
I
told Mrs. Hartford there was an insurmountable obstacle to my being ever united
to Mr. Spencer, therefore she must not be surprised at my leaving London the
next morning. She was very much concerned at this, and earnestly entreated me
to explain my reasons, and by that means, give Mr. Spencer an opportunity of
vindicating himself. I answered, I was well convinced of the truth of his villainy;
but nothing should force the secret from me, as I had pledged my honour, never
to disclose it.
I
set out early the next morning for Lord DÕs seat; my heart torn almost asunder
with various passions; love still was the strongest. Notwithstanding the proof,
which I thought I had, of Mr. SpencerÕs baseness, I was often inclined to pity
him. I imagined, the inadvertency of his youth might have led him into this
folly, and that he now repented; then the injustice of such actions occured to
me, and turned my pity into rage; then I would regret his loss, being certain
he was the only man in the world I could ever feel an affection for; again, I
was thankful for my escaping from such a villain. In this state I arrived at
Lord DÕs. You will not be surprised, when I tell you, the agitation of my mind
brought on a fever, and I was for some days deprived of my reason; during which
time, it seems, I let drop the words, his wife! Are you his wife? This clearly
proved to my sister my reason for rejecting Mr. Spencer.
When
I recovered, a deep melancholy seized me.ÑI shunned company.ÑI sought the most
lonesome walks, where I might indulge it to the full. My sister carefully
avoided mentioning Mr. Spencer. She concluded, from the state I was in, and
from what she had collected when I was in a state of insanity, I had some very
substantial reason for refusing him, and therefore declined to press me
farther; but strove by every possible means to divert my melancholy. She forced
me, in some measure, into company, and always followed, and joined in my walks.
This I was very much displeased at, and watched every opportunity of stealing
out, as it were, unperceived, that I might enjoy my dismal reflections; and my
sister as studiously endeavoured to prevent my being a moment alone. They
received more company than usual, and were constantly contriving new schemes of
amusement, which at first was extremely unpleasant to me, but it had its
desired effect. I, by imperceptible degrees, became more tranquil, and my love
of solitude a little abated; but I still found a pleasure in it, which, in
order to indulge unmolested, I frequently rose early, and strolled to my
favourite seat, which was under a great tree, facing a cascade, at the end of
the park.
One
morning, as I was indulging myself in this way, I was surprised at seeing a
tall man, with a wooden leg, wandering amongst the trees in one of the avenues;
he appeared in great distress, often lifted his eyes to Heaven, and clasped his
hands, as if in the agonies of despair. I could not resist the desire I had to
know the cause; and addressing myself to him, Friend, said I, do not imagine I
am induced by impertinent curiosity to trouble you with enquiries of any thing
you wish to conceal; but if your distress is of a nature to come within my
power of alleviating, it will afford me great pleasure;Ñand I took out my
purse.Ñ ÒAh, Madam!Ó said he, Òyou are very good!ÑI do not want money; but if
you could restore me peace of mind, you would indeed be an angel; but that I
must never hope for more. I justly suffer, from being too credulous, and too
strictly adhering to a mistaking notion of false honour. May you, Madam, never
know the pangs I feel from pledging my word of honour to a villain, who
deceived me.ÓÑI startled, and turned pale,Ñwhich he observed, and continued. ÒI
was,Ó said he, Òbetrothed to a young Lady, amiable and lovely. Our affections
were mutual; and the day was fixed which was to have made us happy; when a
villain, who had been disappointed, came to me one morning, and told me, he had
a secret to disclose to me; but I must first pledge my honour never to reveal
it on any account. I foolishly gave him the promise he required. He assured me
nothing but his concern for my honour could have induced him to discover what
he was then going to do; which I should be convinced of. He then imposed a tale
on me, which I too readily gave credit to, of the falseness and infamy of my
intended wife. I was bound not to explain my reasons for breaking with her;
therefore, I only wrote her a letter, saying, I was but too well convinced of
her unworthiness; and immediately left the country, and set out for London.
I
kept a correspondence with some friends, who acquainted me, the young lady,
whom every one supposed I had injured, was at the point of death; she could not
support the idea of my thinking her dishonoured, and her life fell a sacrifice
to my credulity. The villain who had imposed on me did not long survive her. He
took a fever, which soon put a period to his existence; but not till he
disclosed his treachery.
ÒYou
will not now, Madam, be surprised at my distress. I wander from place to place,
in hopes to find rest; but in vain. The innocent victim is constantly
presenting herself to my imagination, whom I consider myself as the murderer.Ó
I
was exceedingly affected with this storyÑit bore so strong a resemblance to my
ownÑand he appeared so much affected.ÑI looked at him with a mixture of pity
and concern. You have not so much cause, said I, to reproach yourself, as you
have acted from a point of honourÑthat ought to reconcile you.ÑI do not see how
you could have done otherwise, circumstanced as you were: you might, indeed,
have regretted giving the promise; but it was not in your power, as a man of
honour, to revoke it.
Ought
I not Madam, said he, to have considered the probability of the lady being
innocent, and have put it in her power to have justified herself? Impossible,
said I, after you had pledged your honour to the contrary. I should, under the
like circumstances, have acted just the sameÑand I let drop a tear.ÑIf you,
did, said he, you would feel endless misery.ÑI answered, that was possible; but
it could not be equal to the misery arising from a breach of honour.
I
asked if he lived in the neighbourhood? He answered, no, he only past that way
in his rambles; where he should be to-morrow, he could not determine; but it
was immaterial, as he was now fully convinced his happiness was for ever
lost,Ñand struck his forehead in the utmost agony.ÑI was almost as distressed as
him, and for a few minutes we were both silent.
And
you would, Madam, said he, have acted as I have done? Most certainly, said I. I
am well convinced I should; even were I assured such a conduct would have cost
me my life. This answer, instead of reconciling him, as I expected it would, to
himself, very evidently agitated him more, which surprised me exceedingly. I
perceive it is not in my power, said I, to afford you any consolation;ÑI am
extremely concerned for you,Ñand got up to walk to the house. He appeared
unable to answer me. I looked back, and perceived him standing in great
disorder; following me with his eyes, until I entered the house.
I
cannot describe to you the situation of my mind on this adventure. I regretted
more than ever letting the woman go without producing some proof of her
marriage, or at least letting me know where she might be found; again, I
considered, this proceeded from my own neglect; there was no doubt of her being
able to produce such proofs, or she would not, I thought, have dared to venture
such an assertion, as she might naturally have expected I should have required
them; besides, the story was not impossible, and the simple manner in which it
was told, served to convince me she must be some way connected, if not absolutely
married to Mr. Spencer.
END OF THE FIRST
VOLUME.